"Like This"
Times are tough and times are hard.
We're here so long, yet still so far.
So far from the truth, far from the facts,
Far from the happiness always under attack.
Taking its toll as the heat beat plays,
On and on, through the fictional days.
It's all surreality; that's the fact for me;
The living head of a life that ignores me.

I can't live like this. Can't do it like this.
I just analyze the risk and always miss
This everpresent wish upon lost bliss.
It all ends at the end of my fist.
Lyrical corruption collaborated with hate;
Break, maybe, take, maybe; all a mistake.
Nothing is knew. Nothing I can choose.
Everything is a battle I'll eventually lose.

Rule by the mob. There's your democracy.
Lynchin' men left and right just 'cause they disagree.
No honor or shame, just shells with actions,
Leading me down a road of perpetual dissatisfaction.
Yet I don't stop; too much is at the top.
I've cast my lot; firmly rooted in the Rock.
Now, let's see who can bring me down.
All you posers gotta hit the ground.

Not like this. This life isn't lived like this.
Treatin' everything like its all for kicks.
A kiss has no worth; love is just emotions.
No one has standards, just ridiculous notions.
It's not about you, it's about so much more.
Everyone needs something, someone, worth fighting for.
Worth dyin' for. Worth cryin' for. Maybe worth lyin' for.
Everyone needs values worth defining for.

But you just walk on and on,
Pretend I don't exist till I'm gone.
Just make-believe it's all a dream,
But your own thoughts are so much more obscene.
Face the music, or you'll eventually lose it;
Depressed all your life in a cycle of blue fits.
I just can't help but feel that something's amiss;
I just know for a fact that I can't live like this.

Fatality.

"Rose of the Bled"

She gave me her heart that night,
and all I did was let it crumble
in my hands.
She fell to ashes, and I died
forever.
I hold this gun in my hand,
and wrapped around it,
is a Blood-Soaked Rose.
A Rose of Lynn.
Her voice is ringing in my head.
Her voice is something beautiful.
Just pull the trigger, and the rose
will leave forever.
It's gone forever.

And when I look into the mirror, and I don't see my reflection staring back at me.

I see her.

"Eternal Sadness"
In dreams,
Hope is always beyond me.
It seems,
My will is ever bonding
To you,
With a touch of sadness.
The truth,
Part of your inner madness.

I just wish that I could die
(hold me closer to you.)
I just wanted you to realize
(that I cared for you.)
Maybe this eternal sadness will die
(along with my eternal pain)
If I just rest once more and close my eyes
(under the purity of heaven's rain.)

Your voice,
It means so much to me.
The choice,
It always sees right through me.
My lies,
Building in the distance.
I cry,
Screaming for deliverance.

I just wish that I could die
(hold me closer to you.)
I just wanted you to realize
(that I cared for you.)
Maybe this eternal sadness will die
(along with my eternal pain)
If I just rest once more and close my eyes
(under the purity of heaven's rain.)

My hate,
Selfishly destroys such love.
Mistakes,
Shaking my fist at God above.
My wish,
To be your Knight in Shining Armor.
Your kiss,
Telling me "let nothing harm her."

I just wish that I could die
(hold me closer to you.)
I just wanted you to realize
(that I cared for you.)
Maybe this eternal sadness will die
(along with my eternal pain)
If I just rest once more and close my eyes
(under the purity of heaven's rain.)

These wounds,
They always hurt; they never heal.
This room,
Confusing what is and isn't real.
My heart,
Beating hard, so very hard and true;
A start,
The love I loathed I give to you.

I just wish that I could die
(hold me closer to you.)
I just wanted you to realize
(that I cared for you.)
Maybe this eternal sadness will die
(along with my eternal pain)
If I just rest once more and close my eyes
(under the purity of heaven's rain.)

Fatality.

"Darkest Hour"
The ink rain bathing the world in its dark hue;
A gray-scale world contrasted against a lone red rose.
Blood-soaked hands and dark visions of you
Collaborate to create another dream as the nightmare goes.
Soaked up tension and forgotten joys;
A figurative hot-light of supernatural woes.
Meanwhile, the skin grows tight in the devil's ploys,
And the hope of the light is all that he knows.

In my darkest hour,
Only one has the power
To save me from my pain.
Like a strong-built tower;
Like a vibrant, pure flower;
Wash away the rage with the rain.

Thrust in the darkness without a light to walk by,
A blind man leads a blind girl in search of a life.
Running mascara shows how much she cries;
Thoughts of rusted razor blades and a dulled knife.
Wanting to take all the angst and fear away;
Acceptance from the world and dreams now so slim;
Choked up words and dreams that never have a say
Watch as the world crumbles around them.

In my darkest hour,
Only one has the power
To save me from my pain.
Like a strong-built tower;
Like a vibrant, pure flower;
Wash away the rage with the rain.

