PRAIRIE

Laying on this grassy plain,
Watching the sun rise across the sky,
It erases all the pain,
It dries the tears from my eye,
Maybe it isn't so bad after all,
Maybe it isn't so bad after all,

I can see you in the distance,
Coming up the drive,
Still driving that chevy pick up truck,
Easily twenty years old,
So carefree, never giving a f**k,
And I can say that you're all mine,
And after all this time,
When you look in my eyes,
You still make me smile,

Our children are long and gone,
Off to find themselves,
In this crazy world gone wrong,
And we did them right,
We tried our best to give them a good life,
I can say with pride,
That they are our greatest accomplishment,
And to think that we were only 19,
19 and dreaming,
When little Vince was growing in my tummy,
22 when Angela was born,
And 24 when Jayson took his first breath,

I put aside my dreams,
To be with this man I love so much,
To raise his family,
And have his heart as my own,
I wanted to be something,
And now it feels that I'm left with nothing,
At least that's what the city girl sees,
When she glares at me,
But I'll have more than she'll ever know,
I may not have much to show,
But what I have is a pure heart,
Wonderful children,
And true love by my side,

And as I lay on this grassy plain,
Watching the sun paint the sky,
It erases the regret,
I hold my head high,
Because it ain't so bad after all.

can't say hi, Trish? lol

Slica - ;)

hey slica! its been awhile. whats up?

this is a very personal song for me. i think its one of the best songs that i've written in a while. and just sharing it with all of you isn't exactly very easy for me either. its also a very very different style of writing for me. its very contemporary as opposed to my alternative/folk style of writing.

MINE AGAIN

Shattered dreams,
That's what my life came to be,
That day that you left me,
When sorrow became all that I know,
When sadness is all that I show,
And all I can feel is heartbreak,
Is when I realized that this all too much for my heart to take,
You were the light of my life,
And now that you're gone,
I feel a void inside,
It's like I've died,
And the days are so dark, and long,

And everytime I think of you I cry,
Everytime I miss you, I just want to die,
I know I'm holding on in vain,
I should just succumb to the pain,
But my heart won't let me let you go,
I still love you so,
And as long as I live,
I'll give all that I can give,
In hopes that you'll be mine again,

When I'm laying in my bed at night,
Trying to forget the day,
I can still feel you holding me tight,
And I wane away,
I'd do anything to have you here,
But I fear,
That I've done too much,
To ever again feel the warmth of your touch,
Without you I have no reason to breathe,
Its like my world was ripped from the seams,
Because you were everything to me,
But now you're gone,

And everytime I think of you I cry,
Everytime I miss you, I just want to die,
I know I'm holding on in vain,
I should just succumb to the pain,
But my heart won't let me let you go,
I still love you so,
And as long as I live,
I'll give all that I can give,
In hopes that you'll be mine again,

I saw you today holding her hand,
I spiraled down into the sadness again,
And when you looked me in the eye,
I did all that I could not to cry,
You stared at me just like you used to,
But it was too much for me to bear,
After all that I've gone through,
All I could do was run away,


Everytime I think of you I cry,
Everytime I miss you, I just want to die,
I know I'm holding on in vain,
I should just succumb to the pain,
But my heart won't let me let you go,
I still love you so,
And as long as I live,
I'll give all that I can give,
In hopes that you'll be mine again,

Mine again,
Mine again,
I hope and pray,
Every night and every day,
That in the end,
You'll be mine again.

well babe, althought you pointed it out as one of your better ones, I honestly think it is...mainly for the style and the words...works well together...


I feel like I've written two good ones lately, "Slide" and this one...


