I stood to the chrome handle to my temple comtemplating this handle on my situational sample, am I a cripple to see how simple its become to cripple a life I resort to lead and metal as lethal clap and tripple my sentence? facing me was a reflection of bad decisions culminating from the point that i realized I had been persuaded by this vile accurseed thing dissuaded from the thought of life that I could so bring, and see me, life it carries on I see a wife who carries son, my seed so this need to heed into my greed is enough for me to once proceed and be freed from this tug at my heart, but my anger folded my vision to the point that I cannot recall, how did it start? worst of all how am I a so called man broken down to bein shocked by this metal on the ground it all was clear in an instant of tens of taunts and tinted truths I stood and undertood all that I could be... I looked not the gun but to the man who shone from it and decided that it was never me...

"My Princess"
Deep within my memories, a lost girl cries out to me.
Speak with me; sleep with me; weep with me.
Enchanted princess from my dream's desire,
Burn in me, my angelic fire.
You gave me the strength to rise again,
And I'll be with you to the very end.

Dream of me, sweet princess of my heart.
Dance with me, till the earth shakes apart.
Hold onto my wings and let's fly away,
Through the sunset to another day.

Time could not seperate you from me;
You mold me, you scold me, you hold me.
Forever lost in your warm embrace,
And forever mystified by your beautiful face.
Goddess of love and Venus of my thoughts,
Give unto me that love which I have long sought.

Dream of me, sweet princess of my heart.
Dance with me, till the earth shakes apart.
Hold onto my wings and let's fly away,
Through the sunset to another day.

And now and forever, we'll be together;
We'd stand forever in all of nature's weather
Through the squall and the gale,
I will love you without fail.
Forever, I'll be true,
Because there's none I love as I love you.

Dream of me, sweet princess of my heart.
Dance with me, till the earth shakes apart.
Hold onto my wings and let's fly away,
Through the sunset to another day.

Fatality.

You guys have a treat. I have 3 songs!

Here's one I wrote in a bowling alley ( I know, the name of this song is weird, but this title was NEVER used)
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UMMM...WHAT?
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And I thought to have tricked my foe
But I heard something

Something quiet
But there's crinkling

My mission is to stay up late
But I can't function

Strike one....hundred

Hey, hey, wait!

Tu madre es fea
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That last lyric loosely translates into 'Your mother is ugly' in Spanish. Here's 2 songs I wrote in school.

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YOU EVIL, ME GOOD!
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My project's torn down again
He won't stop shouting again
Then that guy is making us write
But you know it's worthless, right?

Then he's leaning on that wall
Another is lying again
Sense in my head got slapped out
But why was he talking?

Turn around and speak
You can talk, can't you?

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IT'S UNBEARABLE
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You don't scare me
You can't make me leave
I don't know if I have a job
I don't understand
There is no bright side

Why you say that I'll never know
Are you doing well?
Guess not

Holy smokes

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Okay. I'm done.

Bravo.
Fatality.

"Burn"
I feel it burning in me like a dark disease,
While you strut about, doing as you please.
Succubus, devil, fire from your lips,
And the way that tail sways when you shake your hips;
Dark, blood-red lips part, uttering seductive cries,
And black eye-shadow shading golden eyes,
While leather bat wings grace your uncovered spine,
And the air grows thick, leaving my peace behind.

She's my sin, she's my hate.
She's everything I used to negate.
She's my devil; you'd think I'd learn,
But, no, I still desire that eternal burn.

All in black, from your head to your toes;
Your hair jet black, hiding where your horns grow.
Sultry and sexy, yet dark beyond my dreams,
You tempt and you taint, in the hot of the steam;
Forsaken and abandoned, you steal their souls,
Drinking their blood and eating them whole.
Is that my fate, then? Do you think I'm that naive?
My darling devil, I'm not as foolish as you believe.

