Hmm, spiders, snakes, heights, getting kicked in the leg during kickboxing, aging

Uhhh...I guess Pungi sticks would be one of the things I fear most in life. I mean, just to be walking and suddenly your foot falls through a pit with SHARPENED and HOLLOW bambo...Sharp and Hollow...Dude thats just sick..I mean c'mon. The pungi stick would be inside your foot and your foot would be inside the hollow part of the Pungi stick.

OOOOWWWW!

I guess just not accomplishing anything worthwile.

fear of long words.....gonasyphaherpalaids, ahh!

My future. I'm so paranoid of how my future will turn out, especially since my God forsaken mother puts so much pressure on her kids.

and spiders.

As a lifeguard, I would say drowning

and spiders LOL.

Anyways,besides not accomplishing anything in life,I guess never doing anything that I always wanted to do,like get a black belt or join the Army.

spiders - poisoness or not stay the hell away from me!
scientoligy and its followers. - pure evil!
clowns - i never got over the day i was biten by one
zombie invasion - its gonna happen someday
bears - pure evil!
and president bush! - enough siad!

ghosts......for some reason yeah.....darkness too.....


Oh and hey redman. its been awhile since i saw you online. probably cause i've been gone for a month.

Oh, hey subzero havent seen ya on for a while.

Hmm.... I normaly wouldn't do this, but I am feeling somewhat open right now. I would realy appreciate it if noone attacked me for what I am about to say, because it is quite difficult for me to express.

My only real fear is kind of a complicated and almost contradictory sence that the world could just be a mass of monolithic evil and decay.

I will try to explain. I am afraid that there is nothing to this world. That it is just a random mass of carbon that has formed through dumb luck. I am afraid that there is no god, no heaven, no hope for the after life. I am afraid that the evil, and brutal will always prevail where the kind and civil fail. I am afraid that all of my beleifs in pacifism and decency are realy just the misguided notions of an idealistic mind, and I should just bite scratch claw and kill for what I want. I am afraid that my views of the world are jaded, and that it realy doesn't pay to be a good person. I am afraid that I will always fail, because I seek to be good to people first, and to be good at what I do second. I am afraid that people who know me well do not like me because I am not fun, that I spend to much time thinking and not enough time being amiable. I am afraid that I am just a biproduct of a misguided and surealistic society. That I am,in fact, a little to crazy for my own good and I should just quit everything that I am doing with music, studying, and travel, and just be an average person with a wife and two kids.

The complicated and ambivalent part comes in when I start to think of the alternative. That maybe just maybe there is a god, a creative force if you will, and that I have angered him by living my life outside the boudaries of a religious order. That maybe my morals are not as strong as I think, and because of that I will go to hell, or be reincarnated as some kind of hideous and tortured being.

These are, of course, underlying fears and not things that I think of every day. I realize that this is alot to think about, and I am sorry if this all sounds crazy. I just got into a major introsepctive mojo thanks to this simple question.

Of emptyness.

Spiders
Bugs
Insects
Most animals
Heights
Claustraphobia (sp?)
Blood
Horror movies
Trucks and Buses (yeah, I know thats pathetic, but when driving next to them I always get scared they will crash into me and I'd die :-O)
Those dolls which people stick their hands up and they talk... forget their names
Death
Aging
Rejection
Drowning
Crowds
Loneliness for extended periods of time
Failure
Loud Noises
Dead things
Needles

+more I cant think of off the top of my head

Similar to what 5animals put.

Everything being for nothing, but I’m sure everyone seeks purpose.

I hate loneliness. It always reminds me to my late friend. Perhaps I'm getting paranoid because I always feel that he still arounds me when I'm alone and that makes me little frightened.

I have necrophobia.

And coloraphobia.

1,communists

2, water&air

3, the number 3

Well it sounds like you lost all faith in humanity. The nice people havnt died out yet. Its just that nice people don't want to be steped on or taken for granted anymore. You have a life, make the best out of it. If you can't defeat your demons, then why are you still trying? Because you beleive you can.



And the only thing Im afraid of is losing my love for my girl.

I haven't lost all faith, there are just moments when I have very little faith. I try to comprehend the world form many different views, and that is probably my darkest veiwpoint. I know what you are saying, there are just times when it seems to me that humanity has lost itself. That being said, I still love every second of life, and I love all people. I just don't always like them

it is difficult to have faith in humanity these days

we live in a world where fathers killing there wifes and rapeing their kids are commenplace

its easy to lose track of faith in humanity

god realizing i have had thoughts of killing people.


thats a lie, im an athiest

i guess its emos

Ugly people. *Runs away screaming*

Spiders, failure and rejection.

Spiders and heights. Heights I can get used to afetr awhile.