Title - Running Out Of Dreams

where it hurts the most, sleep can cure
but you miss another nights rest
and while im awake, you can't hear me
im just running out of dreams

and my eyes fall from positivity
and they fade to black
yesterdays forgotten the morning after
turning away from the echoes and laughter

and its new to me

im running out of dreams
and its new to me

gaze into the night
gaze into the night
and its full of anxiety

and its new to me

and I've lost all my train of thought
and im blaming the lack of sleep
and the stars won't catch my fall
and its new to me

gaze into the night
gaze into the night
and its full of anxiety

and its new to me

while noone ever sings the same song
ill be whining all the way
the moonlights shining over me
not exactly what I need

the moonlights shining over me
stealing away all my dreams
stealing away all my dreams

*fades*
and its new to me
and its new to me

Slica - then again, the ones I write and have music for...seem to be the ones that stand out for me...

Scorpion featuring KoRn-Burn some off

I have lived it without you
You thought everything will be fine
I find making it hard to lie
Realize I have nothing left inside

I'm about to burn you fucking down
Going to lose my face
I'm about to burn you fucking down
I'm won't leave you in disgrace
I'm about to burn you fucking down
Know the death you face
I'm about to burn you fucking down

My strikes are going to hurt you
my fate is not going to wait this time
I pray, I would win alone against you
I know, you're going to believe this time

I'm about to burn you fucking down
Going to lose my face
I'm about to burn you fucking down
I'm won't leave you in disgrace
I'm about to burn you fucking down
Know the death you face
I'm about to burn you fucking down

Feel me as I'm laughing
Fighting, killing, knowing
Hating all this bullshit
Maybe I can't stand this
Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck
I can't stand this

Fuck
I'm about to burn you fucking down
Going to lose my face
I'm about to burn you fucking down
I'm won't leave you in disgrace
I'm about to burn you fucking down
Know the death you face
I'm about to burn you fucking down
Off, off, off, off

Garlador My Prayer is really breath taking... Well...

This is my all time favourite poem by Giuseppe Ungaretti. It`s simple but so beautiful and means a lot to me. I also post the englisch translations.

Sereno by Giuseppe Ungaretti

Dopo tanta
nebbia
a una
a una
si svelano
le stelle

Respiro
il fresco
che mi lascia
il colore del cielo

Mi riconosco
immagine
passeggera

Presa in un giro
immortale

------------------------------------------------------------

Serenely
After so much
fog
one by
one
the stars release their
haze

Breath
the freshness
that leaves with me
the color of the sky

I recognize
a fleeting
image

Caught in an
endless circle

So many old faces. I feel right at home...

"Trance"
They say that people are dust, yet dreams never die.
Things like hope and trust aren't enough to just get by.
I knew this so well, and I still stumbled along;
In my own dark hell, praying for acceptance, to just belong.
The secrets of my heart, sealed away from all eyes,
And when I drifted apart, I finally came to realize
That she still mattered to me, more than a precious memory.
Every time I stop and breathe, I feel her breath enter me.
Tears of sadness and tears of joy mingle in my painful peace;
Such strong feelings, none can destroy; this is my release.

I fall in love, your touch deeper than skin.
You hold me close and I feel your heart within.
You're more beautiful than I deserve, so why'd you take that chance?
I get lost in your diamond eyes, and I find myself in a trance.

Vampiric lore and crimson tears tell the story of our lives.
Gothic light, pain throughout the years, and the pain still drives
Me to my utmost breaking limit; but your touch still lingers here.
Your radiant, angelic light; none can dim it; I have nothing to fear.
Baby, you and I were one of a kind, two hearts fused with one soul.
You're everything I couldn't find, and you complete me; make me whole.
You make me wiser, you make me strong; my nightmares now disappear.
Darling, I love you, but you knew that all along, love so deep and near.
There are so many things I wanted you to know, so many things to do.
Bright stars above and horrid hel below cannot keep me from you.

I fall in love, your touch deeper than skin.
You hold me close and I feel your heart within.
You're more beautiful than I deserve, so why'd you take that chance?
I get lost in your diamond eyes, and I find myself in a trance.

So strong and so right. My day and my night.
My fate and my choice. My will and my voice.
My smile and my tear. My love so very dear.
My hell below and heaven above. My dearest one, my love.

I fall in love, your touch deeper than skin.
You hold me close and I feel your heart within.
You're more beautiful than I deserve, so why'd you take that chance?
I get lost in your diamond eyes, and I find myself in a trance.