An irrational choice of actions and unrequited love;
Dreams and screams burn along with forgotten things.
The comfort of angels pales to that of a loving God above,
And the lost seek shelter in the gentle brush of his wings.
Crucify me, fate will defy me, and I won't every deny;
My God, my life, my saviour, my hope, my dreams, my love;
For you I'll try, for you I'll cry, for you I'll fight on till I die,
Till you call me home, carrying me there upon the wings of doves.

In my darkest hour,
Only one has the power
To save me from my pain.
Like a strong-built tower;
Like a vibrant, pure flower;
Wash away the rage with the rain.

Fatality.

"Silent Sympathy"
Oh, how I feel so cold.
Nothing but lost feelings.
As I grow weak and old,
Will I receive heart healings.
There's nothing but pain now;
Hope's gone to hell 'long with me.
Is there some way how,
I can receive salvation in me?

I just can't feel if this love ain't real;
Pain for today and pain inside me.
Will these red wounds one day seal,
Or will I only receive silent sympathy?

Don't shrink away from me;
I see your inward creature.
Your love has tortured me;
A hypocritical God-hate preacher.
Don't think I don't care;
The truth is just too damn painful.
Maybe we'll both die there,
In violent fits so too disdainful.

I just can't feel if this love ain't real;
Pain for today and pain inside me.
Will these red wounds one day seal,
Or will I only receive silent sympathy?

Now that I see,
Will you be real with me?
Just open your eyes,
And live beyond your lies.

I just can't feel if this love ain't real;
Pain for today and pain inside me.
Will these red wounds one day seal,
Or will I only receive silent sympathy?

Fatality.

Well, I have a few that I've been working on, they actually sound pretty good.

GAME OVER

This shit's real dirty, this shit's real crunk, keep talkin that shit punk and I'll stuff you in my trunk. I'm drunk, so you know I'm real violent, I need a pilot to drive this plane, cause I'm goin insane, and not from that kane, It's all in my brain. But it's always a train that has ran off it's tracks, open ya mouth again and I'm gonna attack. And believe me ya ain't gonna like it, that's what ya get for tryin' to bite it. Ya bit off more than you could chew, I'm the last man standin, so where's ya crew. I'm threw, I'm done now to hide my gun, hey blista that ain't ya son.

MISTAKE

This is for anybody who thinks you got to lie to be cool, hey mitchell, boy you a straight fool. Dumb mutha fucka shouldn't have dropped out of school. When you slip I'm only gonna use the tool, or straight drowned you in my pool. Thanks for sayin that shit, you just gave me alot of fuckin fuel. Get hit duel automatic, and on the CB's is static, so I guess you just shit out of luck, if you see me creepin you better fuckin duck. You suck! I fuckin missed again, ya harder to hit than Joey Wein. That means you a bitch, really I only think about you when I got an itch, on my ass. You shouldn't have skipped class. Like 50 said ya jaw is made of glass, and I'm gonna break that motha fucka fast. Naw, I won't do it with a fuckin blast, you in my past.

Those are just a few...I have many more.

"So Hard"
A black shape contrasted against a fading, crimson sky.
The rememberance of love and joy in those star-studded eyes.
Such bliss and such pain, to be so close yet so far away;
You never knew how you saved me and keep living day by day.
Yet word's can't say "thank you", and lips won't speak my heart;
A lost cause as I suffer needlessly in my own world, so dark.
Unrequited love and blind agony; yet, still I would have offered up my life.
I would have died a thousand times for the girl who would have been my wife.
But those days are past, and as hard as I try, these feelings still last,
And I still live on and on, accepting the fate that God has cast.

You don't know how hard it was not to fall in love with you.
You don't know how much I tried not to be with you.
You don't know how happy your smile made my day.
You don't know how painful it was to hear the words you say.
You don't know how much I would have given up for you.
You don't know how lonely I had been before you.
You don't know how you left me bleeding and scarred.
You don't know how not loving you was so hard.

Secluded darkness; a phantom in your life; nothing more.
I would rather be hated by you, then perpetually ignored.
Yet, despite it all, I could never hate you, could never strike you;
The thought alone shocks me. I more than liked you.
Yet, if you knew, would you care? Or, with another sultry stare
Drive the knife deeper into my chest and leave it stuck there.
Fine, then kill me. I live for you, and I'd rather die by your hand;
Maybe once in my worthless life, I'd be brave and make a stand.
Still, through the rage and the pain, there could be no better bliss,
Then to lie there dying, but to die with your kiss.

You don't know how hard it was not to fall in love with you.
You don't know how much I tried not to be with you.
You don't know how happy your smile made my day.
You don't know how painful it was to hear the words you say.
You don't know how much I would have given up for you.
You don't know how lonely I had been before you.
You don't know how you left me bleeding and scarred.
You don't know how not loving you was so hard.

