Forevergrey Wrote: I skipped a few pages, but... If you're life is so unbearable that you can't handle it, then find yourself a reason to get out of bed every day. I'm not flaming or trying to be harsh with what I'm about to say, it's just something for you to think about from somebody who has been in your posisition before - If your life lacks reason, give it reason. If you go to work everyday, come home and do nothing untill you sleep, wake up and repeat, you're the one who makes the choice to do so every single day. You don't have to do that, there's more to life than working and sleeping. It's different for everybody, but take the chance and do what you want to do with your life. If you're unhappy with your life, figure out what's fucking you around and change it. Killing yourself wont help, nor will thinking "Oh well, I'll just put up with it". There's only one person who can change your life and it's you, so do some serious thinking and sort your problems out. Shying away from them isn't the answer, we both know that. Believe me when I say I know how you feel. If I had've killed myself when I was 15/16 and was depressed as all hell and felt like my life had no reason, I would've missed all of this. I had no reason to live back then, so I gave myself a reason. And look where I am now, I'm a father with a month old baby boy, I'm in a band which looks set to get signed and tour internationally, I'm in the best shape of my life and teaching martial arts, etc. If I had've killed myself because I felt like my life had no reason, I would've missed the points of my life where I found the reasons that have got me to where I am today. Think about it man...

^This man speaks the truth. Pay attention to him.

Yeh, I agree with Forevergrey, I was gonna suggest getting a hobby, maybe something artisitic, in my last post, but I forgot. But it does sound like you need something new and/or exciting in your life, something to move and motivate you. What that will be is up to you though. It sounds like you just to through the same routine everyday and it's getting to you. That's happpened to me before to, still happens sometimes...

Anyway, there's ways around it, don't need to you killing yourself already, you're only cheating yourself out of your future if you do that...and how great your future is is ultimately your choice.

Welcome back Twiztid. Glad you're okay.

I'm just glad that you're ok Twiztid. Next time you are going through a tough time, there is always the people here that are willing to to help you vent, and I am one of those people.

Twiztid_Ninja Wrote: I just wanted to let everyone know I got out of the hospital this morning....my friend found me passed out and called the ambulance which brought me to the hospital. They pumped my stomach so they could get everything out of me. They kept me in for observation for a couple of days. I just wanted to let you guys know that I was alright. also i saw people wondering about my aim screename. It's TwiztidNinja1012

I'm glad your ok. It's funny how things turned out, cus I guessed that's exactly what would happen. My friend did the EXACT same thing. He popped a mouthful of pills, felt dizzy, passed out and then his mom found him and called the ambulance, they took him to the hospital, pumped his stomach and kept him for a few days for obsevation. I don't know how much, or what you took, but my friend now has problems w/ his liver and another important organ. Hope everything works out for you, and suicide may seem like a good idea but it only causes more grief (and is selfish imo) Glad your back Twiztid_Ninja.

Yeah...I'm sure you're sick of hearing this by now, but I'm here if you want someone to talk to or just a space to babble to. I know what it's like to go through what you are going through and I'd like to help if I could.

its good to hear that you're alive, anyway when you feel depressed again just take a break. remember that a job, or things like that can be replaced but lifes dont.