My names Steve Budd, i'm 17, im currently in college studying ICT, I'd like to end up working in the games industry.

I live with my parents, I don't have a job, all I do all day is play the computer (Cube & X-Box) come online, and chill out with my mates.

I'm currently single, but looking! I really like Asian girls, mainly Japanese.

That will do...

I am 13 years old, in the 7th grade, who's life revolves around 20% studies, 30% of the crazy dream of having a girlfriend soon, and 50% video games. Not much else to say, really.

I'm 22 and have absolutely no future plans or ambitions. I work at a mental health facility where I slack off all night. I am extremely selfish, egotistical, greedy, cynical and apathetic. I live mostly only to please myself. I am a horrible disappointment to my parents and rarely do anything to meet whatever potential I have. My goal in life is simply to get by doing as little as possible. It's pretty nice.

Im 18, I was born in November 30, 1985 in San Francisco. Now i live in San Pablo, 45 minutes away from S.F. I go to a community college, planning to transfer to San francisco State. I live at home, dont have a job, and im not looking for one. I want to be a surgeon, or a filmmaker. Im undecided with what i want to do though.

I'm 20 years old, in community college, and am currently trying to figure out how to gain some self-esteem and will-power so that I can go on with my life. I have many dreams including being successful, being a strong artist, writing books, traveling to Japan, and several other things that seem like they will only be dreams unless I do something about my current state soon.

I used to be stronger than I am now, but when my family was forced to move out of our previous home about a year ago, in the middle of my transition into college, I cracked and lost most of the hope and strength that I used to live off of.

I have strong religious beliefs, and strong philosophies about life, and what I want to do with myself, but I can't seem to find the strength and motivation to live and do what I know I believe and am capable of.

I used to be much stronger than I am now and wouldn't take half the crap that I do now. I let people trample over my beliefs and emotions. One guy in particular has disrespected me this entire Spring semester and I have done very little about it.

Part of my discouragement comes from procrastination, and another part comes from seeing me as mediocre. In high school, I focused a lot on school and dreaming dreams of what my life could be. I took driver's ed. but flunked the permit test and never went back. So basically I'm 20 and can't drive. I don't have a job, am constantly broke, and still living with my parents whom have been a great help in talking me through my internal struggle.

Coming here, and going through college, I saw how mediocre my skills were. I have been drawing since I was five, I have the color-wheel memorized, but when it comes time for me to prove myself in anything, I seem to go into a stupor and stay in my depressing state of mediocrity. I have no faith in my web-design skills as I can't even validate my page at XHTML transitional, and don't even know why because I haven't been taught and I seem to learn faster in a classroom environment for certain subjects. I am working on several novels, poems, short stories and projects, but I never finish them. And the thing in my life where I thought I could find a little peace; the anime club at my college, has pretty much turned on me, exploited me for my help and talents, and left me to rot and die with what's left of all the energy that I had when I first joined.

I am slowly working on finding out how to live my own life again. I often get distracted in fixing my own life because I want to help others so badly. When I am silent, people think I'm weird, or that there's something wrong with me. When I decide to open my mouth and try to join the crowd, I get in trouble, people reject me, and I get trampled down fast as though I am not meant to have any willpower of my own.

I used to not care what people think. That has been drilled into me since early childhood. And truthfully, I didn't care, and I was getting far. Now I'm entirely too conscious of how people see me, talk about me, berate me, and chop holes in my soul.

I have started reading books again, because they used to be great inspiration; particularly the works of Tolkien. That has started to give me some strength. I worked on my novel for about five minutes, and that gave me some hope. I have returned here, once again spewing out my problems instead of talking about the game that I'm not sure I love anymore, but it's a comfort.

But there is still a tremendous hole in my soul, and it literally gives me pain. It will take a lot of work to heal, and every time I get close to healing it, someone else rips it open again, and I have to start from scratch.

I am one that had much hope, tried to share, hope, lost that hope, faked as though I had hoped. I am one that lives from obsession to obsession, going through withdrawals as I try to break free and find some balance that won't let one interest consume me. I am one who loved the magic of innocence, but can no longer live and find comfort in my dreams. I am one who has thrived on imagination, but can no longer imagine what it was that was so dear to me about it all. I am the creative type that no longer understands the concept of creativity. I am one that believes in web-standards, but can't tell anyone why nor prove it through skill. I am the one that believes in art as a freedom of freedom of e-x-p-r-e-s-s-i-o-n, and design principles as great strengths in the world, but cannot find the talent that was once inside me to express that.