Rain-drops beat there rhythmic pattern in this gray, dark realm;
Life is like a storm-tossed ship, with myself at the healm;
And I keep looking for light, but I'm so lost in the dark, so alone.
And still dreaming of you, hoping and dreaming that you're my own.
Dreaming and screaming and fighting for a life;
I still lie dying; either push in or pull out this knife.
Could anyone know how much I long to suffer for her sake?
Such saddness and love and purity; it cannot be a mistake.
All I want out of life is for you to open your eyes and to see me;
My dearest wish is that one day you'll realize just how you need me.

You don't know how hard it was not to fall in love with you.
You don't know how much I tried not to be with you.
You don't know how happy your smile made my day.
You don't know how painful it was to hear the words you say.
You don't know how much I would have given up for you.
You don't know how lonely I had been before you.
You don't know how you left me bleeding and scarred.
You don't know how not loving you was so hard.

Love is love, and I'll love you all the same.
For the sake of love, I'll accept all the pain.
And while I die, my soul will lift through;
In life or death, I'll always be with you.

Fatality.

fuckapoem

I STILL BELIEVE (SPANISH GUITAR)

When the moon is high,
And the stars burn holes in the night sky,
I swear there's a moment,
In time where I can see you,
Smiling down at me,
When the breeze is warm,
Like the tight caress of your arms,
I swear I can feel you,
Holding on to me,
Like you used to,

And in my heart I know,
That when I'm asleep,
You're outside my window,
And inside my dreams,
And in my soul I feel,
That you're all around me,
You're memory is real,
And it's everything to me,
And I still believe,
That one day we will breathe,
Together once again,

When bitter tears flow,
At the moment when sadness is all I know,
I swear you're there,
To wipe away my tears,
And suddenly I forgot about my fears,
When my heart breaks,
And there's no one around,
I swear I can feel your hands,
Taking piece by piece and,
Mending it back together again,

And in my heart I know,
That when I'm asleep,
You're outside my window,
And Inside my dreams,
And in my soul I feel,
That you're all around me,
You're memory is real,
And it's everything to me,
And I still believe,
That one day we will breathe,
Together once again,

And I admit there are times,
When I want you here with me,
And wherever you are,
No matter how far,
I would come to find you,
Just to have you back with me,
Because you're my everything,

And in my heart I know,
That when I'm asleep,
You're outside my window,
And inside my dreams,
And in my soul I feel,
That you're all around me,
You're memory is real,
And it's everything to me,
And I still believe,
That one day we will breathe,
Together once again.

Dedicated to my late boyfriend Adam DeSanta. It's true Adam. I still believe that you and I will be together forever in Heaven.

I'd like to say goodbye to everyone who vists this thread. I'm afraid that this will be my last post on this forum. So I'm going to leave you with one final song of mine. Dedicated to someone very special. You know who you are, and if you're reading this. I'm so sorry once again.

'GOODBYE MY LOVE'

I can feel with every breath I take,
With every move I make,
That I hurt you,
I can't imagine the pain I put you through,
And if there was a way,
I could stop the rain,
I'd cast my sunshine,
And let the rays,
Wash away the pain,

Goodbye my love,
It was only you that I dreamed of,
I only wanted you in my life,
I dreamed of someday being your wife,
But now a broken heart replaces the happiness,
Passion becomes emptiness,
I'm nothing without you,
But I have to say,
Goodbye, to you, my love,

What I did was wrong,
And now that I sing my swan song,
I hope that someday,
You'll be able to forgive me,
In my heart,
You'll forever be,
I just need you to know,
Even if you don't believe me,
I loved you so,

Goodbye my love,
It was only you that I dreamed of,
I only wanted you in my life,
I dreamed of someday being your wife,
But now a broken heart replaces the happiness,
Passion becomes emptiness,
I'm nothing without you,
But I have to say,
Goodbye, to you, my love,

And if the hands of time could be turned,
I'd return,
And make sure you wouldn't be hurting now,
I'd find someway how,
To avoid breaking your heart,
If only I could return things to way that they were in the start,

Goodbye my love,
It was only you that I dreamed of,
I only wanted you in my life,
I dreamed of someday being your wife,
But now a broken heart replaces the happiness,
Passion becomes emptiness,
I'm nothing without you,
But I have to say,
Goodbye, to you, my love,

And you'll never know how much I loved you,
I promise my love was always true,
And I never knew,
That saying one word could be so hard,
It brings a tear to my eye,
That I have to tell you,
Goodbye.

Well, I'm now in a pretty screwed up mental state about now. Too many things have happened at once and I'm torn between love and hate again, happiness and pain. I just feel dead right now. Maybe I'll breathe again. Until then, I'll vent.

