Pegasus


I've seen the bloodied waters of years passed by
And I know your hands tremble even as you try
To place the terror and the fear at your back
But it always seems to seep through the cracks
I can't promise you a sunny sky tomorrow
Nor a rainbow on the eve of fall
But I'll hold you high if you just follow
I'll come rushing if you'll just call

And we'll soar
Above the mountains high
So we'll soar
Over the raging tide
We'll soar
Forever beyond its sight
Hold onto your faith and trust
Let me be your Pegasus

I know you pretend that the pain is gone
But every morning as the sun comes to dawn
I see the longing in your eyes to return
To a better world than you've come to learn
I can't promise to make that dream come true
Nor an easy way out of this place we're in
But upon my back we'll forge memories anew
The time will come where you can smile again

And we'll soar
Through the howling wind
So we'll soar
With the storms we'll contend
We'll soar
Forever beyond its sight
Believe that love can never rust
Let me be your Pegasus

So hold on to me tight
I'm beside you in this fight
You're not blind, you can see
For I will always be...

And we'll soar
Away from the world ablaze
So we'll soar
No more through this misty haze
We'll soar
Forever beyond its sight
With nothing standing between us
Let me be your Pegasus

"Girl Interrupted"
Everytime I think you've passed me by,
You come back into my life.
Whenever I stop to ask you why,
You just smile and ease the strife.

You're in my head and in my dreams,
A memory of nothingness, it seems.
But the memories are pleasant, despite the pain,
And I'd trade the world, if you I'd gain.

Everything I wonder about my mind,
You come around and drive me so insane.
You're the best treasure I could find,
But I wonder if you hold me in disdain.

You're in my head and in my dreams,
A memory of nothingness, it seems.
But the memories are pleasant, despite the pain,
And I'd trade the world, if you I'd gain.

My happiness is always interrupted
By you sanctimonious presence.
My purity has been corrupted
But with you I have resonance.

You're in my head and in my dreams,
A memory of nothingness, it seems.
But the memories are pleasant, despite the pain,
And I'd trade the world, if you I'd gain.

"Dead Dreams"
They say that life is fleeting,
And dreams are all we have.
Aspirations and fantasies
And things they don't understand.
Eulogies for emptiness
And proses for the weak,
While locking up imagination
And daring it to speak.

I dare to dream my dreams,
I give it nothing but my best.
I wish for all beyond my reach
And long for its sweet caress.
Dare to dream with me,
Ease a life so distraught.
I hope your dreams come true
Because I've found mine did not.

Take me back to those days
Where ignorance was my comfort.
Lies were my only shelter
From the storm bitter escort.
Shrill slivers of silence,
Savoring every embittered drop;
Warmth seems so alien now,
And the coldness shall never stop.

I dare to dream my dreams,
I give it nothing but my best.
I wish for all beyond my reach
And long for its sweet caress.
Dare to dream with me,
Ease a life so distraught.
I hope your dreams come true
Because I've found mine did not.

Far out places, with sounds unheard,
Colors unseen, and truth untold,
That is where my mind and heart go,
And shall remain until I am old.
The realities around me are fake,
And I reject the limits of my own mind;
Trascendent happiness, beyond the veil,
Masquerading as a dark foe, unkind.

I dare to dream my dreams,
I give it nothing but my best.
I wish for all beyond my reach
And long for its sweet caress.
Dare to dream with me,
Ease a life so distraught.
I hope your dreams come true
Because I've found mine did not.

I reach for heaven and grasp air,
Falling below where angels fear to tread.
Tormenting world and all its secrets,
Truth and lies forcing their way into my head.
Shackles of sin and salvation's bondage,
Break me free and guide my course.
I have seen the face of utter sadness
And I know longer know remorse.

I dare to dream my dreams,
I give it nothing but my best.
I wish for all beyond my reach
And long for its sweet caress.
Dare to dream with me,
Ease a life so distraught.
I hope your dreams come true
Because I've found mine did not.

here's a song i made in detention a few years back.

Sadness

I feel sad, but i'm not mad sorta glad without a dad. I'ts not a fad but i'm sad. sadness is not a cure that I adore with a sore. Sad, sad, lonely sad, sad, sad, now i'm mad!