She's my sin, she's my hate.
She's everything I used to negate.
She's my devil; you'd think I'd learn,
But, no, I still desire that eternal burn.

And where are you now? Still in the dark?
Did you truly believe I would love one without a heart?
And as your mascara bleeds, dark tears upon your cheek,
I see you fall to your knees, so suddenly weak.
And I touch you, and my fingers burn so bright,
And through the pain, I still hold you so tight.
One so far from grace, let me show you my revelation:
Let me take your place, sacrificed for your salvation.

She's my sin, she's my hate.
She's everything I used to negate.
I saw her suffer; now it's my turn,
Loving enough for that eternal burn.

Light never dies, even in monsters....

Fatality.

"Horror House"
A whispered voice in this desolate place
Is carried by the wind that chills my face.
The creak of the floor boards freezes me whole
As the sun sets on a dead killer's soul.
Swinging from the ceiling is a cloaked form,
Faceless and lifeless, his shape ripped and torn.
Then, stillness, as my heart pounds in my chest,
And the silence fades along with the rest.

Horror house upon the hill
Gives to all unnatural thrill;
Spilling dark blood to its fill,
And screaming out before the kill.

Dusty windows shake and torn curtains blow,
While shifting shadows dance for me below.
Something stirs near me and the lights flicker;
The stench of rot only makes me sicker.
Then, scrape, scrape, of metal upon the floor;
I try to escape; I'm trapped by locked doors.
A shrill scream flies upon the midnight air;
Face the mirror and fear what's really there.

Horror house upon the hill
Gives to all unnatural thrill;
Spilling dark blood to its fill,
And screaming out before the kill.

Fatality.

Hmm. Seems I'm in a darker mood than usual...

"Lords of the Nine"
In the dark recess of forbidden nightmares,
There lurks the Lords of the Nine in Lucifer's lair.
Stagnant and horrid, they rule in hate and spite,
Bathing their domains in an eternally hellish night.
They scheme and they plot and send out their devils,
Dragging poor souls all the way down the nine levels.

There's Bel, that dragon of fang, fat, and blood,
The scarlet stain on his sword spilling over as a flood.
His scales like cinder, his wings as black ash,
He beckons all to a hell under his nine-ended lash.
His girth alone would be enough to impose,
But then he goes and blows fire from his nose.

Cold and cruel Dispater of the second disdain
Gives misery to all who dare to traverse his plane.
With his club and his cloak, he shatters their skulls
And builds a mountain of bones, mounting heads on poles.
Glowing red eyes, and his stone gray flesh
Are what men observed before their painful deaths.

Level three is the home of Mammon, lord of flies;
The snake relishes every deceit and all his lies.
He corrupts through his greed, tempting with cash,
And lulling the greedy to an eternity in the ash.
As he slithers to and fro, he devours men's health,
Then conjures up more mischief with his limitless wealth.

Lady Fierna rules the fourth plane, though you'd never know.
Her father, Lord Belial, does the work; she's there for show.
She's into kinky sex, whips, whisle, and the leather fad;
She'll do anybody, do anything. She even did her dad.
With her lust and appeal, she calls men to their doom,
And traps them forever in her loving arms of gloom.

Prince Levistus dwells in the fifth layer of hate;
He's just as much a prisoner due to an unfortunate mistake.
He tempted then killed the mistress of his master,
Who in retribution offered him swift and inhuman disaster.
His lust for greed, lust for love, and for all that would entice
Lead him to an eternity ruling inside a solid block of ice.

A witch dwells in the sixth; the venerable Hag Countess,
An old wretch of rotting flesh, of bone and not much less.
Her stink and her filth makes the very ground decay,
And the rags on her frame tend to shrivel away.
She has no strength, only a morbid cunning of mind,
Using it to its fullest measure to be unjust and unkind.

