My advice is needed because my ex-girlfriend and current best friend has left me and dumped our friendship. I know for a fact she regrets doing it, and I know for a fact the other day she told my friend Sidney that "I feel as though my heart is breaking". So, to get the real advice, it would be better if you knew the whole situation right? Well, here you go.

If you could sum me up in one word, it'd be complicated. My life is extremely complicated. Like most teenager's my love life was just beginning, but no one, not even I, had the slightest clue about how my world was about to be turned upside down. Let me tell you how it all began.
It all began on a cold November night in 2002. I was online, talking to a couple of my friends and watching tv, you know, normal teenager stuff, when a message pops up. It's a girl claiming to be a friend of my ex, Stephanie. So I message her back. The minutes roll on, and me and her have so much in common, it is unreal. It was like a dream come true. After a while, I realized how sweet and funny she was. And I felt a sensation I had never felt before. A feeling, sort of like ESP so I asked her out. For the minute she didn't respond, and I about had a couple of heartattacks, and then when she IMed me back, what I saw made me want to jump for joy! I saw the sentence, "Yes Jeff, I'd love to be your girlfriend". I thought I had died and gone to heaven! If me and her don't end up together then that will remain one of the greatest days of my life!!
I remember her Christmas play in December. It was the first time I had actually seen her ever and it was already getting close to our one month anniversary and I was fucking blown away by her! She was an angel in the play, and my dear God!! She sure as hell looked like one! Those small pretty dark eyes. Shoulder length black hair. Beautiful teenage figure. Everything I could ever dream of my perfect girl having. I remember smiling on the way home, and I remember my mom saying how happy she was that I had found someone in my life that I liked so much.
I remember also one day me and her spent at the campus for Northern High School which was my old school before I switched to Riverside High, the school she attends. Her church is also right across the street from Nothern, which back then, was really convient! I met her like usual by the football field and we walked, like normal, to the back of the campus toward the Science building. There, we walked around a bit and we reached a flight of stairs. As I started walking down, she playfully pushed me....TWICE! It was funny. I remember this day so well, because it holds great significance to me. It was the day me and her first held hands. She looked at me, completely shocked, because back then, I was still really shy around her. But I've grown out of that stage. I've grown into the stage where I love her so much, I would trust her with my own life. I'd do anything for that girl! And one she said something to me when we had had a fight, and she had no idea how wrong she was about it. She said she was sorry for wasting a year and about two months of my time (back then thats how long it was). What she doesn't realize is that our time together, was the best time of my life. And I can say that the rest of my life, because it will always be true.
I remember one particular night, around Christmas, when I went to see her in her neighborhood. I was nervous on the way over, I usually always was when I go to see her. I think it's because I wanted to be a gentleman, and not a complete goof ball. Anyways, I got there, and she gave me the normal third degree about making her wait and being late. I couldn't help but laugh. We talked about stuff, catching up on the stuff we haven't talked about for a while. Every once and a while, I would turn to look into her eyes. Im sorry, I can't help but say this again. She has the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen! I love sitting beside her, pulling her close, my arm reaching around her. Its simply amazing. The walk back was funny because I remember her telling me that she thought my mom was tailing us. And sure enough, she was. Trying to spy on us was what I thought she was doing. Turned out, we were late and she was laughing in the car about how me and her walked so slow! I swear, my mom....the regular freaking comedian. Anyways, we had reached her house, and me and her were standing there, looking into eachothers eyes, and I had asked her what we should do about my mom. She simply said to tell her to leave and come back in a couple of minutes. So I did and after a couple shouts of "But I won't look!" from my mom, she finally left. So I turned and walked back towards her . My hand was trembling. I was so nervous because I knew we were about to do something she didn't like to do. She doesn't like to kiss or anything beyond that, mainly because she feels that anything going far beyond a ten second thing on a touchy feely type thing in certain places should be between a husband and a wife only. But I did it anyway. I kissed her. When I pulled back, she looked like she really enjoyed it so in I went again and this time it was longer. Later that night, she did admit that she loved the kisses, and so did I. I have to say something. That was the best six or seven seconds of my life!
I also remember this time me and her were at Northern, it was the last time me and her spent time together there, and its was memoriable for two reasons. One, we spent thirty minutes cuddling and looking up into the nights sky laying on the grass enjoying eachothers company and the beautiful stars up above and two.......I stepped in a puddle....HAHAHA. The funny thing was is that she saw me heading towards it and never even bothered to warn me! As soon as my foot fell an inch into the water she was laughing so hard she almost had trouble breathing.
I have given her a lot of things to show her that I love her, but no matter what I do, she still doesn't like me, and for some reason, it makes me feel like I'm not, and never was, good enough to her. I have bought her a bracelet, two CD's, a DVD, and I have given her one of the things I charish most in my life, and yet, all still seems broken. The thing I gave her was a stuffed animal. When I was 5, my stepfather was out with friends, doing drugs, and my stepfather fell out of their van and his head impacted with the edge of the street and the grass, you know, the cement part. Anyways, he had to go to the hospital and had part of his brain taken out and now he lives in Ohio and has about the same I.Q. as a fifth grader. And he's 44 years old. It was the last present he ever gave me, and I have always charished it because he was more of a father figure to me then my real dad ever was or ever will be.
I have done some really ridiculous things in my life, I will admit that. But the one thing I will never, ever regret is going out with her. I don't care that I had depression for a while because of this. I don't care I almost committed suicide over it. I don't care that we went out 26 times and we were off and on for almost two years, I do not care what went wrong. All I know is she belongs in my heart. That is why no matter what happens, she will always be there. It's even been like five months since she even liked me at all! I promise to God, the son, and the holy ghost, that if she is scared to be with me for whatever reason, I will change whatever I have to change. She makes me want to be a better person. She makes me want to please her in everyway. She makes me want to be happy. And I want her to have the world. And I know I can give her that if she just opens up and lets me! Me and her have SO MANY great memories and we always make eachother so happy when we're together! Me and her SHOULD be together!!!! But now that she left me as a friend after a long complicated fight, I feel as though I am lost out at sea. The girl I loved the most, the girl who was my girlfriend, and then turned out to be my best friend and possible future girlfriend again, has left. I don't know where to begin with my feelings of regret or sorrow. All I know is I need her. I know I'm 16, and I have a whole life ahead of me, I know. I also know that even if me and her do not end up together as a couple, I need her as my friend. I need my best friend.