Always

Solitude sometimes eases the pain. And sometimes coming here helps as well. I feel that it's sometimes a benefit for I can see everything in the world and just stay out of the eye of judgement. Of course, chosing to step out and putt yourself out ther can lead to rejection in a general sense.

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm... didn't expect to become this introspective today. Eh! ~sigh~ Here comes the "Yin" emotions.


GD

Yeah, I used to feel like that sometimes but not anymore. I try to make people see the real me, see what I'm about and see my many "faces" or "sides" and not see what they wanna' see in me.

A non-conformist. Thank God.
Fatality.

RedScorpio Wrote: Yeah, I used to feel like that sometimes but not anymore. I try to make people see the real me, see what I'm about and see my many "faces" or "sides" and not see what they wanna' see in me.

Huh. Been a long time since I'd thought about such emotions.

For me it's like the concept of Yin and Yang. I might have Yang emotions throughout the day, but I can easily flow into a Yin state. Although, it's not as frequent and fluid the other way. It's a natural change that not many have seen and no one would understand if I tried to explain it to people.

I suppose that's whay I have divergent tastes in music from Rap to Ambient Gothic. In a way, being invisible feel natural because I've been used to it for so long.

Very interesting topic you started.


GD

I just hide who I am, afraid to show me, because "me" has been rejected all my life. I'm always in this internal battle over who to be, what to be, and who I am, to the point that I don't even know who I am any more. Isolation can make you see the real you very quickly. We all have multiple personalities, each with our own internal "Yin and Yang". I still think it'd be better to be completely Yin or completely Yang than to be some combination of either. You conflict, and people will never see the real you. Fatality.

I think the bigger question is do any of you have girlfriends...lol

Garlador Wrote: I just hide who I am, afraid to show me, because "me" has been rejected all my life. I'm always in this internal battle over who to be, what to be, and who I am, to the point that I don't even know who I am any more. Isolation can make you see the real you very quickly. We all have multiple personalities, each with our own internal "Yin and Yang". I still think it'd be better to be completely Yin or completely Yang than to be some combination of either. You conflict, and people will never see the real you. Fatality.

With some people being one with your internal nature requires one to shift and adjust with the external world and what it throws at them. Others prefer to be primarly one or the other. I think I'm an anomoly cause I tend to reside on one side from time to time and also float back and forth. Huh! Not being classified or put into a category is best to stay off people's judging radar.


GD

Garlador Wrote: I just hide who I am, afraid to show me, because "me" has been rejected all my life.

I used to be rejected in some way until I got to 8th grade, then there I developed my own personality which has had several changes as time passes. I used to be a punk rocker until Senior year in High School. I was kind of pupular in 11th grade and one of the most popular guys in Senior Year. Then in my first year of college I started liking Hip Hip and Rap better than rock so I made a drastic change and here I am.

RedScorpio Wrote: Garlador Wrote: I just hide who I am, afraid to show me, because "me" has been rejected all my life. I used to be rejected in some way until I got to 8th grade, then there I developed my own personality which has had several changes as time passes. I used to be a punk rocker until Senior year in High School. I was kind of pupular in 11th grade and one of the most popular guys in Senior Year. Then in my first year of college I started liking Hip Hip and Rap better than rock so I made a drastic change and here I am.

I'm not rejected any longer, though. I found a place I fit in. Here. God bless you, MK and MK fans. You're MY people. And thanks for the advice. Fatality.

I used to be rejected to the point where I could sit at someone's table and no one there would acknowledge my existence. Actually, last summer I had gone to a summer program at Brown University and a great deal of the time I was there, life seemed to be going on around me instead of with me. As it stands now, very few people understand what I truly am, partially because I put up a shield to frighten them away. "I'd rather be feared then loved" one who is loved can be betrayed, plus its easier to gains someone's respect through fear then even being able to gain it through being liked. There are probably 3 people in the entire world who see me for who I am, everyone else ignores, stereotypes, or judges me before they get the chance to understand. I prefer having the few true friends I do have then having many friends who are shallow and may betray me.

Garlador Wrote: I'm not rejected any longer, though. I found a place I fit in. Here. God bless you, MK and MK fans. You're MY people. And thanks for the advice. Fatality.

Yeah man, you're our boy. God bless you too.
Peace.

With any community, you'll find people that are divergent and cool, like this place. They always make you smile, think, and teach you something everyday. Gravitate towards the ones that you find cool and ignore all the tossers.