Baalzebul the ugly squirms about the seventh plane,
Bearing a disfigurement he holds in utter disdain.
He was once beautiful, an angel of heaven's best,
Now a living slug with a face gargoyal-like and grotesque.
He has become bitter and powerful, stronger and tougher,
And with his might, he will make all the world suffer.

Mephistopheles is crafty and cunning beyond comprehension.
As ruler of the eighth, he burns all alive with subtle apprehension.
He declares he will rule all the world, both heaven and hell,
And the giant bat-winged, red-skinned devil might very well.
He once staged a fake revolt, acting as another as bait;
Those who joined the imposter all experienced grisly fates.

And the ruler of them all, the great Asmodeus of lore,
Thirteen feet tall in red robes with a crown of sharp horns.
He commands respect, demands praise, invokes fear;
He established a kingdom of brimstone, fire, and tears.
With horrid grace, he keeps his world in harmonious discord;
With god-like power and cruelty, he truly is the greatest demon lord.

The lords of the nine wallow in their own, hellish spheres ,
Instilling agony upon every unfortunate soul that draws near,
But they all know that their time is short and their doom is nigh,
And as they waste away in sex and sin, or just by getting by,
The hope in mankind reaches through the dark, piercing the night,
And at the slightest touch, they all fade, vanquished by the light.

Fatality.

EDIT: Great. I was going to post a song, but I can't take this letters-and-numbers crap, I am NOT going to post ANY lyrics if I typed them for 10 minutes and it gets f***ed up.

TEMPT ME TO SUICIDE

This morning, I can feel it yes, it's here, here for the taking,
Taking, enervating me for "the" last time.
So I can pull the trigger, and hey, there I go full-believing,
believing that there is a goddamn pain within my head.

This state is so goddamn funny, every day will be so sunny,
Can't laugh at myself, I just smile.
Each smiling takes away the craving,
heals a new space for the hating,
that is, coming through my pen, my pen, my pen!

This evening, I can see it, yes, it's there for the eating,
Eating, bleeding, my own fucked up blood, Oh My God.
So I can pul the trigger, and hey, would you believe it,
The bullet is passing through my brain, brain, my brain.

This state is so goddamn funny, every day will be so sunny,
Can't laugh at myself, I just smile.
Each smiling takes away the craving,
heals a new space for the hating,
that is, coming through my pen, my pen, my pen!

Hey, let's all be dead.../don't listen to me
Hey, we're all well fed.../do you hear me
Hey, lets all suicide......./God is there
Hey, they play us dead../he will cry

Gonna put this down, down
Gonna end this now, bow
Gotta hate me now!!!
or I am not one suicidal idol of your night!!!

Hate me becouse my strenght!!!

This state is so goddamn funny, every day will be so sunny,
Can't laugh at myself, I just smile.
Each smiling takes away the craving,
heals a new space for the hating,
that is, coming through my pen, my pen, my pen!

This evening, I can see it, yes, it's there for the eating,
Eating, bleeding, my own fucked up blood, Oh My God.

...

This morning, I can feel it yes, it's here, here for the taking,
Taking, enervating me for "the" last time.

And so I ramble on...

This state is so goddamn funny, every day will be so sunny,
Can't laugh at myself, I just smile.
Each smiling takes away the craving,
heals a new space for the hating,
that is, coming through my pen, my pen, my pen!

Don't die with me,
Just please, don't die with me!
Don't die with me,
Just please, don't die with me!
Don't die with me,
Just please, don't die with me!
Dying...with...me

"Dependent"
This is a cruel world. So much pain and hate.
I see my life through blood and taint,
Trying hard not to make my father's mistakes;
I peer at a world of incoherently mixed paint.
There's nothing to see, nothing but a blur,
And there seems to be nothing worth living for,
But there's a love, a light, I can never deter,
And there's a hope inside that I can never ignore.

I'm so dependent upon you,
You're all that pulls me through.
In all I am, in all I do,
Is driven by my love for you.