I was once found, but now am lost. I was once strong, and now am weak. There is a gaping, bloody, wretched hole in my soul, and I don't know what to do to mend it.
Note: I had to put dashes in the word e-x-p-r-e-s-s-i-o-n because it comes up as thisthingisdisabled. That really hurts and I hope that it can be fixed soon.

NovaStarr Wrote: I'm 20 years old, in community college, and am currently trying to figure out how to gain some self-esteem and will-power so that I can go on with my life. etc.................

! I think now I know more about you than I know about myself! lol. I read the first two paragraphs, and I think I can safely say: well said.

As for me, my job doesn't allow me to expose much about myself, sorry.

Im keith im 20years old, im abit shy when you first get to know me but give it a day and i wont shut up. at the moment im at uni studying an art and design foundation diploma and in october ill be moving to Wales (but is only like a 2 hour drive away from where i live at the moment) to do a video game design degree. i love video games and heavy metal, i have a few really close friends who i love very much and dont want to move away from, but hey ill get to still see them in holidays and visits home. im not religous at and i cant stand politics.and thats about it.

I'm Tommy.

I'm an SNK freak.

I'm a videogame freak.

I often mix SpongeBob with Mortal Kombat/King of Fighters, with hilarious results.

Can't stand overrated stuff.

I like drawing.

I am very creative.

I do voice acting, as well as programming and drawing.

Love games that can be hacked easily (like PC MK4) and can create stuff in.

I love MUGEN. If you don't know what that is, um.....ask someone else.

Been here for 2 years.

Excel at spelling.

In 6th grade, graduating in a few weeks.

Suck at math.

Get stomach aches too much.

Don't get enough sleep.

Like fighting games.

Love computer.

Like flash animations.

Have braces.

Have black hair.

Have hazel eyes.

Crap! I think you'll know me know. Heheh.

Let's see, 20 years old, unemployed for 3 years, kinda shy and a bit anti-social except when it comes to my friends or this board, I don't know what the hell I'm going to do with the rest of my life, I like videogames and wrestling of course, and life is otherwise just peachy keen!

the-one Wrote: im at uni studying an art and design foundation diploma and in october ill be moving to Wales (but is only like a 2 hour drive away from where i live at the moment) to do a video game design degree

Kool man that sounds wicked

Im 21 and attend a community college in which i hope to gain a major in music, psychology and some sort of computer programing...

My ambition in life to be a profeshonal musician in a metal band...

Some of my hobbies r I play guitar, bodybuild, write, draw, study history a LOT, make tank models especially German Mark 5 Tiger 1 and German Mark 7 King Tiger 2 tanks... I am a Christian and try to be the best that i can but as we all know thats near impossible, so i just live life from day to day...

I have severe anxiety but have learned to cope with it... I am a emotional person that puts others needs and wants before mine... i do anything possible to please others... I feel that helping others is the only way to be and to appreciate urself... I am a huge animal lover...

I have a lot of akward and weird habits such as playing out movies and video games in my head the way i want them to be and my hands move from nerves while i am doing that...

I have a sucky love life because I get shy when it comes to asking a girl to go out with me but other than that im out going... about everytime a girl talks to me for awhile and I get to know them I find out that they just do that to get to my friends... I am happy with my apperance but I dont consider myself anything special in the looks department...

I consider MKO.com to be a 2nd home to me in which everyone is my brothers and sisters and I can confide in u all and let out my inner most secrets and know they will be safe...
I feel like i have to compete to keep my friends due to when i was younger my friend Travis would use me and then if i didnt do something for him he would say someone else was his best friend so i do everything for my friends because of that...

Yeah, its wicked. so you guys could be playing one of my games in the near future.

At this forum, I'm TemperaryUserName, although Temp, Tampon, TUN, Temperary, or Brandon will work just as well.

I'm a month away from high school graduation, and although my grades are flawless in verbal catagories(English, History), I'm struggling in my technical classes(Physics, Computer Science). I'm native to Texas, and I'll probably migrate up to San Antonio or Dallas for college.

I'm an avid Christian, and I try to reflect that in both the forums and in real life. Although MKO doesn't permit me to discuss religion anymore, I am allowed to discus my Christian values, and if that were to ever change, I would probably have to leave this place. My beliefs and values have a deep impact in my writing, which I do much of. Right now I'm working on a MK fanfic called mortalkombat atrocities, which will get posted eventually. I hope to be an author when I leave college, but if not, journalism will do just fine. I'm also a musician, being a bass player, singer, and to a degree, guitar player.