Fatality.

"Angel of Darkness"
Don't ever say that things aren't meant to be
(Living day by day is no kind of reality;)
People fear and hate and break down and cry
(But without love, they can't even get by.)
Another dark, rainy day to think things through
(And here I am, still dreaming of you.)

You're an angel of darkness,
A fallen glimmer of hope.
You're a vision of starkness
Against a world of lovers' eloped.
Maybe one day you'll see,
That you're mean so much more to me.
Maybe you'll find yourself that more forgiving,
And find another reason to go on living.

Step by step, that's the way to go
(Trying to get by the rumors everyone else knows).
A colossal fault in the annals of history
(And even you try to get the best of me.)
You're so pure, yet so fallen from grace
(And you hide a hidden snear in that angelic face.)

You're an angel of darkness,
A fallen glimmer of hope.
You're a vision of starkness
Against a world of lovers' eloped.
Maybe one day you'll see,
That you're mean so much more to me.
Maybe you'll find yourself that more forgiving,
And find another reason to go on living.

You're like an addiction I can't destroy
(Causing me such conflicted grief and such joy;)
I don't think I could live a day without seeing you
(And still I think you think these feelings untrue.)
On your dark wings, let's fly away from here
(Because everything I loved and feared draws near.)

You're an angel of darkness,
A fallen glimmer of hope.
You're a vision of starkness
Against a world of lovers' eloped.
Maybe one day you'll see,
That you're mean so much more to me.
Maybe you'll find yourself that more forgiving,
And find another reason to go on living.

Fatality.

I have a request from everyone who posts in this thread. Use your creativity and create your own Holiday song or a poem. Describe how Christmas, Hannukah, Kwanzaa, or any holiday makes you feel. Can't wait to read them all.

My holiday song, is called 'Rock The Halls'. A spin on the title 'Deck The Halls'. It's an up-tempo song, yes I know I don't post many of those, it lacks something since you can't hear the music with it, but I decided to post it anyway. Don't worry, you'll be getting some holiday ballads from me very soon.

'Rock The Halls'

Woke up this morning and saw that snow falling,
And now I know that there’s no more waiting,
Its Christmas Day finally,
And this year I get to spend it with my baby,
And I’m gonna meet him underneath that mistletoe,
I’m gonna roll around with him in the snow,
And I’m gonna show him that I love him so,
And when the lights are low,
Were gonna rock the halls,

Sitting by the fireplace,
With the flames blazing,
Its so romantic and you know its gonna,
Get me jolly,
Underneath the decorations of holly and ivy,
Forget the wrapped goodies,
Instead you can unwrap me,
And by the light of tree,
Were gonna rock the halls,

Christmas with you means everything to me,
And I’d do anything make you happy,
Because for the first time,
I’ve got everything I’ve ever wanted,
And its wrapped up in you,
I’m so thankful for everything you do,
The way you laugh,
The way you smile,
The way you look at me,
The way you make me feel like Christmas is everyday,
And my Christmas wish this year,
That our love always stays this way,

Woke up this morning and saw that snow falling,
And now I know that there’s no more waiting,
Its Christmas Day finally,
And this year I get to spend it with my baby,
And I’m gonna meet him underneath that mistletoe,
I’m gonna roll around with him in the snow,
And I’m gonna show him that I love him so,
And when the lights are low,
Were gonna rock the halls,

Come sit next to me,
Lets toast to a Merry Christmas,
And a happy new year,
Oh baby,
And lets lay by the tree and watch it shine,
And secretly I’ll revel in the fact that you’re all mine,
And then when the lights burn low,
When we can see snow falling outside the window,
Let’s rock the halls.

hmmm....what Christmas means to me huh? well i'll try....