Why do kind people suffer? What have we done?
This is is so unfair; we were so content,
And as we now say prayers over lost loved ones,
I realize I can't stand alone; I'm so dependent,
And you were there every time I cracked and broke,
There every time I shattered to pick up the pieces.
You stayed with me, but I was alone when I awoke,
But I never lost faith. My love for you only increases.

I'm so dependent upon you,
You're all that pulls me through.
In all I am, in all I do,
Is driven by my love for you.

We've both lost loved ones dear, shed so many tears,
We've both faced uncertainty and fear through the years.
We both struggled to cope, being prone to mope,
But at the end of our ropes, we still had our hope.
You were more than a crutch, if that were such,
And what I crave so very much is your loving touch.

I'm so dependent upon you,
You're all that pulls me through.
In all I am, in all I do,
Is driven by my love for you.

Fatality.

"Inside of Me"
Okay, here's the whole truth;
I'm at my wits end with nothing to lose.
I've faked it and denied it,
I've tried so hard to hide it,
But these feelings in me
Are too painful in captivity.

You see, here's the story,
I dream of you in the morning,
I dream of you at night,
And every single day's a fight
To keep you out of my thoughts,
But the effort is for naught.

You're inside of me,
You're all that I see.
You're all that I wish to be,
All that I'd kill to be.
You're inside of me,
And I can never deny
You're that loving feeling
I feel inside.

I want to drive out and see you,
To prove just how much I love you,
But every day's another debate,
And when the day's gone, it's too late;
In love with a shadow, and you still don't know
That you saved my life, those many years ago.

You're inside of me,
You're all that I see.
You're all that I wish to be,
All that I'd kill to be.
You're inside of me,
And I can never deny
You're that loving feeling
I feel inside.

I'm scared to confess this,
Afraid of what I might miss,
But afraid of what this might mean,
Because I've hurt so much in between
The time I Iost so much I held true
And those loving years I've spent with you.

You're inside of me,
You're all that I see.
You're all that I wish to be,
All that I'd kill to be.
You're inside of me,
And I can never deny
You're that loving feeling
I feel inside.

Maybe I'll figure this out. Maybe not.
But in all of life's lessons taught,
I've learn that to love is to risk it all,
And I'll either rise above or take the fall.
And if I fall, I just have to put myself together
And risk it again, loving you forever.

You're inside of me,
You're all that I see.
You're all that I wish to be,
All that I'd kill to be.
You're inside of me,
And I can never deny
You're that loving feeling
I feel inside.

Fatality.

Alright, here are 3 more songs I wrote in school, which I was going to post earlier but got haxX0r l4ngu4g3d.....

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NOT FOR ANOTHER TWENTY MINUTES
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I thought I could get away
But I just gave up afterwards
I feel like I have deja vu
Nah, I don't really mind

You can go on and tell your story
I have no stories
There's no morals anymore
Fill me in

You can't notice that you are bored
So I'll sit here and write
But I'm done already

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NEED NEW STRINGS
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I found a key that will get you nowhere
I couldn't open the door, so I trashed it
Haven't been able to find the treasure
Even when it's in front of my face

Nobody wants that
Neither did I
That's why I turned here, so I don't have to gripe

I was told to turn back
But that path isn't for me anymore
I feel that I can choose my own road, or at least the right one for me

Yeah, you heard me!

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READ YOUR DICTIONARY
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I'm itching to get 2 cents in
But it's not worth a dime
I don't want to spread your lice
And your lies either

You never knew what to do, did you?

You make an assumption
Yeah, I assume it's right

All to do is guess
That's just weird
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Finished!

Congrats. You deserve a pat on the back. I would have just said "the hell with it" and started from scratch. Fatality.

Thanks...they were written in a little red notebook that's always in my hand, so I just typed it again...I was also gonna post lyrics to an improv song I recorded on a cassette in my room....I might do that now, I dunno.