"Past and Future Pain"
Years ago, I was dead to the world and dead inside;
A life of pent-up rage and dark secrets I'd hide.
Scorned and forgotten, tossed aside like yesterday's trash,
And in a dark alleyway I sat in the rain, blood flowing from a gash.
Violence and hate; no direction of my own.
I lived so alone, with my own heart of stone.
Then she came and she gave me a light to follow.
Suddenly, my world and my heart no longer seemed hollow.
I'd never loved and had never been so loved. She was all I had.
A torn life mended again; no misunderstanding mother or drunken dad.
She became my everything; all that I had and all that I would need;
I found someone to protect, and I could love again, even though I'd bleed.
Four years ago, my angel died, returning to where angels belong.
I cried inside, but never out loud; my will remained too strong.
Yet, in all these years, I still never managed to make it along;
After all these years, I still feel like I was mistaken and I was wrong.
I told her I loved her, that I'd always be there for her,
But she's dead now, and there's not even roses to present before her.
I screamed and I fought; my demons returned full force,
Beating me back down my lonely, destructive, dark course.
I was lost and alone, no purpose to live and no will to die;
Like a zombie, I stumbled along, wishing but never able to cry.
Then I met her, someone else, someone different, but with life in her words.
She was otherworldly, like her dreams were born on the wings of birds.
She would sing and she would dream; another soul to whom I could relate.
My pain disappeared, and newfound love covered my hidden hate.
Each with pain and each with love; a life unlived but still I dream of;
Could she love me? Could she see me? Another angel from above?
I swore again to protect her, to love her, to always be there;
I wanted to prove how much a man could love; how much he could care.
But I failed again. I couldn't measure up. My words were as false I as was.
And I bled again; I beat my fist against the wall. It pains me still, it does.
Monsters cannot associate with angels; just me and my blood-smeared walls.
Where is my joy? Where is my peace? I cry out, but no one comes when I call.
What hope did I have of ever making her happy? It was nothing but a dream world.
I lived in fantasy; I was never real. I deserved every insult she hurled.
Now I'm there again; too weak to die and too lost to live.
Love once again proves how painful it is when your heart you give.
I don't know what to do or what to say? I have no direction; I've lost my way.
I just live out each week day by day, forever regretting how I'll never be able to repay
The kindness she showed. One girl dead and me dead to the other.
What kind of love did I posses? Was I a friend, a lover, a brother?
Or was I something less, like the wretched thing I have become.
Will she cry for me when my life winds up and my strength is done?
I want to die, but I want to die for her. I'm just waiting for my chance;
Maybe then, after the blood runs cold, I'll be able to return her glance
And see her for who she is and her see me for what I am;
Finally determine if I have the strength to stand; if I'm truly a man.
Two loves lost and one soul broken. I pray for strength one last time.
God, give me the strength one last time to seek what should have been mine.
Let me die for her! Let me bleed for her! I no longer want to live if I can't live for her!
Just give me one last breath as I lie fading away to tell her how much I loved her;
All her kindness, all her love, and I couldn't be who she wanted me to be,
And damn me for all my weakness; I just needed someone to need me.
My love, my darling, my angel, my hope and my life; I'll see you soon.
Don't weep for me; I don't deserve your tears. Against the light of the full moon
I remember when a lost love told me to be her hero, to save her from the dark;
A second chance, and I failed again. Could God give me the grace once again to restart?
I miss you... I miss you so damn much. Dear God! I miss you.
I miss how I loved you, held you, embraced you, kissed you.
Now there's nothing here; just me and my blood-smeared walls.
I'm at the edge again, looking over the cliffs before I plunge and fall.
My loves, both dead and alive, you gave me life to carry on when I was dead.
Thank you, from the bottom of my heart; I wish I had suffered and died instead.
If words could express how much I felt, an entire library could not contain the text,
Yet words can't express my thanks and my powerful love; I believe heaven is next.
I wish I could hold you, wish I could see your beautiful face.
I wish I could kiss you, and I wish I could erase my disgrace.
My heart died four years ago; my soul died today; all that lives are my dreams,
And I fear those will blow away with the wind as I watch my life slowly end, it seems.
You made me happy... you made me REAL.
You brought me back... you made me feel.
Now, I live alone again, with nothing but dreams and blood to carry me on;
But, I promised you once and I'll swear to it again, long after I'm gone,
I will always love you, more than the world itself and all riches and wealth.
I'll continue to dream of you, because, now, all I have to believe in is myself.
In this ironic world, there is so much to say, but only five words shove through;
I just wish I had said them earlier:
"Thank You"
and
"I Love You."
May your dreams take flight and soar towards the light and through the rain;
I'll always be watching, loving you even through my past and future pain.

Fatality.

"Necro-Pervasion"
Cast in the darkness,
Left alone like a disease,
The anguish of the starkness
Of the grotesque miseries
Infects my mind
And gives me fear.
I watch as time unwinds
And the horror comes near.

In my hidden world,
My inner demons run amok.
In this secret life,
I'm forever stuck.
In this dark existence,
I live a life of perpetual bad luck.
In this horror dream,
The bloody walls lashed out and struck.

Another nothing to scream of,
Another paranoia of my mind.
Still more nightmares to dream of,
And I'm falling again behind
The veil of psychosis and insanity;
Still, these dreams are just too real.
The mirror projects man's own vanity,
While the dead long to again feel.