MAGICAL

Lots of mistletoe,
Mounds and mounds of snow,
And everywhere you go,
Carolers singing high and low,
The hustle and bustle of the city streets,
The promises that Santa keeps,
Silver and gold decorated trees,
Lights of reds, and blues, and greens, and pinks,

Everywhere you look is a little bit of Christmas,
Everything you see,
Is a little piece of Holiday cheer,
And everyone you meet will wish you,
A Merry, Merry Christmas,
And a Happy New Year,

No time for frowns and greed,
Because a smile is all you need,
It can light the way,
To Christmas Day,
Just as long as you believe,

And everywhere you look is a little bit of Christmas,
Everything you see,
Is a little piece of Holiday cheer,
And everyone you meet will wish you,
A Merry, Merry Christmas,
And a Happy New Year,

So when all you see is the sparkle of your Christmas Tree,
O when you're laughing on that joyous sleigh ride,
Keep that moment inside,
And when you're feeling low,
Just close your eyes,
And you'll see your tree's magical glow,
And all of a sudden you'll feel the falling of snow,

O why can't Christmas be all year,
Just raise your cups of Christmas cheer,
Let's celebrate Christmas while its here.

Sheesh, you're so demanding, Andrea. Lol.

"Firelight"
It's so cold outside; look as the snow falls.
It's so warm inside; mistletoe lines the halls.
Snowmen smile at us from across the lawn;
The faint sound of carollers singing their songs.
A grand, beautiful tree, decked to the hilt in glass balls and colored lights,
With a Lincoln-log cabin, home to baby Jesus, wrapped warm and tight.
Me in my chair, looking at you with that orange glow on your sweet face,
So warm and happy in those homely, festive, Christmas-decored place.

Let the snow fall; let the holiday fill the air.
Sound the roll call; you know I want to be there.
Until then, I'll stay with you, keep you warm and hold you tight,
Drinking eggnog, you and me, by the warm firelight.

Sleigh bells ringing; Santa coming down the street.
Angels now are singing; boxed gifts line our feet.
The boys in the yard in a snowball fight, enjoying the day;
Girls laugh as they make snow angels where they lay.
Two stockings, one for me and one for you, hang above the fireplace;
Looking at you now, a vision no mortal could dare to ever replace.
You move to the doorway, where the mistletoe is, with a bound and a skip,
Then pull me close with a haughty smile and plant a kiss upon my lips.

Let the snow fall; let the holiday fill the air.
Sound the roll call; you know I want to be there.
Until then, I'll stay with you, keep you warm and hold you tight,
Drinking eggnog, you and me, by the warm firelight.

I went outside for a walk, to see how the winter wonderland begins,
Stopping every now and then to talk with neighboors and their dear friends.
All laughs and all joy, such a peaceful spirit lingers here.
Children with their new toys, and carols lingering for all to hear.
There's something magical about this season and its touch,
Giving people hope and love that we've needed so very much.
But I hurry home, because I know you're waiting for me;
The greatest gift Santa gave me tonight was you; you make me happy.

Let the snow fall; let the holiday fill the air.
Sound the roll call; you know I want to be there.
Until then, I'll stay with you, keep you warm and hold you tight,
Drinking eggnog, you and me, by the warm firelight.

Fatality.

I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then the shit would see
How tired I am
And how shit got the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
You are taking my life and selling it, tehehe
Why should I complain?
At least it helps my pain
I am very cool now
And it's gossip 'bout my fame
I am going insane
This shit is all of a pain
I cannot maintain
As the shit gnaws at my brain
I wish you could be me
And then the shit would see
How tired I am
And how you get the best of me
At least you could look at me
While you are ripping me
You fuckin pussy

This is a tribute

Man, I only made a poem in Portuguese - my only poem in all my life. That's why it's untitled.
Then, I'll translate it freely to English right here (don't find strange the lack of rhymes):

Excuses can't explain what I feel
It ain't up to you to know what I do
I'm a person and, as such, sometimes I lie
To avoid intruders inside my space

You can't ascertain what goes on
Within my thoughts
As I don't think like "Everybody"
Everybody hurts my feelings

Who's that "Everybody"
Who everybody talks about?
He ain't part of my world
I think it's just some moron
Who tries and makes it all the right way
But who said I want it?
I just wanna be myself
Strapped to my wills and addictions

You don't like what I do
I don't like what you do
It may seem uncompatibility
But it's just the ability
Of the opposites' attraction
Violent atricts, both on your marks
But the human difference is equality
My mind is a problem of mine
Then, please, simply put
DON'T YOU PENETRATE MY MIND!!!