I'm starting to notice people's personalities through the lyrics...it's obvious and I knew, but I didn't really realize it until now. I'm kind of rebellious with mine, and most of the songs I write show how stupid society can be, with the exception of these last three songs, which are experiences in my life, but 'Read Your Dictionary' is still rebellious because one of my teachers treat me unfairly, so I wrote that song to rebel against what she was doing.

I'll shut up now. Ha ha.

"Grit"
In that golden age, all the guys talked tough,
The gang was all here and the boys played rough.
The girls were all sexy, smooth and fine,
And morality was bounded by a black and white line.
You had your villians and you had your heroes,
Values worth fighting and dying for and stuck-up egos.
People would look at me and never see that life,
But they could never know my misery, my angst and strife.

This is it! Bit by bit!
Caught up in the fever fit,
Trying to prove I'm legit,
So I'll take hit for hit,
Down and dirty in the grit.

A "sexual revolution", and suddenly things are gone,
Where girls are strong and men's strength is wrong.
The roles of history are nothing but relative,
But my strength and my name are all that I can give.
Rocking with bad boys, taking hard knocks,
I take blow for blow, sockin' around the clock;
I like to bleed, and I like to fight, but that ain't "right",
So I'm stuck in a world of misguided truth and might.

This is it! Bit by bit!
Caught up in the fever fit,
Trying to prove I'm legit,
So I'll take hit for hit,
Down and dirty in the grit.

What good is a princess that doesn't want to be saved?
This is a society that tries to dictate how I behave,
And I'm just not down with that, so I go against the grain,
Taking scrapes and cuts, maybe even delighting in the pain.
I believe my values, my love, is worth standing up and dying for;
I'm stuck in a world of corruption and greed I simply can't ignore.
Call me masochistic, but I want to prove I'm worth a damn,
And if I die because of it, I'll dying being who I am.

This is it! Bit by bit!
Caught up in the fever fit,
Trying to prove I'm legit,
So I'll take hit for hit,
Down and dirty in the grit.

Fatality.

LET IT ROLL

I was such a fool,
And now that its too late,
Now that this love has takin its toll,
All I can do is shake it off, and let it roll,

Last night I realized all your funny little games,
And everytime you said my name,
I fell further and further into your monopoly,
But now I see things clearly,
And I'm sorry,
But I've got to move on and let it all go,
So I thought you should know,
You may think you got the best of me,
But I've got more to me,
Than you've ever seen,
I'm gonna survive,
Because there's so much more to life,

Went out with some friends for a night on the town,
And when I got home I turned on a lil r&b to calm me down,
I needed to get so far from this place,
But when I closed my eyes I saw your face,
So I poured a lil glass of champagne,
As my mind strolled down memory lane,

I was such a fool,
And now that its too late,
Now that this love has takin its toll,
All I can do is shake it off, and let it roll,

You were so convinced that I was here to stay,
That you didn't care what you'd say,
But now I'm gonna pack up my Louis Vuitton,
Hop in my whip and I'm gone,
Because all in all I didn't need this pain,
And before I go insane,
I'm gonna drive away,
Gonna drive 105 down the freeway,
I gotta leave it all behind,
Before I go outta my mind,
So don't try and find me,
Because now I'm free,

Now I know you're not used to something like this,
From someone nicknamed the Grunge Princess,
But every now and then I gotta break it down,
And pick myself up off the ground,
Dust it off, make it shine, set it free,
Because for the first time I'm gonna live for me,

I was such a fool,
And now that its too late,
Now that this love has takin its toll,
All I can do is shake it off, and let it roll,

You had me so thrown off,
So move over,
I gotta regain my composure,
Because I've had enough,
If you don't like it, tough,
Because I'm not gonna play these games anymore,
So don't try and follow me out the door,

I was such a fool,
And now that its too late,
Now that this love has takin its toll,
All I can do is shake it off, and let it roll,

I was such a fool,
And now that its too late,
Now that this love has takin its toll,
All I can do is shake it off, and let it roll,

Just gotta let it roll,
Ask your mama she knows,
Just gotta let it roll,
Let it roll, let it, let it, let it,
Let it roll.

