Yeah, I don't smoke tons of pot. I may somehow be able to manage smoking weed every day, but not in copious amounts. I will say that there is that possibility when I start making music money. I'll have to man up and control myself or seek help. I feel I'm strong enough to do either in that situation.

Ah. Avoid the "Abusve Boyfriend" monker.
That's a good point. I thiink that was helpful.

Update- my beard has started to grow out more, and people notice my facial hair appearing as real. I no longer have to have that regret while laying on my death bed.

Exactly, as long as you aren't abusing it, you're good. I'm down to once a week, if that, but that's mostly because it isn't as available to me as it usually is. I'd prefer a bit more but only because the problems that it alleviates have been particularly prevalent lately.

It's strange, both my mother and brother have generalized anxiety disorder, and I come here and see a few folks here dealing with it.

I personally am not a sufferer of depression or anxiety, but I definitely have a few issues that could do with a psychologist's prodding.

For example, I really don't like myself. I feel as if everyone is a step ahead of me and tier above me and that I must do more; that I must prove myself, which often makes me come off as a pompous ass. Beyond that, the slightest mistakes/embarrassments tend to haunt me for years. I still regret mistakes I made as an idiot 12 year old; here and in the rest of my life. This feeling, along with my natural tendency for being an introvert has really made having a real social life difficult. I had about 8 truly close friends back home and have none here and I've been in one relationship in my entire life. I have an innate fear of intimate and interpersonal situations and absolutely loathe talking about myself. Conversely, I have absolutely no qualms with public speaking and I'd sooner address 20,000 people rather than 1 person whom I don't know very well. Physically, I believe myself to be unattractive; I'm too short, my nose is too large, my face to round, and I lack physical strength. For these reasons, I never have mirrors in my bedroom and tend to cover them up in hotels: I only look at them to adjust my hair and clean up. I'm hardly ever not stressed and I've jokingly remarked to close friends that "surly and stressed are my default settings." I also really hate down time; I have to be doing something or I feel like a slouch. Even right now this little post is a little helpful for me, despite my distaste of it being about me, because it's something to do in the utter pain of Spring Break. I hate receiving praise as well; when someone congratulates me on passing my courses, I only think that I could have done more. And when I fail, that is just a sign of weakness: I must work harder.


I always can do more, I should do more, I have to do more. This is really dominating theme in my life. Whatever I've done is not enough for this point in life.

I think everyone has a complex wherein they feel someone is a better example of a human being than themselves. I know I feel that way sometimes, but when I step back and notice the good about myself, I calm down and feel better.

I don't do drugs (weed is low tier if you consider it a drug), I'm not morbidly obese, I try to be nice to everyone I meet (but some people just ask for my rage), I thank people for any favor, I try not to be an asshole (puts carts in proper place at market, etc.), I'm not a womanizer (but I can't escape that it may be possible in the future), I'm honest (today, I was given too much money and I notified the party, for example), and I nurture my talents while pursuing a career using them.

I know a few of my faults are being vague, sporadically quick temper, seemingly anti-social, high usage of coarse language, impatience, laziness (I hate cleaning anything ever and have to be extremely bored or high to do so sometimes), obnoxiously opinionated (particularly when films are involved), and an all around smartass. I'm sure there are more, but whatever.

I say know yourself and think of how not fucked up you are as a sign that you were raised with an iota of decency. In this world, that's all you can really hope for from most people.

I need a Wii-U...NOW D:

Bitch Pudding is the best Robot Chicken character ever invented.

When they drew the triangle, it sounded like they said "choke on the cock."

Hey, all. I have a question for you.

I've recently applied for a job I desperately want. I currently have a steady full time job, but the one I have applied for is my dream job.

The postings for this position do not come around often, and I happen to finally catch one when it was posted. The posting closes April 1st. I am extremely qualified for the position, and I have sent in my resume with a very well-worded cover letter. Unfortunately the only way to contact the company is by sending in your info/application/resume through the website they are hosting the ad for this position. There is no phone number to contact them, and there is no email address. In addition, only applicants considered for the job are to be contacted.

I am killing myself with anticipation of hearing back from these people. My question is: Is it desperate or tacky to re-email my resume? Should I just leave it be, and wait and see? Should I call the company and somehow try to get a contact name or number for the person who posted the ad? Am I reading too much in to this?

I am not typically the nervous type, so this is an odd situation for me, but this is my dream job we're talking about! I can't let this slip away!

I know if I can get my foot in the door for a face-to-face interview I can blow them away. How should I proceed in order to get me to the interview stage?

I have never wanted anything so bad in my life.

Resend it. Let em know you fucking mean it, you fucking want it!

Borrowed Undead Nightmare, bought Left4Dead 2, and now have enough for Judgment pass, Darkstalkers aaaand Kurisu Pack for Phantom Breaker. YEAH.

Edit: lolnope

I'd recommend holding off, but if you feel as if the thing didn't actually get through, I'd alter the resume, apologize for sending an "out of date" version, and send a second.

But still, I'd say hold off.

Yay, my financial aid finally came through...

Finished Hawkgirl's theme and got it uploaded.

Check it out!

I would but my browser seems to not like YouTube right now.

Are you using Firefox? Because I'm having the same problem. Any video I try to play is really choppy and then I have to use Chrome.

Bought Killer Instinct for $4.99

Yes I am, I can't even go on YouTube on Firefox anymore, it just says:

"500 Internal Server Error

Sorry, something went wrong.

A team of highly trained monkeys has been dispatched to deal with this situation."

So my dad had another fuckin stroke....sigh..

Ah, I'm not getting that screen, but videos are just being wonky for me right now.

Found out my ancestor was kidnapped by the Cherokee and burned at the stake.

There's that old self hatred again.

A load of books just fell on my head, I've only got my shelf to blame

in my prayers, hope all gets better.