Well, I'm not good at this kind of thing, as you just saw.

"Night Ride"
Baby, it's another damp, dark day.
Another hour to kill and sit at bay.
We could waste away the hours staring at the sky,
Or hypnotizing each other by staring into each other's eyes.
We could play a fun board game, to put our minds to the test,
Or we could sleep dreamily, to put our mind to rest.
We could do many things; there's a lot to do inside,
But just for tonight, let's go out for a night ride.

Snowflakes float daintly to the ground
While sleigh bells sound from all around.
The brisk air sting our bare faces, we hope there's no delay,
My flailing my arms madly about as we signal forth a sleigh.
I help you in, and we sit arm in arm, snuggled close together,
Then with a jolt, we glide along, feeling as light as a feather.
You smile at me and close your eyes, resting your head on my shoulder;
I smile myself and put my coat around you as I feel the air grow colder.

The cool night is lit by fireflies in the dark,
Bright memories engraved and leaving their mark,
And I feel you stir and find you fast asleep, dreaming away on our ride,
And I in pensive wonderment, ponder how I could feel so alive.
We take one stroll of the quiet neighboorhood, then stop back at our door;
You still dreamily recounting the journal, and still yearning for much more.
But, the night grows short, and our time we can no longer bide,
So we sleep through the night in bliss, dreaming of our snowy night ride.

Fatality.

"Gift"
When we were both kids, still pure and young,
I sat with you, listening as the birds sung,
In an old park, full of giant trees and fallen leaves,
In the cold, bitter winter, with gloves over our sleeves.
I was stupid and you were naive, and we couldn't care less;
The world was ours for the taking, and we tried our best.
You and I made a vow, that we would come there again someday,
And maybe after the snow had come, you'd keep me, no push me away.

You were a gift,
From God to me.
You were a blessing,
My heart in ecstacy.
You were my hope,
My angel from above;
You helped me cope,
And earned my eternal love.

On the swing-set, we watched the sun sink into the west,
Then were arm-to-arm, held closer than skin, warm, lest
The cold of the night chilled you to the bone, and left me alone,
But I held you strong and I held you near, my hands as cold as stone.
You gave me my reason to live, back then. You were my eternal fire;
You gave me strength and resolve. You were my one and only desire.
Now those days are gone, but I still return to the park, still so strong,
And still I wait for you, praying that you'd remember and come along.

You were a gift,
From God to me.
You were a blessing,
My heart in ecstacy.
You were my hope,
My angel from above;
You helped me cope,
And earned my eternal love.

Darling and dear, my love and my life, you were everything to me.
A child, though I had been, you were the first person to ever see,
To see beyond the flesh, and to see my heart beating inside;
You saw my love, and you came close; in you, I'd confide.
You kissed me and loved me, and whispered my name at dusk,
Invoking in me newfound desires, and pure, unadultered lust.
And now I wait, in that same park, swing in that same swing-set,
Hoping you'd remember, and come back to where we first met.

You were a gift,
From God to me.
You were a blessing,
My heart in ecstacy.
You were my hope,
My angel from above;
You helped me cope,
And earned my eternal love.

Fatality.

This next song is actually a duet written by myself and fellow boardmember Garlador. We have both found comfort and solace in one another through similar life changing experiences. And we have decided to write a song together, to express the great deal of emotion that goes into not only our friendship, but our lyric writing, and in the way live, and in the way we love.

