"Rift"
There I stand,
Cold upon the snow.
Understand
That I had to go.
Off to fight,
To prove my own worth.
It was right;
The first time since birth.
Stand up with the few,
Those willing to face defeat.
Fight for what is true,
Or let history forever repeat.
Let history tell
How you did all that you could.
You fought your inner hell,
And died for the higher good.
The thick smoke,
Smothing my lungs.
Now I choke,
With others so young
No glory,
Not in what we do.
Our story,
However, is true.
Stand up with the few,
Those willing to face defeat.
Fight for what is true,
Or let history forever repeat.
Let history tell
How you did all that you could.
You fought your inner hell,
And died for the higher good.
Forever,
We will do our part.
I'll never
Lose this beating heart.
We attack;
My thoughts drift to you.
Smile back,
Love to come home to.
Stand up with the few,
Those willing to face defeat.
Fight for what is true,
Or let history forever repeat.
Let history tell
How you did all that you could.
You fought your inner hell,
And died for the higher good.
There I stand,
Cold upon the snow.
Understand
That I had to go.
Off to fight,
To prove my own worth.
It was right;
The first time since birth.
Stand up with the few,
Those willing to face defeat.
Fight for what is true,
Or let history forever repeat.
Let history tell
How you did all that you could.
You fought your inner hell,
And died for the higher good.
The thick smoke,
Smothing my lungs.
Now I choke,
With others so young
No glory,
Not in what we do.
Our story,
However, is true.
Stand up with the few,
Those willing to face defeat.
Fight for what is true,
Or let history forever repeat.
Let history tell
How you did all that you could.
You fought your inner hell,
And died for the higher good.
Forever,
We will do our part.
I'll never
Lose this beating heart.
We attack;
My thoughts drift to you.
Smile back,
Love to come home to.
Stand up with the few,
Those willing to face defeat.
Fight for what is true,
Or let history forever repeat.
Let history tell
How you did all that you could.
You fought your inner hell,
And died for the higher good.
I've always depended on this thread to give me the voice that I don't have. It's been far too long since I spoke.
"Tomorrow"
In my lonely world, you're never here;
The memories in my heart disappear,
And I'm left without the love
You gave to me.
Those words you whispered in my ear
Drifting through the dark and lonely years
Still don't say the words I need
To comfort me (save me please.)
Show me a way that we can live together.
Show me a way we can love one another.
Show me the hope that I so sorely missed.
Show me the proof that love actually exists.
You were gone before I ever knew your heart,
Fading back to nothing, just like the start,
And I'm broken and confused
With hate inside of me.
I tried to make you proud, to be strong and smart,
But even after that, we're still apart.
I have nothing but myself,
Deep inside of me (save me please.)
Show me a way that we can live together.
Show me a way we can love one another.
Show me the hope that I so sorely missed.
Show me the proof that love actually exists.
Here, in the midst of all my sorrow.
Here, in the dawn of my light.
I want to see my joy tomorrow
And that's enough for me to fight.
Show me a way that we can live together.
Show me a way we can love one another.
Show me the hope that I so sorely missed.
Show me the proof that love actually exists.
I'm so alone, so alone.
Hard as stone, on my own.
So cold, too bold,
Forever till I'm old.
I want to cross that water,
Be a better man than my father.
I want to know that I'm secure,
And so I survive all that I endure.
"Tomorrow"
In my lonely world, you're never here;
The memories in my heart disappear,
And I'm left without the love
You gave to me.
Those words you whispered in my ear
Drifting through the dark and lonely years
Still don't say the words I need
To comfort me (save me please.)
Show me a way that we can live together.
Show me a way we can love one another.
Show me the hope that I so sorely missed.
Show me the proof that love actually exists.
You were gone before I ever knew your heart,
Fading back to nothing, just like the start,
And I'm broken and confused
With hate inside of me.
I tried to make you proud, to be strong and smart,
But even after that, we're still apart.