In my hidden world,
My inner demons run amok.
In this secret life,
I'm forever stuck.
In this dark existence,
I live a life of perpetual bad luck.
In this horror dream,
The bloody walls lashed out and struck.

I have nothing but an empty grave,
No peace for my tormented soul.
I exist only to stand up and save
Another from being consumed whole.
Break me or take me,
This life means nothing at all.
Whatever you do, don't forsake me!
This necro-pervasion continues to crawl.

In my hidden world,
My inner demons run amok.
In this secret life,
I'm forever stuck.
In this dark existence,
I live a life of perpetual bad luck.
In this horror dream,
The bloody walls lashed out and struck.

Too much death, too much suff'ring.
Too much tears on my cheeks.
Where ever I go, pain is what I bring,
And I feel so dead, so very weak.
The killer is me, and the murder my own;
Just let me scream one last time.
Let me cry again before I turn to stone,
And glance at one who could never be mine.

In my hidden world,
My inner demons run amok.
In this secret life,
I'm forever stuck.
In this dark existence,
I live a life of perpetual bad luck.
In this horror dream,
The bloody walls lashed out and struck.

Fatality.

Skeletons Of Society (by Slayer)
Minutes seem like days
Since fires ruled the sky
The rich became the beggars
And the fools became the wise
Memories linger in my brain
Of burning from the acid rain
A pain I never have won

Nothing here remains
No future and no past
No one could foresee
The end that came so fast
Hear the prophet make his guess
The paradise lies to the west
To join his quest for the sun

Shades of death are all I see
Fragments of what used to be

The world slowly decays
Destruction fills my eyes
Harboring the image
Of a spiraling demise
Burning winds release their fury
Simulating judge and jury
Drifting flurries of pain

Deafening silence reigns
As twilight fills the sky
Eventual supremacy
Daylight waits to die
Darkness always calls my name
A pawn of this recurring game
Humanity going insane

Shades of death are all I see
Skeletons of society

Shades of death are all I see
Fragments of what used to be

Fragments of what used to be
Skeletons of society

Minutes seem like days
Corrosion fills the sky
Morbid dreams of anarchy
Brought judgment in disguise
Memories linger in my brain
Life with nothing more to gain
Perpetual madness remains

Shades of death are all I see
Skeletons of society

Shades of death are all I see
Fragments of what used to be

Fragments of what used to be
Skeletons of society

The Quiet Place (by In Flames)
Spinning further deeper
I know you're out to try me
I'm not in this to be a slave
Push the dirt
Make me feel
Locate what swallows life
Night bird you build my world

Then I close my eyes
And then I close my eyes

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show
Bow down
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place
So much brighter from today

Drown the monster
Make all bad dreams go away
Whatever takes to keep running free
Open scars
The quiet place
The bridges fall to the ground
And you say you sacrificed

Then I close my eyes
And then I close my eyes

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show
Bow down
BOW DOWN!
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place
So much brighter from today

Judge me now
The king in my own mind

Judge me now
The king in my own mind

Judge me now
Used to be afraid to let it show
Bow down
BOW DOWN!
A king in my own mind
Everything's in place
So much brighter from today
A king in my own mind

"Release"
I gaze in the mirror;
Cold, red eyes stare back at me.
I feel the rage draw nearer,
Knowing it will finally attack me.
I clench my fists and brace myself;
Blood in my mouth, running down my cheek.
Now is my time, my fight against self,
And I know I must be strong; I cannot be weak.
As my heart races, my footstep paces,
I feel it rise within me like a fire in my mind.
Now is the time to break my homeostasis
And to fight a world so unjust and unkind.

This is my time, my time to rise.
This is my life, mine till I die.
This is my chance, my last hope for peace.
This is my fight, and this is my release.

What do I fight for?
What do I have worth living for?
I've been down this hard road before,
But that was long ago, in a down-pour.
I was bleeding then, as I'm bleeding now.
I was screaming then, and I'll scream again.
In a sprint and a dash, I can never allow
Worthless actions by worthless people to end
What I have fought so hard to protect.
My dreams, they are nothing; I must survive
To carry out my wish and erect
A home for you; to make sure you stay alive.

This is my time, my time to rise.
This is my life, mine till I die.
This is my chance, my last hope for peace.
This is my fight, and this is my release.

"A Life You Love." Everything for you.
No pain, just actions, to make everything right.
Surrounded, with nothing else to do,
I lash out, fighting for life, or just so survive the night.
I stopped dreaming those four years ago,
But the dreams didn't die along with you.
I kept going, and I want you to know
I'll keep doing everything all for you.
So I fight against logic, I fight against fate.
God help me, I fight against the human race.
But, I can't afford to fall down, can't afford to break;
I have to survive; have to carry you back up to grace.

This is my time, my time to rise.
This is my life, mine till I die.
This is my chance, my last hope for peace.
This is my fight, and this is my release.