'Lost Love'

[Lover]
They say that it’s better to have loved and lost,
Then never to have loved at all,
But this agony that I endure everyday seems to come at too high a cost,
And its all so fresh in my mind that every night I still wait for you to call,
Hoping with every breath that I take I’ll be in your arms,
Like just I used to be so long ago, safe from harm, succumbing to your charms,
Feeling your breath on my neck and your lips against mine,
It tears me apart and breaks my heart everytime those memories enter my mind,
So I do all that I can to push them away,
But no matter what I do they always stay,
So I hold what I have left of you as close as I can,
Hoping that you’ll descend from heaven and take my hand,
So that we can fly together for always,
And things can be like they were back in those golden days,
When we could laugh, and cry, and be,
Always planning, always believing it would be for all eternity
And though it does not stop the pain that I’m going through,
I knew it then as I know it now that you were too good to be true,
God saw all the beauty and love inside of you,
And so he took you from me,

--Chorus--
[Lover]
Angels cannot dwell in this mortal plane;
God called you back to heaven above.
I feel your presence in the weeping rain,
And weep along for my lost love.

[Beloved]
Don't weep for me,
I now know nothing but peace.
I'm safe from all danger and harm.
Away from all tears, pain, and disease,
Waiting to embrace you in my arms.

[Both]
And though we're worlds apart we have to be strong.
Through the storms, the tears, and those lonely nights we have to keep on singing this song.
So that the life we shared will never be in vain.
We can't succumb to this deep, shattering pain.
And when we finally close our eyes we have to dream of
Our lost love.
--End Chorus--

[Beloved]
My darling, my life, I still think of you and I love you,
Though I be far from your touch, that love's still true.
Even in heaven, with the angels, paradise still is incomplete,
Because you're not with me, my spirit, my eternal heart-beat.
I see you as you cry over my grave, and I wish to hold you again,
To feel your warm embrace like a wave washing over me to no end.
I cannot weep and I cannot cry, but I miss you so very much;
My soul cannot rest because it lies in you; I crave your very touch.
Yet, I know you'll be with me soon, and we'll laugh and we'll sing,
And it'll be like before, but without the suffering that love brings.
We'll be happy, you and I, and we'll love for eternity and beyond,
Heart to heart and soul to soul, spirits in an eternal, passionate bond.
I'll visit you in your dreams, and I'll soothe your every ache;
You don't see me there with you, but I'm in the very air you intake,
So don't lose hope, and don't ever lose that glorious, angelic smile,
Because it made me alive, made me strong, made me walk the long mile.
You're so full of life! Of all angels, God has blessed you the most;
I held a love so dear and real, greater than any man could ever boast.
Touch other's lives, as I will touch yours in my own heaven above,
And know that one day, I'll see you again, my dearest lost love.

[Lover]
Angels cannot dwell in this mortal plane;
God called you back to heaven above.
I feel your presence in the weeping rain,
And weep along for my lost love.

[Beloved]
Don't weep for me,
I now know nothing but peace.
I'm safe from all danger and harm.
Away from all tears, pain, and disease,
Waiting to embrace you in my arms.

[Both]
And though we're worlds apart we have to be strong.
Through the storms, the tears, and those lonely nights we have to keep on singing this song.
So that the life we shared will never be in vain.
We can't succumb to this deep, shattering pain.
And when we finally close our eyes we have to dream of
Our lost love.

[Lover] I know a breath's not far to where you are,
[Beloved] (Transcending time, our love was written in the stars)
[Lover] And I know its selfish, but I desperately need you here with me,
[Beloved] (I'd be there for you, but I can't, not in this reality)
[Lover] So somehow I have to find the will to carry on
[Beloved] (I'll give you wings to fly and I'll keep you strong)
[Lover] And someday with these wings I will ascend to you,
[Beloved] (Forever, together; my lost love, my soul lies inside you...)

[Lover]
Angels cannot dwell in this mortal plane;
God called you back to heaven above.
I feel your presence in the weeping rain,
And weep along for my lost love.

[Beloved]
Don't weep for me,
I now know nothing but peace.
I'm safe from all danger and harm.
Away from all tears, pain, and disease,
Waiting to embrace you in my arms.

