Good Question.

Even though Im superb at alot of things, I cant get used to this new world age we are living in (2001) and beyond.

1) People arent the same

2) Im growing older

3) I think Im having post tramatic stress from all the cell phones ringing, LOL

4) There are way too many wars and loonatics running around.

5) I have no direction.

The rest is fine :) LOL

I'm pretty content. I'm getting married and having a kid. It's kind of cool but I feel like I'm so old now. I also feel that I'm only 20 and I should still try to have fun while I still can but I kind of messed that up, then again I messed things so I have to take responsibility for it. This year has just been an emotional roller coaster but things are getting alot better. What really suck was when me and my fiance separated right before Valentines Day because of me being a dumbass. Then I started smoking weed and drinking to alot to kind of get through that and it caused more problems than there already were. I mean you stay high and drunk all the time it's hard to see things falling apart around you becase you're wasted. I still have a drink every now and again but not near as bad as I was and I quit smoking. After that I fixed everything I had screwed up. August 3rd is going to be a crazy day though (due date) I'm nervouse to all hell.

I'm not really content. I feel lonely a lot, and I don't have many close friends. I also don't really know what I want to do with my life in the way of a career, and I feel like I'm getting older faster than I'm ready for.

I'm very content with my life the way it is at the moment. With all the tribulations I've gone through over the past few years, for the first time in awhile I'm honestly just comfortable and happy. I have a great apartment, an awesome job, I'm having fun at school, working on my new demo tape, I have my sister there whenever I need her, and I'm in the market for a new car. Things are just going very well.

-College: I'm less than a week away from defending my graduationt thesis. I'm not nervous...yet (I probably will be the night before ). After I do that, I graduate from college in late August.

-Work: I guess I'm gonna have to start looking for a job soon. I AM scared, 'cause it means I have to enter the "real" world now. I do know that I'll have to work my way up the corporate ladder, but I just hope I enjoy what I do.

-Friends: My buds (the males) are still there. It's all good, playing soccer on Mondays, Halo on Fridays, and going out on the weekends. The females, however, are slowly vanishing 1 by 1. It's no longer a coincidence that those who have "disappeared" are the ones that have started a serious relationship recently.

-Girlfriend: Still nothing, and like I've said before, I don't see it changing any time soon.

-Family: The same as it's been for years, though I'm not sure that's such a good thing. Lemme give you a typical conversation between me and my parents: "Mom, dad...I need money."

In summary...I'm ok, I guess. No serious complaints, but I know things can be better.

Not at all. My family hasn't stopped arguing for days on end. No girlfriend, exams soon..ugh.

It seems to me that many people here are using the internet and chatting as a release from the stressful situations in their every day home life. It is a good stress reducer. Any how my contentment is relative to my surroundings i.e. people and places. My Martial Arts training is going well, my excercise program is working very well, I am also taking improvisation, acting, dance, and singing classes. I make extra money as a Stand Up when I have time. Despite all of this there are still many things missing from my life. Maybe someday we'll all be living in our dream estate with the perfect spouse(or no spouse) and not have a worry in the world. Until then I'll give you some advice, you make your destiny and how it plays out, you control your life it doesn't control you. CLIfuckingCHE!