They say fallen angels have no where to go but up,
But that angels have so far to fall.
Why do the just suffer? Isn't enough ever enough?
But, I still see them shoved against the wall
And beaten until they bleed.
I can't stand here and watch everything be stripped away.
As men long to satisfy their own insatiable greed,
I'll fight them forever, to make you sure you come out okay.
I'll get no tears. No one cries for a dark creature.
It no longer matters. I fight not for myself, but for what is true.
I only wish I could stay; no time for good-byes or last rites from a preacher.
This is my dying dream, but, in it, I find the will to fight for you.

This is my time, my time to rise.
This is my life, mine till I die.
This is my chance, my last hope for peace.
This is my fight, and this is my release.

Fatality.

And so it goes on; you're the killer. So icy and cold, such a blackened

heart. For love is deep; and so are you, this is what dies. And so forth, I'd spill

my heart, my everything, for you.... //baby//

Forgive me Christ;for I have sinned. How can you look into these eyes once more?

The again phase comes and goes; comes and goes.It's not a style, to be so

not one; for again and again that one knows not, and if not, it knows not.

It's love; the bullet that pierces such soft flesh.And the tanks roll in, the choking

agony, once for a lifetime; the fires burn what once was; Love. November

comes; a masquerade dances.

And all is one; for not again, destruction ensues, again and again; my life so ends, now that

she is gone..and all the kings and queens weep; their tears are bloody. And as the clock

approaches midnight; she runs off, leaving what is precious; I love her. I love her so; not to

see, nor I forgot, my tears of addiction; she loves him.



Beloved, I have something to tell you; I've been gone, and the peers ain't see it yet. Kill all your

friends; so beautiful, take thy advice. And I've loved, so so many; but not like you; And

you're so beautiful; murder ensues. Cause your looks kill. And you know it, so, why stop

now? You are the everything; A bloody card from the hands of the arrogant dealer. He knows

everything, and so do you. Beloved, you are loved, ever so much....Love.




When I die, will you still be there? Will you be there to sing my pain; a go with the heart, bloody night; one more moment means nothing.

MARS & VENUS

You know she loves you,
You know you're all she thinks about,
And she knows you love her,
And you'd do anything to adore her forever,
But yet in separate worlds that cannot merge,
So blind to see,
That you're meant to be,

You can make her smile even when it hurts,
You're the only one that can wipe the tear from her eye,
You are her world,
And for you she'd give her life,

She's the only one who makes you believe,
The only thing that inspires you,
And now you see,
That with her you can pull through,

Both of you stop being this way,
Confess the love that both of you feel,
Because only once in a lifetime,
Does a love ever come along thats this real,
And if you move away now,
Years from now when you're old and gray,
You'll look back and say,
I can't believe she got away,
I can't believe he slipped away,

You know she loves you,
You know you're all she thinks about,
And she knows you love her,
And you'd do anything to adore her forever,
But yet in separate worlds that cannot merge,
So blind to see,
That you're meant to be.

You don't have to be so different,
You don't have to feel so apart,
Because all that matters,
Is how you feel in your heart.

This was a poem I once wrote for english class. It's very simple:

Compromise of 1850


I hear the voices of freedom,
But yet I hear the voices of despair,
I work in fields and wear shackles,
I am treated as a beast and mocked,
But yet hope strives through my heart,
I have heard of a compromise that will break my chains,
But yet I hear it will strengthen the chains of my brothers,
I seek freedom, I’ve always had,
Though my fellow brothers may remain as beasts,
I will become a dove, and fly to freedom.

"Hit Me"
Breaking, taking, always forsaking
All that I love and all that I am.
Raging, hazing, and taking
Away the pride of a man.
Now feel the beating pulse,
The pulse of a man with nothing to gain,
And nothing to lose; just impulse,
And a desire for honor to regain.

Hit me,
And test my mettle.
Hit me;
Got a score to settle.
Hit me;
Stare me in the face.
Hit me,
And save me from disgrace.

Now's the time to try, can't cry,
Just too many lies all in a row.
You just deny what you feel inside,
And then you spout it like fate made it so.
Corruption of mind and corruption of soul,
Damnation of socity to the umpth degree.
Now, we fight violently in a sky of black coal,
Fighting to breathe and for divination to foresee.

Hit me,
And test my mettle.
Hit me;
Got a score to settle.
Hit me;
Stare me in the face.
Hit me,
And save me from disgrace.

Fist to fist, risk to risk, kiss for kiss.
A love-hate cycle of cataclysmic results.
Now, we fight on in street-smart bliss,
A dark world; only seeing through the lightning bolts.
God of mercy and God of hell,
Give me something to live for.
This is still my soul, and I couldn't sell
It for anything, and so I fight all the more.

Hit me,
And test my mettle.
Hit me;
Got a score to settle.
Hit me;
Stare me in the face.
Hit me,
And save me from disgrace.

Take me away from this world,
And make me complete.
Let the truth come to light,
And spare me from defeat.
No turning back. Take up arms.
Take your stand. Be a man.
No fear. Death draws near.
Smell of blood; God's flood.
No love or hate, just mistakes.
Feel me scars. There you are,
Now come and get me;
Just run up and HIT me.