[Both]
And though we're worlds apart we have to be strong.
Through the storms, the tears, and those lonely nights we have to keep on singing this song.
So that the life we shared will never be in vain.
We can't succumb to this deep, shattering pain.
And when we finally close our eyes we have to dream of
Our lost love.

[Both]
Through the pain, through the tears,
Through the fear throughout our years,
I know we'll join together with the wings of doves,
And reunite, two kindred lost love.

Concerning the above, I'm lackluster at best, and Pink_Ranger continues to marvel and astound me on a daily basis. 'Sides that, she's a bonifide sweetheart, and there's not much she CAN'T do. Fatality.

Wow! I'm really in complete shock. Amazing job Garlie and Trish!

"Lost Memories"
Faces of young and old. past and future, blur in my mind.
Answers to untold questions I know I will never find.
I've lost scope of the target in my childish memories,
My ambition for my life; ambitions, what have they been to me?
Can't carry on, but can't give up. Such pain and such joy.
The actions I carry out, and every dark resource that I employ
Always leads me down the same, dark road back to insanity,
Trapped in my wonderland of deep hurt and superficial vanity.

These lost memories of the past I know just won't last,
Peeling off the mask in order to fulfill my lost task.
The spell's been cast, and I feel a fear so deep and vast;
You need to believe in me for me to reclaim these lost memories.

Like a hidden desire locked deep inside my fragile heart,
My past comes roaring back, longing to tear me apart.
It's a dream, it's a nightmare, tormenting me every single night.
I toss and I turn, remembering things I keep out of the spotlight.
Who I was, I try so hard to forget, but I keep becoming that creature,
So angry and violent that I fear it will one day become second nature.
Time was taken from me, so I defied fate and shaped my own destiny;
Now I find myself trapped in time, running from these lost memories.

These lost memories of the past I know just won't last,
Peeling off the mask in order to fulfill my lost task.
The spell's been cast, and I feel a fear so deep and vast;
You need to believe in me for me to reclaim these lost memories.

I can't run from the past. I can't cope with my mistakes.
I know this pain won't last. There is hope to retake.
I know you'll see me for what I am, and help me find my way.
Right here and now, I take my stand; my past won't haunt me today.

These lost memories of the past I know just won't last,
Peeling off the mask in order to fulfill my lost task.
The spell's been cast, and I feel a fear so deep and vast;
You need to believe in me for me to reclaim these lost memories.

Fatality.
Fatality.

Under Oath "Watch Me Die"

I lay as this sacrifice to this unholy altar
The evil inside Satan; Satan sit and watch me die
Demented screams, tortured beings, where's your hope,
where's your smile, there was none
Life of lies gone, gone no more
So upset, so distraught, I'm sorry, I'm Sorry... I live for the Lord
Watch me die no longer I am alive
My purpose no more... I live for Christ
Dead to sin, only begin, imagine what's for Soldier of Christ
Changed with a new beginning, blood of the lamb, white washed sins
Forgive me God for all of these years of my transgressions
I cry renewed, I cry renewed This world means nothing to me
My life changed I now see Crucified with Christ,
the old self left with the rest of this world, rest of this world
Kneel before his throne, home now from this journey
I see my father in his arms finally found
This path I have chosen is hard but I'll make it with my saviors help
I survive this hell till the end I'll stand true
Eternal life, ready for the fight that the evil brings
No giving in... I'm free
The fire burns engulfing all the victims in it's path, no where to run
Over taken they give in to surrender to the Lord once, and for all
No longer keeping quiet, no longer standing still,
no longer giving in, no longer going back
I stand strong praying for love always to be in my heart


Under Oath "Act of Depression"