When it rains I feel pain without a stop, I hear a pop and cannot drop sad, sad, lonely sad, sad, sad, now i'm mad!

I hear a ring but it sounds like a ping that makes me want to cry. Just let me fry and die with peace in greece. Sad, sad lonely sad, sad, sad, now i'm mad.

There's this bitch that is like an itch that makes me twitch. Does this drive me insane to the brain, even I could rewind the time to get rid of this chyme. Sad, sad, lonely sad, sad, sad now i'm mad!

Feels like a jungle with a rumble without a tumble until I mop these tears and fears from my eyes. So lonely sad and i'm still mad but is this bad!

"Playing With Fire"
Why is it I'm attracted to the dark?
Danger holds special appeal,
Death an ironic certain zeal.
It's been like that from the start;
It's just how I deal
With all the things feel.

The closer to the edge,
The more I feel alive.
The more I long to strive
To move further off the ledge,
Until I finally take a dive;
And fall back to where I first arrived.

All this time,
I can't make it right.
All my life,
I've been putting up a fight.
In my eyes,
You're a fiend and liar,
And in my heart
I know I'm playing with fire.

You're so dark and beautiful,
A sinner and a saint,
An angel full of taint.
I try to escape your grasp futily,
So overwhelmed I almost faint,
Blinded by the visions you paint.

All this time,
I can't make it right.
All my life,
I've been putting up a fight.
In my eyes,
You're a fiend and liar,
And in my heart
I know I'm playing with fire.

Innocence and instinct,
A battle of love and wills;
I know that your love kills.
You drag me to the brink,
My memories nothing but photo stills,
My body nothing but a wound that never heals.

All this time,
I can't make it right.
All my life,
I've been putting up a fight.
In my eyes,
You're a fiend and liar,
And in my heart
I know I'm playing with fire.

Touch me and see,
I burn at the touch.
Your love is just a crutch.
Tear my heart out, make me bleed,
Because I have a hunch
You love me just too damn much.

All this time,
I can't make it right.
All my life,
I've been putting up a fight.
In my eyes,
You're a fiend and liar,
And in my heart
I know I'm playing with fire.

Construct

Wrapped in providence
Unspoiled by man
Wonderous excellence
Not as I had planned

And silently you stand before me

Enshrined in light
Hidden from the sun
Locked in the deepest night
Nowhere left to run

Without your touch
I'm broken and despaired
Without your life
I'm left hollow and bare

Still silently you stand before me

If you are not complete
Then I am not complete
Still you are not complete
I am not complete

So grant me this
My only and final prayer
For eternal bliss
This decadent affair

So don't stand silently before me

Because if you are not complete
Then I am not complete
And you are not complete
I am not complete

With warped verity, lies and deceit
I can't trust the truth to be concrete
Because if you are not complete
I am not complete

You complete me, Crow!

"Still There"
There's no such thing as a perfect couple;
No perfect love that never shall diminish.
No happily ever after is in the cards,
Just a bumpy road from start to finish.

There's no such thing as a fairy tale ending,
Nothing pure that shall last forever.
And I worry if you'll stick with me,
Hold true to that vow to suffer through together.

Will you be there, when I fall down?
Will you be there when I hit the ground?
Will you be there, as I grow cold?
Will you still love me when I'm frail and old?

I wish our lives were like a snow globe,
Shielded from the cruel world by a wall of glass.
Just the two of us and nothing else,
And praying that nothing wrong shall come to pass.

But that's not the way things work.
Life is not so simple and clean.
We're going to get dragged through the dirt and mud;
But will you be there to help when I am suffering?

Will you be there, when I give in?
Will you forgive whenever I sin?
Will you be there, when the day ends?
Will you be there when my next one begins?

I wish I could say everything will be alright,
But I don't know that for sure.
I'm not strong enough to stand alone,
Or to survive the afflictions that incur.

Tell me you'll be with me then,
In my last hour of need.
Tell me it'll all be okay,
As I lay there and bleed.

Will you be there, when everything falls apart?
Will you be there after I break your heart?
Will you be there, and help me call this a home?
Will you be there, or will I end up all alone?

"Glass Castle"
I wish I was somewhere else,
Free to dream, free to live.
I'm stuck in reality,
Giving as much as I can give.
I hide just out of sight,
Wishing it would pass me by.
I am lost and alone,
Adrift in a sea of lies.