I'm extremely laid back, and most people consider me very "non-threatening"(whatever the fuck that means). Also, I swear and curse more than I breathe. It's a bad habit, but it always helps me get a point across.

As for flaws, I'm naturally introverted and very diffident. I'm not exactly a shy person, but if I'm around people I don't know, I'll stay hidden in the backround. Many times when I'm idle, I'll just go into trance, and think about anything and everything and just forget where I am. It's a blessing and a curse, I guess. I'm also a bit opinionated, so even though I'm considered a nice guy, and I have an inate love for debates and arguments. I'm sure that shows in the MKD section, lol.

There's more, but that's all I can type for the moment.

well i cant say my age until it is my birthday(like you care) i like pie and i have brown hair moo

Hmm...where to begin?

I'm 24 years old, and I literally JUST finished college. I defended my graduation thesis earlier today (Monday), and while it could've gone better, the point is I passed, so I'm now officially a college graduate (the actual ceremony will take place in the end of August).

Since I'm done with college, it's time to enter the "real" world. In other words, it's time to get a job. Tomorrow (Tuesday), I'm going to a job interview at a place I LOVE for a job that's MEGA-TOUGH that pays really well. I don't wanna give that many details 'cause I don't wanna jinx it.

With my family, there isn't anything new besides my ever-growing love for my beautiful niece. You know how people always (politely) say "Oh, that baby is so pretty!" or "That's the cutest baby I've ever seen!" Well, I don't mean to brag, but in the case of my niece those 2 statements are true (I'd like to think Shingo and J would back me up on this ).

Besides all that I mentioned before, everything's pretty much the same. What I DO know is that there's gonna be MAJOR changes with my buds. One of 'em is currently studying in Spain (he'll come back in a week or 2, but then he'll go back), and 2 more of 'em are leaving around June (one's getting married, the other one's going to get his Master's, but both of 'em are headed to Miami). Another pal of mine is gonna be spending months away from here 'cause he's gonna be taking several seminars around the world, and another one might also go live in the states later this year.

As for girlfriends...I stand firmly in my belief that if you give 'em enough times, all girls are the same in the end. I know I've been single for well over 2 years now, and while I DO miss being involved in a serious relationship, I know that it's better to be alone than to open my heart to some woman who'll eventually break it into a million pieces (again). Before, I used to feel bad having casual hook-ups since the girl would usually develop serious feelings for me, but now I don't. Fuck it, I've spent too many years worrying about NOT hurting people when all they've done is exactly that.

Oh well, if I DO get the job, I won't even have time to worry about girls.

Well since everyone is starting this out as if it's an AA meeting I guess I'll do the same. My name is Tony, I'm 19 years old. I'm currently attending New Jersey City University and I'm going to major in Media arts. But, for the past year, and for the next year I'm going to clear out all of my prerequisits for my major; major waste of time.

Since I've already covered the crappy points of my life in Nova's thread I guess I'll just talk positivly.

I grew up in a really strict Spanish household. I learned early on to "fear the slipper", because my mom would woop my ass if I did anything bad, and I'm actually glad she did. I'm polite, respectable, and patient because of it. If she hadn't, I probably would have ended up a scumbag who treats everyone like shit. I don't smoke, I don't do drugs, and I only drink socially.

I feel that I'm almost the man I planned out to be. I've develouped my own way of thinking, and I don't allow religion and polotics to rule my life; in fact I've learned more towards karma than anything else. I treat everyone the exact same way at first; but if your an asshole around me, I won't even look at you like a human being. The only thing missing is a girl who I could possibly spend my life with (I'm not saying I'm only looking for one woman, but I'm not afraid to committ and allow things to get serious). Unfortunatly, not everyone thinks the same I do, in fact few do, so that hasn't happened yet.

I have this thing where I don't want people to be able to label me. If I have you thinking I'm white trash metal head, I'll turn right around with the Nautica and Express cloths and go preppy on you. Plus throw in the new car and my house and people just get confused. This may or may not be the reason people think I'm an asshole, but I just like to be comfortable, and to toy with others at the same time. I'm not going to lie, I was born into a privlaged family, but I'm the only one in the entire family that doesn't dictate his life by it.