"No More"
I've had a lot of regret in my short life-span,
Had a lot of problems figuring out who I am,
I know what I dream for and what I stand for,
And as much as I hate this, I can't take it any more.
I'm such a blind fool, to expect to be a hero;
But I felt nothing but coldness near absolute zero.
I had so little, and so I loved so very much,
And I used to stay up at night, dreaming of her touch.

No more. I will dream of you no more.
No more. I will scream for you no more.
No more. I will flirt with you no more.
No more. I will hurt for you no more.

I always knew that this was how it would be;
I needed her so much more than she needed me.
I have no one who gave me such love and care,
And for that alone, I promised I'd be there.
I accepted her, every blessing and every flaw,
But I no longer see in her that light I first saw.
She's not a bad person, still, but not who I thought,
And I guess I wasn't worth the effort after we fought.

No more. I will dream of you no more.
No more. I will scream for you no more.
No more. I will flirt with you no more.
No more. I will hurt for you no more.

I played her game, and I was a sucker for every line,
Believing myself the monster, someone asinine,
But that's not who I am, and I won't believe the lies,
Because I've heard that all my life, and I no longer cry.
I know she'll move on. I was never important at all.
I could be easily replaced, any picture off the wall.
I can't say that it hasn't caused me a great deal of pain,
But I've faced it alone before, in my own world of disdain.

No more. I will dream of you no more.
No more. I will scream for you no more.
No more. I will flirt with you no more.
No more. I will hurt for you no more.

So, I've made my choice, and I have no more regrets,
Because I know that this isn't as good as my life gets.
I'll still follow my promise and I'll pray for her every day,
Because that love for her is too strong to fade away.
I'll move on somehow, even if I have to stand on my own;
All I ever needed was someone so I wouldn't be alone,
But I'm stronger than that, even if she never saw that in me.
If nothing else, I'm content, because I've known true beauty.

No more. I will dream of you no more.
No more. I will scream for you no more.
No more. I will feel this peace no more.
No more. But I'll still love her evermore.

Fatality.

"Dark Reflection"
The night and all that's in it
Draws me to a world of shame and pain.
It bathes me like rain.
The light, the joy within it,
Fades out to a voice that still sustains...
I feel light wane.

She's in my heart,
She made me who I am today.
In my dark reflection
I see that this will never change.
Oh, darling,
You gave me a strength to fight.
This may be done,
But I want to kiss you good-night.

Time stops and I can see it,
My memories flood within my head.
Memories of dread.
I'm off in a world; I've dreamed it.
Sweet caress as I lay down to bed;
For love I have bled.

She's in my heart,
She made me who I am today.
In my dark reflection
I see that this will never change.
Oh, darling,
You gave me a strength to fight.
This may be done,
But I want to kiss you good-night.

I weep as I sleep,
And still I repeat,
That light in the night
Has given me might.
Love is still love,
And that's still enough
To keep me breathing...

She's in my heart,
She made me who I am today.
In my dark reflection
I see that this will never change.
Oh, darling,
You gave me a strength to fight.
This may be done,
But I want to kiss you good-night.

Fatality.

While approached, I loved that you didnt feel threatened
a master with song the likes of Jack Lennon
your words rained, in flight sent straight out from heaven
how could this be so, baby girl is about 5' wit 7!
I was touched at first type, with my ego unleavened
Now I might even see you alonside Gloria Stefan

theres not tellin how much you're respected here,
and the limitless songs I expect to hear
Im so proud and happy, with only one fear...
tell me you wont miss me and I'll shed a tear

Im an abacus ,count on me, you cant rub me the wrong way
I'll make sure I treat you right so the love goes a long way
a diary with lock and key, from you to me, for none to see
see in me, a wall not frail to hold not fail and give you, place to lean
a sexy, seductive sultry type of guy you need na' I mean?
In me you might not see your man,
but be damned sure you got a lifelong friend

you should already know who you are, deepest regards and most profound love and good wishes...