Hit me,
And test my mettle.
Hit me;
Got a score to settle.
Hit me;
Stare me in the face.
Hit me,
And save me from disgrace.

Fatality.

Laid To Rest by Lamb of God
If there was a single day I could live
A single breath I could take
I'd trade all the others away

The blood's on the wall
So you'd might as well just forget it
And bleach out the stains
Commit to forgetting it
You're better off empty and blank
Than left with a single pathetic trace of this
Smother another failure
Lay this to rest

Console yourself
You're better alone
Destroy yourself
See who gives a fuck
Absorb yourself
You're better alone
Destroy yourself

I'll chain you to the truth
For the truth shall set you free
I'll turn the screws of vengeance
And bury you with honesty
I'll make all your dreams come to life
And slay them as quickly as they came
Smother another failure
Lay this to rest

Console yourself
You're better alone
Destroy yourself
See who gives a fuck
Absorb yourself
You're better alone
Destroy yourself

See who gives a fuck!

See who gives a fuck!
See who gives a fuck!

Failure!

If there was a day I could live
If there was a single breath I could take
I'd trade all the others away
I'd trade all the others away

Thanks to whoever bumped... I was looking for this thread everywhere but couldn't find it... it's one of the best IMO

Well, the next one is VERY sentimental for me... mainly because I didn't write it. The author was Racheal Winters, my late girlfriend. She wrote this to me about six months before she unexpectedly died, and I've kept it close all this time. I actually feel rotten for never posting it. Anyway, here it is. Fatality:

"My Prayer"
Echoes of a past I once hated;
Remembrance of a love reverberated;
A surreal painting of perfect love and bliss,
And I said I loved you with no words, but a kiss.
So tragic our lives, yet so strong our love;
Death is not a cruel tool from angels above,
But it is our last and greatest release,
The one and only way towards true peace.
God help me and keep me strong,
Because, when I saw you, I knew all along
That you were the one, my prince charming;
The one so strong, so dashing, yet alarming.
You were a theif who stole my ill heart,
And rescued me from my prison in the dark.
Your gentle words filled my head and heart;
Your powerful arms give my life a new start,
Your embrace is too much for me to bear,
And still shudder when you stroke my hair.
I put my life into your hands, and I'm happy.
Eternal trust, and true romance, not at all sappy.
You loved me past faults and through my sin;
I cry every night when I think of the pain within.
I must have hurt you so much and caused such pain;
In your eyes, I had never seen such hurt and disdain.
Through my drinking, through my cheating,
Through my screaming, and through the beatings
You took for me, I fell in love with a man so great,
One so loving, and so free from sin and hate.
God of heaven above, you sent an angel to me!
My prayer, now, is that he'll always be with me.
I pray for his happiness, and that I might be strong,
Because I need your might to help carry on.
My tear-soaked heart was so lost before you came,
And now that you're with me, nothing will be the same.
I know that you'd die for me, go with me to hell or the end,
I promise I'll do the same for the man who'd be my husband.
Girlish fancies, but still I wonder, when we live in this world,
What will we name our child? I hope it's a baby girl.
Our future is uncertain, but our love is so clear.
We both know we're only alive when the other is near.
So I won't pretend that it could be anything less.
I no longer know fear, but I can't help but confess
That I fear I am not fit for your love or your sight.
I always seem to argue or to try and pick a fight.
I'm violent and I'm nasty, and I wish I was dead,
Yet, in my raging and cursing, you loved me instead.
Now, my hero, give me your hand and let me love you,
For you and I both know, let lovers do as lovers do.
Legends will speak of us. You're Romeo to my Juliet,
And I couldn't forget that first kiss under a crimson sunset.
God of mercy and joy, let my prayer for him be heard.
Though Satan himself may delay me, I shant be deferred.
I'll get through to him, and I'll love him to the bitter end.
This broken, fragile body is to weak to ever protect him,
But my love is strong, and God is my eternal fuel,
And I pray I may save him before the final duel.
My darling, be strong in this world and the next,
And don't fret over me any longer. I'm no longer hexed.
Just let me hold you close to me, cheek to cheek.
So warm in your embrace, and my legs feel so weak,
And you always pick me up and lay me down,
Starring into my eyes, no matter who else is around.
And I always blush, every time you stare at me like that,
And as you draw nearer still, I feel my heart go pit-pat.
Our lips touch, our breath enter each other's souls,
And I feel weak no more, but complete and whole.
No one else. This is our life. Ours, now and forever,
And I shall never betray this pure and loving endeavor.
I need you, like I need the air I breathe, the water I drink,
And my mind rushes with thoughts of bliss; I can't think.
Your kiss still lingers on my lips as I write this prayer,
Words from heaven's peace; God keep you safely there.
My bleeding has stopped. My heart beats again.
My blood flows again, and my eyes open within.
The hope you gave me, the joy of my heart, I could never sever,
And I will love you here, I will love you now, I will love you forever.