GD

every day of my life i feel like that....

what?? no way... I feel invisible here,I'm guessing it's due to I cannot really really express myself in writing as well as I speak...

*fades into the shadows*

A lot of times i do especially when im out with friends, we run into some people that me and the rest know and theyll say hi to me then they go about chatting with the rest and its like im not there, like a shroud has been placed over me, and often times its a shroud of depression and sorrow...

Yes, I do most of the time but this is because I choose to be. I really don't like a lot of people so I stay away and don't talk to a lot of people except you guys. Maybe because I don't actually know anyone here so I can talk more although no one as even said anything about me or responded to my posts. Which I guess makes me invisible here as well. It really doesn't bother me in fact it makes me feel better.

Oh and if I misunderstood the question please tell me.

I do, and I've actually felt "invisible" for most of my life. Ever since I was in elementary school, everybody who knew me thought of me as the kid who was always happy, the kid who was always making the other kids laugh.

While it might've been true till sometime around the 7th grade (I've kept up the act ever since, though), people got used to me being happy 24/7, so most people I know in "real life" think that I never have any problems or am never sad. At least it seems that way since they never ask. What's even worse is that there HAVE been a few times where I decide to open up COMPLETELY, and they show concern for a moment, but later on they aren't there anymore.

I know that my problems might seem like nothing compared to the shit others in the world go through, but still. If I show interest in the people I care about's well being, is it that much to ask to expect the same from them?

Guess it is.

I feel ya D, i have the same problem, everyone thinks im this person that is a constant comedian and they basically use me at times to amuse their friends and it hurts... very badly...

my worst problem like that though, is i let everyone walk over me, ill give anyone anything i got and they all walk over me...

MKSECRETS Wrote: I do, and I've actually felt "invisible" for most of my life. Ever since I was in elementary school, everybody who knew me thought of me as the kid who was always happy, the kid who was always making the other kids laugh. While it might've been true till sometime around the 7th grade (I've kept up the act ever since, though), people got used to me being happy 24/7, so most people I know in "real life" think that I never have any problems or am never sad. At least it seems that way since they never ask. What's even worse is that there HAVE been a few times where I decide to open up COMPLETELY, and they show concern for a moment, but later on they aren't there anymore. I know that my problems might seem like nothing compared to the shit others in the world go through, but still. If I show interest in the people I care about's well being, is it that much to ask to expect the same from them? Guess it is.

Always, but i dont mind it at all because noone in my school knows me well enough to acknowledge me...and if they did know me well they would probally would just walk away. I dont have much in common with the people I know. I have 2 or 3 good friends that are there for me when i need them so i dont mind everyone else ignoring me. Which is another reason i come here so often, I have more things in common with the people i dont know well on MKO then i do with some of my aquiantences around my neighborhood.
I may have went a little off topic

Ocasionally when I'm with my main group of firends. There are five of us in total, and of the five I'm the only one who didn't go to the same grammar school as them. They grew up together and I came in during high school. Every now and then when the whole group is together I sometimes feel like the odd man out (and technically I am). I usually end up playing mediator whenever there is tension because of this. When it's only a two or three of us I do feel more involved, but there are those days when I just sit back and listen to them go on and on.

I used to feel like I was worthless. First it was by kids, then the ladies, actually I still have that feeling of invisiblity to the females. I don't get it when the world's biggest tools get a chick in a snap, and I get squat. I try and I try, but no. Or maybe I'm trying too much, I don't. And when I did get lucky, the girl I got happened to be the most dull and uninspired person to ever walk this earth. No, she didn't have a dull tone of voice, I mean BORING, no personality, she did nadda. God, I was the only one putting in any initiative.

Anyway, steering away from that, the feeling of being invisible has reduced dramtically over the years, but it is still there. I get it sometimes when I post stuff here. I'm not being depressing, but when I post something good, most people ignore it like it never happened (well, not my character thread, Etienne, but that's not the point). I dunno. Maybe I need to put more initiative in life, probably.

I hope that answers the question.

P.S. And, no, I'm not lonely. I have many friends.

I always felt invisible when at school. I just hated being there. Even around my own friends I felt invisible and it was just hard trying to cope with that.

It's not a nice feeling either as I'd be doing stuff or saying stuff and no one would see or listen. But that doesn't happen anymore!