I built a fortress around myself,
To protect me from the waves.
Be a good boy, shun all evil;
You will make it if you behave.
But I watched too long,
Seeing life only from the inside.
I broke out, eager to live my life,
Running away, going far and wide.

Everything crumbles to the ground,
Like a sand castle on the beach.
I long to some soothing words,
But that peace is out of reach.
I'm just running in circles,
Around and around my hole,
Digging deeper every moment,
Letting time takes its toll.

I want to go to that place,
Where I used to be so happy.
Maple syrup rainbows, entire fields of glass,
Like those movies so sweet and sappy.
Fake emotions and see-thru lies,
A barrier for child both young and old.
I wonder what my story will be,
And I wonder just how it will be told.

Blind

If we could only see
If we could only be
All the things we should have been
If we would open our eyes
If we would open our minds
To all the possibilities within

But we sit idly by and watch the suns rise
Silently as truth is devoured by the lies

We all lie in false repose
Content with the paths we once chose
So much more still lies beyond
So much time to carry on
But we all close the door and leave the truth behind
We all close our eyes, we are all blind

If we could only try
If we could only buy
Another life for us to live
If we would take this chance
If we would take this dance
To see that life had more to give

But we sit idly by and watch the suns rise
Silently as truth is devoured by the lies

We all lie in false repose
Content with the paths we once chose
So much more still lies beyond
So much time to carry on
But we all close the door and leave the truth behind
We all close our eyes, we are all blind

Death draws closer as we watch in vain
Unable to see the truth through the rain

Internet lingo
Emoticons or haha
Must break this habit

No words could ever express
No poem would say enough
You will never know my heart
How I cherished and loved
My hands won't stop shaking
I gasp for air but my lungs betray me
My eyes are weak and weary
My soul yearns to be free
I ask the questions
Yet no voice overhead can be heard
Are you listening?
Can you hear my pleading words?
I'm hollow and standing alone
Far removed from days of bliss
I wonder what is wrong with me
I wonder what I have missed
How could you stab me so
How could you spill my blood and leave
My whole world has crumbled down
Collapsed in one swift cleave
I close my eyes and hope against the day
No more should I see the sun
I want to destroy the nothingness left
Until there's nowhere I can run
I have never asked for much
I only wanted one true friend
But all too much to ask or want
Our time has come to an end
And I have nothing left
Nothing more to say or give
I pray to wake from this dream
And to see you here again

Prairie Jesus

There is nothing here at all
And everyone else is way too tall
The hills aren't worth it
The hippies have fallen off the wall
Hijacked by them all

Snowfall bleeding through the grass
The fields are full but it won't last
Everyone's happy
The greenery grows and stains the glass
Half-time at last

all the thechers are insane like bugs in the hot summer light
burning there souless skin
march with them as another puppet to the world
till your free mind is gone and crushing your soul
if you defy them you be shot by there evil stare till there is nothing left but pain

Time Can Never Heal

Lying here alone
Thinking what I could have done
I can't help but to wonder why
Why you never said goodbye
Times have truly changed
The days pass as years
Was it the way we fought?
Yet I never thought...
But now you've gone away
And no matter how I pray
I know you won't be here
I know you don't see my tears

They tell me there's a plan
Someday you'll understand
There's a reason for everything

But time can never heal
This sorrow that I feel
One chance to make it right
And now shadows cast on light
Time can never heal
This sorrow that I feel
One chance to make it right
Now shadows cast on light

Wishing once again
Somehow I could turn back time
If I only had one more breath
I could tell you before you left
More times than I can count
Could have shown the way I felt
Was it the way I tried?
Still I would have died...
But now you've gone away
And no matter how I pray
I know you won't be here
I know you don't see my tears

They tell me to wait and see
That this is the way it must be
There's a reason for everything

Time can never heal
This sorrow that I feel
Just one chance to make it right
And now shadows cast on light
Time can never heal
This sorrow that I feel
One chance to make it right
Now shadows cast on light

I don't have the strength
To carry on again
Nothing left of my zeal
For time can never heal

"Through Dark"

There's always something strange whenever I go home;
A feeling of emptiness that gnaws and tugs at my soul.
It's too much for me there, and I can't do anything but roam
And wander the streets of my childhood to appear whole.

