God what a shitty ending to such a great weekend.

Friday- For some reason i dont really remember much after school. I know that I went to school, came home, went to work., then i came home and watched the end of the Atlanta Hawks vs Orlando Magic where my favorite team the Hawks won. made me very happy.

I passed up on an oppurtunity to go to this party on friday and asked for extra hours instead. the party was suposed to be insane to. like, ALOT of people, and ALOT of good stuff like drugs and alcohol. ehh, id rather have money to take my girlfriend out or get some new sneakers.

SPEAKING of my girlfriend..

She went to the party. and I trust her enough not to do anything stupid. knowing that the next night i was going to be spending with her. I was going to expect her to tell me what happend at the party and what she did.

The end of friday

Saturday- Saturday was okay. kinda bullshit though. little minor arguements with everyone over pointless, or dumb, or shit that didnt even matter.

I argued with friends over sports, and perhaps i take my sports to seriously.
I argued with family over trust issues. which I won because i am a pretty trustworthy person i would think.
And last I argued with my girl about stupid shit i dont remember.

I live in Missouri, and i dont know if you guys have seen the weather arround here lately; but its INSANE there have been like 1200 tornadoes in the past week and a half and its storming like crazy.

My girlfriend and I have this spot at this park where we like to hang out sometimes. So we went there. and it had just got done storming like crazy, but it was just REALLY wet and muddy and just uncomfortable. (her idea) and it was lightning out but i ike it so oh well.

So she was telling me about the party, and ill try to summerize what she said.

Well we went to the party, and there were like 400 people and they drank almost all the liqour but we brought out own(Smh) and we got drunk off that. then we were chilling and Brenden (one of my best "friends") came up
and we were talking and.... yeah(at this point of the story i tuned out every thing she said because i was concerned about what was said with my friend Brenden)(but from what i remember...) and then the cops got called and we ran and i found people (and a bunch of shinanigans happend and her friend got fucked up and broke her foot. Lol i dont like ehr anyways. dumb bitch deserved it.)

so im like kind of silent because WTF do you want me to say to that?
so i said "so she really broke her foot?" like a cunt. and i just totally ignored what she said because i was kind of upset with her for being stupid. she said it was the worst night of her life. deserved it.

So then i asked. "So what did you say with Brenden?"

She was tipsy and didnt reconize him)(yeah bullshit) and they were talking and... then...(im like I swear to fucking god i dont think i can controll my actions if you say what im thinking) well I broke the rules(at this point im like thinking OH YOU FUCKING SLUTCUNT BITCH) so i said WHAT did you do? she said Brenden said i should make out with Brittany so I did. and im kind of like WHAT THE FUCK. and im still a little lost but atleast she didnt go off and cheat on me. i think i would have to kill a bitch in that senario. and she was intoxicated before and done this. i said i dont care just dont do it again because thats fucking weird and nasty. and she went and done it again. she said are you mad. i hesitated... "Not really" and then there was silence. and she said whats wrong... i was like" Im jsut tired of all of these people i "Trust" and them really lying to me. and shes like am i one of those people. and usally i would say yes, but i said "I dont know are you?" and she said, well obviously becuase i told you what happend and you didnt find out from someone else. Im thinkig wow could you be mroe full of shit. but im like okay, i wasnt nesescarly directing that to you. and shes like ohh brenden? and im like yeah i guess.... blah and i was kinda bitching at her for a min.

then after a min of the awkwardness things started getting good. we started to get a little intimate finally and she said she had to be home at 10:45/11:00 and i checked my phone 10:52

FUCK so i literally spend like an hour and 52 minutes of this STUPID ass shit. oh well

OH I ALMOST FORGOT: she told me this story about how another male hit her. and that pissed me off and she could tell.

So im walking her home at arround 11 and its dark and im being protecteve of these randy kids walking arround. and i got her home.

I went home and my head was fucking killing me of this shit i heard, and i really just felt like shit. so i do some dumbdumb. i took some pills. and that fucked me up for the night.

End of saturday

Sunday- i woke up looked at my phone. No messages. kinda pissed i didnt hear from her. then i got flooded with HAPPY EASTER by abunch of no bodies. finally she sends me one saying. HAPPY EASTER I LOVE YOU SO MUCH<3 and all that SHIT. i was like eh yeh happy easter.

I look at the sports scheduel. game 4 of my HAWKS vs MAGIC series is tonight at 6. somethign to kinda look forrward to.

so i then realize. MOTHER FUCK. i had to go to my grandmothers for easter dinner. at 3 and its like 1

I was expecting oh let me count... i dont know 14 people. and thats alot.

No

there was atleast 50 people in a pretty small missouri house. because some random people in my familly that have known me since i was so young were there. wow what the fuck.

only good part of the dinner was My father, MY cousin, his friend, and Me got to chill outside in the rain eat our dinner and have a good comedic time.

We got home right before my game started.

the game was intence the Hawks pulled it out at the end though (:!
we lead the magic 3-1

this whole day i had been texting my girfriend about random loveydovey stuff the usual.

then we said something that broguht up that guy hitting her. and she said that he hit her friend.

Im like seriously who the fuck is this guy im going to beat his ass. (i can hold my own in a fight, but not really the fighting type)

and she is like YOU NEED TO STOP AND CALM DOWN blah bullshit.

So im like you cant expect me to calm down fuck ths

she calls...

i answer "yeh"

she is all like bitching... you need to stop and a bunch more bullshit

Im like again... You cant expect me to stop, ANOTHER MALE HIT YOU. that enrages me. I was shaking of anger.

and she was like" Remember that time at the park when were were play fighting and it was fun and rough and stuff"

"Yeh"

"It was like that but he took it to far"

i said" i dont give a shit he fucking hit you"

she said "but it felt the same when we were hanging out he just took it to far"

i hung up

because seriously when we hang out its not better than when some punk ass bitch is with you. I kinda felt tears

she calls back... and i hit ignore text her "i dont feel like talking"

shes like are you mad i need to talk to you.

talk then

can i call

yeah dont expect me to talk that much.

So shes telling me shit im ignoreing her and she is all like okay well im going to go I love you.

i said I love you too in the softest most not giving a shit voice
and as she was saying goodnight i hung up.

she texts me a few later "I love you, Richard."

im pretending like im sleeping jsut so i dont have to put up with her.

I think im going to have to do something with my life. i need to step up and really say something or do something to someone or something. that may sound confusing but i know what i meant.




Well i know most of you didnt get past the first paragraph but i really and just upset and needed to vent. and i REALLY dont feel like going back and revising my story, becuase my hands hurt and this was a rage mode post.


OH AND TO ADD TO THE BULLSHIT I CANT FUCKING PLAY MK ONLINE BECAUSE PLAYSTATION IS GAY.

fml