I have nothing but myself,
Deep inside of me (save me please.)
Show me a way that we can live together.
Show me a way we can love one another.
Show me the hope that I so sorely missed.
Show me the proof that love actually exists.
Here, in the midst of all my sorrow.
Here, in the dawn of my light.
I want to see my joy tomorrow
And that's enough for me to fight.
Show me a way that we can live together.
Show me a way we can love one another.
Show me the hope that I so sorely missed.
Show me the proof that love actually exists.
I'm so alone, so alone.
Hard as stone, on my own.
So cold, too bold,
Forever till I'm old.
I want to cross that water,
Be a better man than my father.
I want to know that I'm secure,
And so I survive all that I endure.
"Feel"
I feel it in my mind,
Burning away my pain.
I feel it every day,
Drowning in the rain.
I feel it in my dreams,
Wake up bleeding on the sheets.
I feel it in my gut,
Still breaking apart, incomplete.
I, I never knew
Just how cold you were.
I, I never knew
What you truly prefered.
I want to run,
To run so far away.
It's over and done;
Graffiti dreams don't stay.
I feel her in my heart,
Telling me to stay near.
I feel her in my brain,
Screaming in insane fear.
I feel her in my hands,
Running over her smooth shape.
I feel her in my soul,
Begging for her escape.
I, I don't want to know
Just why you ran away.
I, I don't want to know
Why you couldn't stay.
Kill the most,
And tell me it was worth it.
Hide your ghost
Until I unearth it.
I feel him in my rage,
Mocking me in the mirror.
I feel him in my voice,
Screaming till I can't hear her.
I feel him in my blood,
Running away from her again.
I feel him in my hate,
Bleeding through 'til the end.
I, I need to know,
Will I be the same as him?
I, I need to know,
Will I repeat that hidden sin?
Apple doesn't fall far,
And still I listen to your lies.
Break me; see my scars,
And feel again 'til my demise!
I feel it in my mind,
Burning away my pain.
I feel it every day,
Drowning in the rain.
I feel it in my dreams,
Wake up bleeding on the sheets.
I feel it in my gut,
Still breaking apart, incomplete.
I, I never knew
Just how cold you were.
I, I never knew
What you truly prefered.
I want to run,
To run so far away.
It's over and done;
Graffiti dreams don't stay.
I feel her in my heart,
Telling me to stay near.
I feel her in my brain,
Screaming in insane fear.
I feel her in my hands,
Running over her smooth shape.
I feel her in my soul,
Begging for her escape.
I, I don't want to know
Just why you ran away.
I, I don't want to know
Why you couldn't stay.
Kill the most,
And tell me it was worth it.
Hide your ghost
Until I unearth it.
I feel him in my rage,
Mocking me in the mirror.
I feel him in my voice,
Screaming till I can't hear her.
I feel him in my blood,
Running away from her again.
I feel him in my hate,
Bleeding through 'til the end.
I, I need to know,
Will I be the same as him?
I, I need to know,
Will I repeat that hidden sin?
Apple doesn't fall far,
And still I listen to your lies.
Break me; see my scars,
And feel again 'til my demise!
"Weary"
Everything is falling back on me,
This worthless story ending.
Your prison won't set me free,
Always so condensending.
Please, just kill me and get it done,
I'm so damn tired of running.
What good is life without my sun,
Without my angel so stunning?
(what good is life without love?
what good is love without life?)
Kill me, heal me,
Deal with all the hell in my way.
Save me, rape me,
Tell me to live another day.
Grab me, stab me,
Make me feel like I'm still alive.
Miss me, kiss me,
And give me the will to survive.
Broken dreams are falling down on me,
Their endless tears befalling.
Living lies amidst the dark debris,
I hear your vacant calling.
(what good is life without love?
what good is love without life?)
Kill me, heal me,
Deal with all the hell in my way.