Here is my first contribution, maybe even the only one, if someone wants to comment it do it in the "person above thread" or pm me, thanks.

I love you

Other words I cannot say
For only this explain the pain
Love is sweet
But the price is big
For thee I am in need
Instead no more than a hug I shall receive

Thou's words struck hard
My heart they broke apart
Thou's hard is his
He apreciates this
Even though
Love you he will not

A trophy for him thou are
That I cannot stand
For you are in my heart
Someday thou will understand
This words that I shall pronounce
I love you

I'll take you down if you stand before me.
I'll end your life with no glimmer of mercy
You're an obsticle in my way
And you need to be removed.
By word or by force
My lust will be soothed.

Chains entangle
Guilt which strangles
tears inside me
Coming down

Screams inside me,
Horrors beside me
Salvation's a joke
Every given chance I choke.

Chains entangle
guilt which strangles
Tears inside me
Coming down

Screams inside me
Horrors beside me
Salvations a joke
Every given chance I choke

Like a thousand knives
Stabbing through the flesh
Every breath screams
Do it again.
Not enough to cure the suffer
Of an inner demon.deep inside
Sanity swirls inside
Further then my minds Ieyecan see

Chains entangle
Guilt which strangles
tears inside me
Coming down

Screams inside me,
Horrors beside me
Salvation's a joke
Every given chance I choke.

Chains entangle
guilt which strangles
Tears inside me
Coming down

Screams inside me
Horrors beside me
Salvations a joke
Every given chance I choke

Blessed by thy father
Blessed by the water
Bloodlust, Insanity
My inner demon cries

I sit here with this pen in my hand, contemplating on why my life revolves around a man. It started with a thought on how good my life could be, completely and solely happy. He tells me, "We have chemistry," and I agree, but were we ever meant to be? The love that's made between us, keeping our bodies in severe motion, him loving every part of me, tenderly. So maybe there is a future for you and me, so deeply intertwined with emotions and feelings that sometimes are so vaguely seen. I think about being your one and only, but is another supposed to take that place from me? These questions surrounding me, tear me, so far to the point where I can't feel or see, these actions that come from my man that were meant for me. Why can't I believe he still loves me? Because I've scorned a man so viciously. Maybe the problem is ME! I don't deserve him, to hold his hand, to make plans that shouldn't be made. He deserve better than me. I get a "odd and ends" job to run away from the true fact that I think about him night and day, just thinking on the things I did the guilt follows me so constantly, to finally show me the truth of my ways. I feel it so bad! The strength of my consience overpowers me, making me weak, and to my suprise, the "Superman" of my life tries to save me, but I feel like I am his kryptonite when he tells me, "I wanna be me again." I can't help but to crumble and think... Maybe it's just that, we're not meant to be...

YOU came out of nowhere, girl. I thought that was beautiful... and how ironically relevent in my own life. That was great stuff. I hope we see you post here more often. Fatality.

Across the city
We stare each other down
Memories of how you kicked me
Of how you shot me down
You open up your mouth
And try to make a sound
My ears start ringing
And I hit the ground.

You open up your mouth
And your life comes out
You try to abuse me again
But I just turn around

All the times you've hurt me
And left me on my own
I've gotten stronger
You can't take me down

Your strikes don't hurt me
Your kicks are weak
Your insults are childish
So turn around and forget about me

Come look into my eyes
And take my pain
I only have one target
And it has your name.

All the times you've hurt me
And left me on my own
I've gotten stronger
You can't take me down

You've left me broken
You've left me cold
You've left me crying
Now leave me ALONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Come look into my eyes
And take on all of my pain
I have a ton of it left
Marked only with your name.

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