I've become more cynical and unsure about life, and I don't see it changing anytime soon. I've also become quite socially inept, and I spend most of my free time by myself doing nothing.

Hmm, well exactly one year ago, I was finally a registered member, and I was a postaholic, I made about 5 threads that went down faster than the USA olympic basketball team.(If anyone remembers, my first thread was "Chris Rock:Funny or Annoying"), and now, I know tons of people, I think Ive earned some respect, I know what IMO, rotfl, brb, afk, and l33t mean, and well, things have drastically changed from one year ago.

PS How's it going Pinky? Long time no talk.

I used ten usernames for the past six months and I'm not planning to continue with it.

Two years ago I graduated from High School, and in a little over nine months I'll be graduating from college. So obviously a dramatic change has happened. I've had the oppurtunity to do some unique oppurtunities thanks to this site, and I've met a lot of cool people. I'm finally my own person and all that fun stuff.

And Trish is going to be my future sister-in-law . Ain't that right? Haha, good to see you back Trish.

Yeah I am Scott. Can't wait until the wedding! Andrea better not make me wear some horrid dress lol. And pick a good best man to walk down the aisle with me lol.

I can honestly say I've changed a lot, but, unfortunately, I've been going around in a circle, and now I'm right back where I started.
When I came here, I was a young, MK enthusiastic newbie with no higher aspirations than to perhaps make a few friends and find out more about the beloved genre. Over time, I developed friendships with older members and managed to fit in. I quickly developed a rep and a name, and, for the first time in a long time, felt as if I belonged, that I had people I could relate to, which was especially rewarding since I was still in denial and shock after the death of my girlfriend, the woman I'm still convinced I would have married. In a way, I used the site as a way to forget, to move on, opening up to people yet still remaining painfully aloof. I still never had anything other than one-sided relationships, though, until the day I met K4E, and I still didn't think much of her at the time. Just another newbie. But that soon changed, and she soon stood out from everyone else with her wit, humor, and beautiful intelligence that intrigued me and started a wonderful 3-year friendship. My sorrows were fading, and I had entered into a relationship I never expected, nor was I entirely prepared for, but enjoyed none-the-less. I tried to get my brother to join at this time, but he was very half-hearted about it, but he, as well, took a liking to K4E, but that was his entire reason for staying.
Around this time, while happy, I spent a lot of time confronting my own demons and past misgivings. The truths of my past hurt, and I still have never been open about them entirely, not to K4E or even my brother. I just keep them inside, festering, until they make me sick. I used K4E's song-lyric thread as a channel for what I felt, giving emotional release rather than descriptive accounts of my life. I was torn between happy and sad, sorrowful memories and an uncertain future, and a conflicted present. But, I had my friends, and I was content with that.
Shortly there-after, I met Andrea's sister, Trish, who was everything her sister was, but in a largely different way, yet retaining the same spark of love, intelligence, and wit that left me amazed and awed. We soon developed a friendship, and I grew more comfortable with my feelings.
That was the way things were until recently. Battling with some bouts of depression and loneliness, I decided to see if some of my other friends would join, which they did, then ditched me. Regardless, I tried to "pretend" that they were here the whole time, but that resulted in a several damaging, sad, and tragic turn-out which, regretfully, has ended with tears and anger, and with me banished forever from the lives of two girls I promised myself I'd never hurt. I had forgotten who I was, and I'm damned for it.
Which brings me back to square one. I'm now in the shock and denial of another "death" and loss, staying on the forum for no other reason than because this place saved me once, and perhaps I'm naive enough to think it'll save me again. But interests here started with MK, but ended with interests in the lives and well-being of others, which slowly whithered me down until I became numb to feelings, even my own, until the recent jolt which has proven that I'm not the monster I once was; monsters don't cry. However, I still remain for the people I love and for the people who loved me, because this is a kommunity of people, and the first place in years that I've felt accepted and cared for. I stay because I now have a purpose, a burden, to redeem myself, internally and outwardly, and perhaps fix the mistakes of the past I have created. Besides, my demons have not been exorcised yet, so there's still much more for me to do here. Fatality.

I decided that I actually want to become a screenwriter. *COUGHactorCOUGH* Also, not to be too worried about doing things and thinking something might go wrong in my endeavours.


GD

Not really. I just go out a lot more since two years ago.

I think I've stayed pretty much the same old me. How boring is that? Ah well..*shrugs*

I've come to realize that I'm really on my own. My family and friends aren't always going to be there for me use as a security blanket, and I've accepted this. The only bad part about this realization is that it has created a rift between between myself and everyone else.

not to come and ruin your thread but siddu - you're so stupid that its beyond my belief.

How have I changed in the last few years, let me count the ways:

-I no longer have ANY exceptions to my personal rule of "If the other person shows no interest/does no effort to maintain the friendship, neither will I." There were a select few (all girls, of course) that I didn't mind calling or looking foward to seeing them sign into the MSN Messenger just to see how they were doing. Not anymore. To hell with anybody/everybody who got used to ME being the only one who gave a damn.

-I won't deny there are moments when I feel VERY lonely, but I've come to accept it and I'm almost 100% sure that I'll remain this way for a much, moch longer. I now believe I'm better off and not to toot my own horn or anything, but I really doubt there's a girl here in Honduras who deserves someone like me (personality-wise, I mean).