I look back at the memories seem so sweet and sincere.
We were a loving family. We did so much. There was so much love.
Now that's all gone. A broken family with love that disappeared.
And when I go home, all I see are the pieces, where push came to shove.

I dread those journies home. I hate to see those familiar faces.
I wish I could start all over, free from the shackles of a life I no longer have.
But I'm stuck here, with a family I barely know, spread over distance places.
And I know there's no place for me there; my happiness is halved.

And when that emptiness hits me, I can't do anything but go out and walk,
Through the night, those lonely streets, under the trees and street lamps,
Hearing my footsteps echoe off the pavement, lost to the beats of the clock,
Nothing under the sky but myself and streets wet, slick, and damp.

I pass by the school I spent so many years learning and running around in,
Empty and derelict, forgotten as the city grew and evolved,
Remembering all the kind face, the students and teachers held within,
Thinking of all the fun and drama and problems I had to solve.

I pass by the playground, swingsets empty, monkey bars bare,
Remembering my tiny form running around in a wonderland of bliss,
Laughing with friends, games of tag and baseball, all once held there,
So young and pure, golden years that have now faded to mist.

I pass by the home of the girl I once loved, a woman so sweet and kind,
With raven black hair and a zeal to sing and dance and dazzle us all.
I remember every heartache when she looked my way, a love I couldn't find,
And I remember watching her slowly walk away, oblivious to my calls.

I remember the ditch where my friend and I used to play around,
We were soldiers and heroes, of to save some damsel in distress,
Our own fort of grass, wood, and dirt, now empty without soul or sound,
Abondoned the day he moved away, leaving me there with his absence.

I remember the house where my friend and I used to play old video games,
His father a large man who died of a heart attack one day while I was there,
Not knowing the implications or realizing how things weren't the same,
And then they were gone like the rest and I was the only one who cared.

I remember so much as I walk those darkened streets, and I miss it,
Oh how I miss it. The sounds. The scents. The sensations. The happiness.
The love. Back when I had a father who was there, a life that wasn't unfit,
A brother who cared about, and a mother who didn't need pills to survive this.

I've spent my whole life walking through the dark, never realizing, never aware,
Never understanding just how good I had it, with love all around,
And now it's all gone, leaving me with the long, gray years to prepare
For a life I may one day have with a family of my own, built on solid ground.

I'm petrified, terrified, of everything that is still to come for me.
I have no safety net. I'm freefalling through years of remorse and regret.
I walk my empty streets, and focus on those times where I couldn't see,
And I realize that living in the dark is not so bad, so long as I live to see the sun rise and set.

"Wounded"
Live in the land of the free
These colors stained with blood
PTSD with traumatic brain injury
Violence that's misunderstood

Where is my freedom now?
I'm broken beyond repair
I remain without the answer "how?"
Resce me from dispair

The bullets stopped long ago
The explosions stopped too
Yet why I gave, I don't know
Maybe I just did it for you

The nightmares still haunt
The cold sweat still here
A reminder made to taunt
Remind me of my only fear

I hope I did you right
I'd hate for this to be empty
So when you're alone at night
Please never forget me

"Adaptation"
You are the rain upon my fire.
You are the dreams that I desire.
I'd give you wings to take you higher.
I'd say it's love, but you're such a liar.

Nothing could ever prepare me for the fact
That here I am. This is where I'm at,
Wishing that I could go on through the days
Like recycled scenes from Broadway plays.
I'd go through a three scene act,
Live, grow, and die, filmed back to back,
And maybe you'd be my romantic lead,
There to help me when I'd bleed.

You are the rain upon my fire.
You are the dreams that I desire.
I'd give you wings to take you higher.
I'd say it's love, but you're such a liar.

Abandoned streets of selfish measures,
Bartered for a single night of pleasures,
Lost in liquor, drowned in drink,
Buzzkilled brain to tanked to think.
Purchased women and addictive drugs,
Gambled one's life, yet still pulled the plug.
And maybe I'll wake up and right it down,
And shop it to every studio in the town.

You are the rain upon my fire.
You are the dreams that I desire.
I'd give you wings to take you higher.
I'd say it's love, but you're such a liar.