I enjoy writing, especially on my own free time, when school can not interfere. Plus I'm very interested in the way people interact. Somedays I would just keep to myself and just watch people, and that's how you can see the truth. I've noticed that people develoup their prejedices simply by sticking with people who only act/dress/talk/think like themselves, and I do too sometimes. But at school I'll spend and hour or so watching the metal heads sticking with the metal heads; homies sticking with the homies; and preppies sticking with the preppies. Not once have I seen a group of people that was really diversified; and I definatly use this in my writing. Hence, the Media Major.

I have an impecable memory. Maybe it's due to my staying clean, but I can remember something someone tells me months, or even years afterwards. I've scared a few people with this fact a few times, and I think they felt a stalker vibe coming from me because of my memory. For example, if someone tells me where they are from (town, state, and country) only once, and I'll remember it months later.

I love anime. I've become a collecter over the past couple years, and recently I've brightened up and found the import versions. I LOVE the original Japanese versions, becaomes everything comes much more naturally the way it was intended. I truly believe that anime is the ultimate for of media, because it is more serious that a video game, has the free form of comics but isn't constrained to still images, and can provide more emotional satisfaction than 97% of the movies out today. I'm happy with anime is still somewhat of a cult following, and it is more personal like that.

I love querky independant flicks. I'm down with so called "Hollwywood Blockbusters", and I think these Blockbusters are ruining the art of film making. I was first attracted to indys from Clerks and I've been hooked on Kevin Smith since. And being from Jersey, I really appreciate his work and it's a shame his serious flicks like Chasing Amy and Jersey Girl do not get the respect they deserve. I dare anyone to watch Jersey Girl and NOT tear up, just try!

And now onto music. Music has started to edge it's way deeper into my life and is starting to challenge my passion for movies and writing. I've listened to it all. I went from hair bands when I was little to reggae to hip-hop to rap, back to metal to nu-metal, back to grunge to death metal, to whatever I am at now. I am down with arguing with ignorant people as to what is good music and what isn't. Rap has gone horribly down hill and has now become way to repetative. Nu-metal is pure crap in my opinion, just like rap it has become waay to repetative. In fact it's the mainstream that has ruined those two, and in my opinion the only good music is what I've settled on. I'm really into certain forms of metal (ex. Dream Theater, Fear Factory, Evergrey) early grunge and what it has evolved into (ex Pearl Jam, one of the best bands still around today) and works from anime (ex Kanno Yoko, and the Hellsing Soundtrack). Also I've begun to appreciate the music my father is into, Flamenco, and also other international groups (best ex. I can give is Mago de Oz). I'm not saying that these are the only good types of music, but I'm just clarifying that my taste in music shows no real bias. I'll admit when something that I like isn't exactly worthy of the title of being called music, but everyone has those few that become exceptions.

Let me just wrap this up with some views of culture. For the past few months I've already given out my views on the war in Iraq, the problems with today's society; but what I really want to hit home is the fact that, culturally, the world is begining to melt into one big grey zone. I'm all for this merge, but I do regret that people are going to lose touch with who they are and where they came from. I've touched a little on this in a Spanish thread a few days ago, but here's a quick recap. People have to start realizing that generalizing is becomeing a very bad problem. It's the overly generalized and the overly defined that cause problems, and people seem to forget this. I've been thinking about this because I know, at one point there won't be anyone in my family going to Spain to see where my parents are from, or learn how they were raised. They won't get to see the things that I'm seeing now because they will have their own places to go, and this is pretty sad. I guess that's the problem with time: people forget, and they tend not to care. The only thing I can do, or all of us for that matter, is provide the next wave of people with the best of what we know, and guide them towards an ultimate understanding that we could never fathom.

I know that last part is very vague, and it's filled with metaphors, but it's 5:07 am here and I can't tell if what I just said is a beautiful string of poetry and definition of life, or utter nonsense and crap. Ohh well I'll find out tomorrow when I give it another once over. Or if any of you just read it and respond to it like I've gone off the deep end....I'm going to sleep now.z:o

hi. im chris martin and im 14. i like to skateboard and like to listen to music. my favorite bands r tom petty & the heartbreakers, bad religion, traveling wilburys, ac/dc, black sabbath, bob dylan, and iron maiden. (yea i know i like alot of old rock), forgot jimi hendrix. i like to draw even tho im not tot good. i like to play xbox, best games to play r defintley any mortal kombat or gta vc. im also 5'4 and weigh about 125lbs. brown hair brown eyes and one ugly face. single. live in new york state and its pretty boring. im in 9th grade. thats all i can think of for now.