Save me, rape me,
Tell me to live another day.
Grab me, stab me,
Make me feel like I'm still alive.
Miss me, kiss me,
And give me the will to survive.
Speak to me, 'cause I can't go on...
Everything is falling back on me,
This worthless story ending.
Your prison won't set me free,
Always so condensending.
Please, just kill me and get it done,
I'm so damn tired of running.
What good is life without my sun,
Without my angel so stunning?
(what good is life without love?
what good is love without life?)
Kill me, heal me,
Deal with all the hell in my way.
Save me, rape me,
Tell me to live another day.
Grab me, stab me,
Make me feel like I'm still alive.
Miss me, kiss me,
And give me the will to survive.
Broken dreams are falling down on me,
Their endless tears befalling.
Living lies amidst the dark debris,
I hear your vacant calling.
(what good is life without love?
what good is love without life?)
Kill me, heal me,
Deal with all the hell in my way.
Save me, rape me,
Tell me to live another day.
Grab me, stab me,
Make me feel like I'm still alive.
Miss me, kiss me,
And give me the will to survive.
Speak to me, 'cause I can't go on...
About Me
Hahahaha...?
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Little something I recorded just an hour ago....
HECTOR
There's someone I'd like you to meet
A very straight-laced happy-go-lucky guy.
So oblivious to everything, including the fact that he doesn't exist.
He's not real.
He comes from a bottle.
He pays attention so well, better than me at least.
That's why I must leave, and he'll take my place.
I'll swallow this pill, and he'll come prancing along.
You'll find him easier to get along with.
I hope you enjoy his company.
Because he's not staying for long!
I've had it with these surreal expectations
Say good-bye to your little pal!
I'm throwing away the bottle
Gone are your hopes of changing me
I'd rather be a crybaby than someone who lives in a narcotic...ahhh...
( This song I wrote when my mom suggested medication for my seemingly permanent depression...I didn't answer to the offer yet but judging by what I just wrote, it seems like a huge no... and yeah, my name isn't Hector, it's Tommy, but I named this alter-ego Hector....for whatever reason... )
HECTOR
There's someone I'd like you to meet
A very straight-laced happy-go-lucky guy.
So oblivious to everything, including the fact that he doesn't exist.
He's not real.
He comes from a bottle.
He pays attention so well, better than me at least.
That's why I must leave, and he'll take my place.
I'll swallow this pill, and he'll come prancing along.
You'll find him easier to get along with.
I hope you enjoy his company.
Because he's not staying for long!
I've had it with these surreal expectations
Say good-bye to your little pal!
I'm throwing away the bottle
Gone are your hopes of changing me
I'd rather be a crybaby than someone who lives in a narcotic...ahhh...
( This song I wrote when my mom suggested medication for my seemingly permanent depression...I didn't answer to the offer yet but judging by what I just wrote, it seems like a huge no... and yeah, my name isn't Hector, it's Tommy, but I named this alter-ego Hector....for whatever reason... )
"Killing Me"
There was a time when you confided in me,
And through the struggle, I decided to be
Someone who you would know you could trust,
Someone who would treat you fair and just.
And every night, as I lay down to bed,
I think of you and pray to God in my head
That He would take care of you, keep you secure,
Make you strong and make you pure.
It's killing me when you run away,
Killing me with all you don't say.
Every word that's unheard,
Killing me, as you preferred.
It's killing me every night and day,
Killing me when you refuse to stay.
Every word you pervert,
Killing me, making me hurt.
In my hour of need, I had no one to hold;
Left on me own, watching events unfold.
In my misery, I found no voice of comfort,
Only abandonment that made me feel like dirt.
And every night, still I pray for you,
Pray to God that he'd pull you through.
I pray for someone who was there in my need,
But who now sits back and watches me bleed.
It's killing me when you run away,
Killing me with all you don't say.
Every word that's unheard,
Killing me, as you preferred.