"Someone you know"

To see the demon inside of me
To see the beast I can truly be
To see the thing you should fear most
To see why I never boast
To finally read between the lines
To finally see all the lies
To see my heart stop being soft
To find your reason to push me off
To now see I'm not worth the trouble
To be happy that I'm dead in the rubble

"Stuck in Limbo"
Right now I feel stuck in place.
Time stands still, as is the case.
There's worry lines across my face,
And a strong and bitter after taste.

Nothing ever seems to get done.
I can't seem to have fun,
Frozen when I should be on the run,
Ready to jump at the firing gun.

In here it's so still and so quiet;
Outside it's a raging riot,
And they preach their hate, but I don't buy it.
I say they're wrong but they just deny it.

I want to move forward from my past,
Make each day better than the last,
And tear off this mold and plaster cast;
I'm stuck in a rut when I should be running fast.

I'm here in limbo, lost and confused.
I try to stand up, but I'm just too abused.
I'm so sick and tired of feeling so used,
But my suffering just leave you ever amused.

So no more of this; time to evolve.
These sins of mine shall finally absolve,
And the world will not be still; it won't just revolve
Around lies and hate that this love has dissolved.

So here I am in limbo, breaking free,
Learning to be who I ought to be.
It's slow, and it's hard, sometimes painfully,
But I'm moving ahead, one step infront of me.

"The Reach Around"

problems are abound
mistakes that were made
do make my head pound

This games have been played
true to the sound
yet all the bets have been paid

Oh! the repercussions astound!
Any form of affection displayed
is done in the giuse of a reach-around.

This is the first time I have posted some of my lyrics/poems anywhere and one thing I am going warn you about my lyrics/ poems is that they're very cynical and at times kinda preverse because I usually write about topics that most people don't really want to talk about.

The first poem I am going to post is something that I have since turned into a song but originally was a poem. I am going to warn this poem is not exactly serious it was written originally for just a good laugh, because I had to read this in my highschool english class.

*Gender Bender

Is your name Steve or is it Mary
Because you can't quite tell with the clothes you're wearing
Do you wear boxers or a thong
Because I can tell that somethings wrong

Are you a boy or are you a girl
Because you've got my head in a whirl
I was just looking for a night on the town
Now I'm not really liking what I've found

You're not a woman
You're not a man
Oh boy this wasn't planned
You're a Gender Bender

"Game Design"
There's no purpose in this box;
I just roam around through corridoors.
An endless cycle of respawning,
And endless pits instead of floors.

I don't know which way is up.
Which floor am I even on?
I think I can handle myself just fine,
But it's just weapons that make one strong.

Why are we even here?
Do I defend my base or capture the flag?
Do I slaughter them all or be a sole survivor?
Maybe I'll be king of the hill... if there isn't lag.

It's a never-ending war, a tournament unreal.
It's last man-standing against a wave of data;
We forge ahead against the horde,
That is if we can get past the beta.

"Grindstone"
I'm a little bit tired,
A little bit spent.
I need a good long rest
But the day just won't relent.
So much to do,
And far too little time.
Just going through the loops,
And endless rhythm and rhyme.

One day everything will be just fine,
Nothing left to lose, nothing left to find,
One day everything will just be alright,
With nothing left to do, no stone left to grind.

I'm a little drained dry,
A little tuckered out.
I need that warm, fuzzy feeling
But I'm plauged by too many doubts.
I'm just swamped with work,
And I don't have the drive.
I do nothing but lurk
When I should be feeling alive.

One day everything will be just fine,
Nothing left to lose, nothing left to find,
One day everything will just be alright,
With nothing left to do, no stone left to grind.

And maybe something day I'll just stop caring,
Or maybe I'll be wrapped up in the details.
Maybe I'll see the bigger picture,
Or maybe I'll be lost, like a train derailed.
Maybe everything will be smiles and sunshine,
Or maybe it'll just be living hell.
Maybe my life will be what I hoped it would be,
Or maybe it'll be a different story to tell.

One day everything will be just fine,
Nothing left to lose, nothing left to find,
One day everything will just be alright,
With nothing left to do, no stone left to grind.

"Snackers Lament"

Under the night sky so bare
in the tall grass I'm laying there
tracing pillowy clouds
unpon which stars are strung
waiting for the moon
yet the moon never comes
Then I totally got hungery for some Cheetos
The twisty kind
do they even makes those anymore?