-I don't let the little things bother anymore. Honestly, it scares me to think how I'm to blame (and not genetics) for having so little hair at such a young age.

-I've come to LOVE this site more than most would even begin to imagine.

-I worry about myself first, THEN everybody else.

ive changed a little bit in the past few months.
im a bit more outgoing,but im also a bit angrier and easily depressed aswel.

PS:do you still have MSN Trish??
id like to talk to ya again.

ShingoEX Wrote: I've also become quite socially inept, and I spend most of my free time by myself doing nothing.

Yeah same here. In no fualt on myself though, but because people who I once consinder friends apperanyly don't value friendship, or are willing to thow it away over a nice peice of ass or drugs.

im 100000000x kooler.

I believe I have changed a lot within the past couple of years. I play a lot more MK (which some of you already know), and I'm much more of a "rock" type person. I let my hair grow out now, and I'm more into heavy-metal music.

I've also made new friends, and I get better grades in school. My past will haunt me forever because of school. I can't imagine having to redo the 9th grade.

My grandmother also died not too long ago, and that changed my life. She was such a great person, and I'll miss her. She always told me to do things right, and I'll try that.

I hung around the wrong groups at school in the past, and I can say that I've never had sex or done drugs. I'm trying to stay away from those things, but peer pressure is tough.

I think that's about it. I would like to thank all my friends on here. TomTaz, IcedOutLinKueiWarrior, and MK2KungBroken, you guys are awesome!

Welcome back, Trish.

I can't say I've really changed in the time that has passed, but just kind of knocked everything up a notch. Basically, I'm just MORE of everything I previously was. A little smarter, a little nicer, but the biggest improvement would probably be my upgrade in confidence. Also, I'm a little more social on all aspects, especially after becoming a portal guard. I've need to boost a lot of my people skills to deal with questions, warnings, ect.

But I'm the same Temp you knew before, for the most part.

SubScorpTile Wrote: im 100000000x kooler.

100000000x0 is still 0 dumbass.

PWNED

I have changed for the better in the last year or so, i have become more outgoing and am not as shy as i used to be and on a big positive note, i no longer have to struggle with my anxiety anymore, i started taking Fluxotine and it has flushed all the fear i was having out, so now i can be myself... but i do still get nervous at times, but that is a part of me that im used to... I remember when i first joined this site i was to shy and nervous to post much of anything so i kept to myself and stayed in the shadows, but boy am i glad i came out of that...

btw, good to see u again Pink, its been awhile since ive seen u post...

Alpha_Q_Up = omFg that was hillarious.

Oh god not another boring emo thread. I normally don’t bother with these, but I just can’t take it anymore.

I haven’t slept in days, my right eye twitches every couple of minutes, and my middle fingers have never stopped pointing at the clouds. Why? Simple, the world has been taken over by shit-eating sissies who refuse to listen to the straightforward, uncomplicated phrase, “Nobody cares.” Seriously. Who gives a shit? Why do you people keep talking? Those are just some of the unanswerable questions that circle my mind when I try to sleep. Why bother? Nobody is listening. Sure they nod and may even respond to all of your bullshit poems, whining, and how you’ve personally grown, but the fact remains, they don’t care. You have no impact on anybodies life and nobody impacts yours. So why even wake up in the morning? I’m sick and tired of people and all of the noise they make. Just the thought of somebody trying to reveal some deep, meaningful truth about themselves or anything else is enough to make my heart pump acid. Your not original, your not special, and nothing you say matters. Just another faceless nobody with their head permanently up their ass.

P.S- This is only my opinion about this thread and all threads like it. I just hope that at least one person out their agrees, otherwise I’m officially insane.

slelica Wrote: Alpha_Q_Up = omFg that was hillarious.

Yeah that was actually pretty good coming from me

Chuckles_The_Clown Wrote: Oh god not another boring emo thread. I normally don’t bother with these, but I just can’t take it anymore.

What sort of threads do you prefer? "who is teh h0tter Jesica alba or KitanA???"

And your Fight Club-style rant, though entertaining and nicely executed, is mostly bullshit. Which doesn't mean you're insane, it just means you're going through a perfectly normal misanthropic phase. Girlfriends tend to be the cure for those.

Hmmmm where to start. Alright NitroDeSade you’re a prime example of why annoying people shouldn’t own dictionaries. But for now, I’ll call you Mr. Misanthropic. I can’t seem to get anything passed your razor sharp detective skills. Not only did you ingeniously discover the similarities between my rant and the movie Fight Club, but you also honed in on the fact that because I think emo threads are dumb that I must like Jessica Alba and Kitana threads. Pure brilliance. And then, if your massive brain wasn’t already maxing out on it’s power limits you cleverly incorporated the word “Misanthropic” into your onslaught of mockery. Easily putting me in my place, oh wait a second no you didn’t. Why? Because your stupidity just feeds my self esteem. You should of just stopped typing and put your head gently back inside your ass.

I can just picture Mr. Misanthropic flipping through the dictionary at lighting speed, with a bit of his moms help of course, to uncover a word with way more than six letters. Moron. Oh and if getting another girlfriend is suppose to change who I am, then I guess I’m just as shallow as you. Maybe even to the point where I have to give up my opinions just to talk to the opposite sex. But if that were the case, I’d choose a hot hooker any day.

PISS OFF.