I tried to cry out from the inside, but I guess my soul did not pour itself out enough
Blood on the walls, flaming black, blood on the walls,
I saw you staring through the cracks
No one was to know what was happening in me I felt no love,
I felt no reason to carry on with my life
Everything was wrong, nothing was right, at least that is what I thought
Kids finding laughter at my expense
They were killing me on the inside they couldn't give up their pride
My heart was bleeding from so much grieving
On the outside I looked fine, you couldn't tell but on the inside was eternal hell
I got caught up in the moment of depression,
and before I knew it my bodywas lying on the ground
With a gun in my hand my hourglass was out of sand
Thanks to all the people who drove me to death
Without you I could of never ended my breath
Through your anger and hate, I was able to choose my fate
There was a way out, but I chose the easy route
Blast of a gun, breath runs out, final thoughts put to extinction
No more pain, no more love, for you have chosen suicide as the way out... help them
Ice cold fingers, body lays on the floor,
pool of blood you see, you scream out in terror
Her body is now a part of mutilation, her soul the victim of strangulation
I will not accept this evil anymore
I never thought of who I hurt or I never tried to look for the good
I'm sorry for whoever I hurt, it's not easy to look back on my life,
and know I did not know Christ
For now I live in a real hell
I wish I had another chance... then I would live my life with love

Under Oath "Some Will Seek Forgiveness, Others Escape"

I heard a voice through the dischord
Of a deluge of passers-by.
I saw one gaze frozen in time
Watching me passing by.
I swear I'll know your face in the crowd,
And I'll hear your voice so loud
When you're whispering...

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.

Here's my kiss to betray
Desperate to brush the lips of grace.
Do you feel hollow when you think of how I've lied?

Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.
Oh sweet angel of mercy with your grace like the morning
Wrap your loving arms around me.

Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.
Hey ungraceful I will teach you
To forgive one another.
Hey unfaithful I will teach you
To be stronger, to be stronger.

Hey unloving

I will love you
I will love you
I will love you.

Jesus I'm ready to come home.



Hatebreed "Kill an Addict"

You've made excuses
for the fucked up things
you've done but everyone's
heard them before, your
lying and stealing to feed
your addictions won't be
tolerated anymore. I tried
to help you but you spit in
my face, so now you're on
your own I see your life
slipping away, you brought
it on yourself . . . GO! Those
I've hated are the ones I've
held so close, and those who
use betrayal will be the
ones to suffer, the ones to suffer
the most.


Hatebreed "You're Never Alone"

This is for the kids who have no where to turn
Who have nothing to live for
You think you haven't the will to persist
You have to search within yourself

All the work that you've done in vain
Been overlooked and taken for granted
Only you can end your suffering
You must be honest with yourself
You have nothing left to lose
You feel that everyone's out to get you
Been beaten down but the hate still breathes
Confined by consequences, it's your soul you must release

It's our struggles that define us
And the hardships we endure
Your spirit can't be broken now
You've come too far

All your life
You told yourself you were never alone
All your time
Spent on the problems that have no solution
In your mind
Giving up was never an option
Out of spite
Hold onto the hate that has helped you stay focused

You are one but you're never alone
You can't atone for every promise you've broken
In this moment there's no way you will fail
You must be honest with yourself
Use your pain to achieve your goals
Make amends while you can and stay focused
You can't be burdened by your lack of control
Never stray from the path you have chosen

(It's our struggles...)

(All your life...)

(This is for the kids...)

This spirit can't be broken [x3]
It's who you are

(It's our struggles...)

Forever
Forever
Forever convicted [x2]


Atreyu "Five Vicoden with a shot of Clarity"


After all this time of asking questions
Of trying to find something to quiet this soul
I'm left alone within my mind into this self-made hell I delve
It's not as hot as you think
More so dark and cold with no room to breathe

I'm sorry, I don't think it's going to be okay this time
My heart has skipped its final beat
It's beating me down onto the floor
That must mean that the pills are working
The glass isn't half empty this time
I smashed it to the ground a long long time ago
It shattered when it fell and I broke to pieces
Each shard's another reason, another way to give up

This skin is so tight that the air can't reach my brain
There is nothing telling my heart to beat any faster
To let me scream for help, I will never give up
I will never take the easy way out

This is life
This is struggle
This is love
This is war

ive become so numb i can feel you there

Yo can I get an encore do u want more

Again, please do not type your posts in all caps. The next time I have to tell you it will be a skull.~TT