God be with you, forever, I pray.
Yours,
Racheal

im back for a little while...hi and hi...anyways

Gar - sorry to hear it, but I enjoyed reading that, sort of a tribute type of thing, but very deep...i don't like many writings unless you have to think about them...thats the point of writing, is it not? good stuff

for the rest - haven't been around in a long time, so the thread has gotten thicker, so I couldn't read everything, so good job and yeah...nice...



I have some good ones...



Title - Slide

where you going tomorrow?
cause it feels like my mind is sliding away
and it feels like my heart is telling me to stay
whatcha gonna to do when its over?
cause im dizzy, my memories left to fade
and it feels like im sliding away

so where is the nearest exit?
cause im flying like nobody knows
whats left when i reach it
or will it hide when I am close

take my hand cause I know you want to
feel the grip dripped in sweat from me
im waiting for the pilot to tell me what to do
but I still feel like im lost at sea

where you going tomorrow?
cause it feels like my mind is sliding away
and it feels like my heart is telling me to stay
whatcha gonna to do when its over?
cause im dizzy, my memories left to fade
and it feels like im sliding away

come with me, ill show you what I found
its nothing less then what I am worth
see the world from all around
then wash away the darkness from the earth

nothing short of a new age
everythings turning faster with time
left no proof of my old face
cause I feel like im losing my mind

where you going tomorrow?
cause it feels like my mind is sliding away
and it feels like my heart is telling me to stay
whatcha gonna to do when its over?
cause im dizzy, my memories left to fade
and it feels like im sliding away

come with me, ill show you what I found
its nothing less then what I am worth
see the world from all around
then wash away the darkness from the earth

nothing short of a new age
everythings turning faster with time
left no proof of my old face
cause I feel like im losing my mind
yes I feel like im losing my mind

I feel like im losing my mind
I feel like im losing my mind

where you going tomorrow?
cause it feels like my mind is sliding away
and yet it feels like my heart is telling me to stay
whatcha gonna to do when its over?
cause im dizzy, my memories left to fade
and it feels like im sliding away
yes it feels like im sliding away
oh it feels like im sliding away

Slica - I love that to death...you should hear it when I play it on the guitar...

Title - To The Exstream

The moon is calming me tonight
For now
The stream is running quietly
For now
Dive into the shallow end
For me
Now I know that you're a shallow friend
To me

Noone is in the deep side
Except me
Everyone is gonna be alright
Except me
Except me

I long for the day
Where everything will be ok
I know that when it happens
Noone will be in my defense
Except me

Just let it go
Hope for the best
I know that I
Will make it worth while

The night is calming me down
For now
The dreams are climbing up my mind
For now
The sun hides to pass the time
For me
It feels so good to float on the stream
To me

Alone at the deep end
Just me
The scar only deepens
Its just me
Its just me

I long for the day
When the exstream comes to stay
I know that if it does
It can only be because
Its just me

Just let it go
Hope for the best
I know that I
Will make it worth while
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Title - Shortness Of Breath

You dont seem to know
The thoughts that pain me so
You seem to be amused
By my lack of breath

I am overwhelmed
By your passion in depth
I know that you dont care
By your lack of breath

I know theres a brighter side
I know theres nothing to hide
It was the best time I can remember
Unlike misery, nothing lasts forever

By your lack of breath
By your lack of breath
By your lack of breath
By your lack in depth
I know
I know
I know you too well
I know
I know
I know
I know
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Title - Two Different Eyes

You see, I'd like a world of change
But I got two different eyes
And maybe, I am a little strange
But I can't see well with either eye

Sorry, I didn't mean no harm
But the likes of me still scares you
Your sore eyes, I dont like to wet them
But sometimes I just dont care
Selfish, thats just the way i feel
Even though I always meant well
And demons, theyre part of my life
They come as often as I say no

Its alright, my mind has calmed down
But I dont know how much more I can take
A monster, I see it in the mirror
Every day I just let it be
Heartless, I know it seems real
Flies through me like another personality
Your sore eyes, I dont like to wet them
But sometimes I just dont care

I just dont care

I wish I could save your life
From the dangers that embrace me
I wish I could get excited
But its been nothing for me lately

My girl, this isn't the right guy
You can stop hiding from me now
I know, you just want an apology
I guess I can make it right with one
Sorry, I didnt mean no harm
But the likes of me still scares you
Your sore eyes, I dont like to wet them
But sometimes I just dont care

I just dont care

I hope you just run away
Dont look back, im torn between
This aint the time
This aint the time, go

Perfect, I did it again
I guess this means im just a bad person
Noone, seems to understand me
But I know im starting to deserve this
And oh, the suffering I've caused
Couldn't amount more then mine
Just know, your sore eyes, I wouldn't wet them
If you knew that I just wished I cared




Slica

Hey, nice to see your stuff again, Slica.
Fatality.