It's killing me every night and day,
Killing me when you refuse to stay.
Every word you pervert,
Killing me, making me hurt.
You want everything to bend to your whim,
But you fail to see the imperfections within.
I call out, but you don't answer my call.
I reach out, but still you prefer to fall.
They say a friend in need is a friend indeed,
But you shut your ears whenever I plead.
How quickly you have forgotten my love for you;
Perhaps I pray to God so that you don't have to.
It's killing me when you run away,
Killing me with all you don't say.
Every word that's unheard,
Killing me, as you preferred.
It's killing me every night and day,
Killing me when you refuse to stay.
Every word you pervert,
Killing me, making me hurt.
There was a time when you confided in me,
And through the struggle, I decided to be
Someone who you would know you could trust,
Someone who would treat you fair and just.
And every night, as I lay down to bed,
I think of you and pray to God in my head
That He would take care of you, keep you secure,
Make you strong and make you pure.
It's killing me when you run away,
Killing me with all you don't say.
Every word that's unheard,
Killing me, as you preferred.
It's killing me every night and day,
Killing me when you refuse to stay.
Every word you pervert,
Killing me, making me hurt.
In my hour of need, I had no one to hold;
Left on me own, watching events unfold.
In my misery, I found no voice of comfort,
Only abandonment that made me feel like dirt.
And every night, still I pray for you,
Pray to God that he'd pull you through.
I pray for someone who was there in my need,
But who now sits back and watches me bleed.
It's killing me when you run away,
Killing me with all you don't say.
Every word that's unheard,
Killing me, as you preferred.
It's killing me every night and day,
Killing me when you refuse to stay.
Every word you pervert,
Killing me, making me hurt.
You want everything to bend to your whim,
But you fail to see the imperfections within.
I call out, but you don't answer my call.
I reach out, but still you prefer to fall.
They say a friend in need is a friend indeed,
But you shut your ears whenever I plead.
How quickly you have forgotten my love for you;
Perhaps I pray to God so that you don't have to.
It's killing me when you run away,
Killing me with all you don't say.
Every word that's unheard,
Killing me, as you preferred.
It's killing me every night and day,
Killing me when you refuse to stay.
Every word you pervert,
Killing me, making me hurt.
"Falling Back"
My black box of treasure things,
Memories and pain they bring.
Faded photographs with broken toys,
Offering grief with hidden joys.
What do you remember? (Wake up to me)
Could I ever defend her? (Break enough to bleed)
Was it my only choice? (Knowledge of the heart)
Still I hear your voice... (Falling clean apart)
Every word you said
I can't get outta my head,
And now it feels like I'm
Faling, falling.
I wanted you for dead,
Now I love you instead,
Still it feels like I'm
Falling, falling.
My cold case of manic depression
With anger in eternal regression.
The taste of your lipstick still in my mind,
And the remembrance of what I hoped to find.
What do you recall? (Dream a dream with me)
Catch me in my fall. (Bring in life and deed)
Would you throw it away? (Years we've walked the mile)
What was it that drove you away? (Tears amidst my smile)
Every word you said
I can't get outta my head,
And now it feels like I'm
Faling, falling.
I wanted you for dead,
Now I love you instead,
Still it feels like I'm
Falling, falling.
My black box of treasure things,
Memories and pain they bring.
Faded photographs with broken toys,
Offering grief with hidden joys.
What do you remember? (Wake up to me)
Could I ever defend her? (Break enough to bleed)
Was it my only choice? (Knowledge of the heart)
Still I hear your voice... (Falling clean apart)
Every word you said
I can't get outta my head,
And now it feels like I'm
Faling, falling.
I wanted you for dead,
Now I love you instead,
Still it feels like I'm
Falling, falling.
My cold case of manic depression
With anger in eternal regression.
The taste of your lipstick still in my mind,
And the remembrance of what I hoped to find.
What do you recall? (Dream a dream with me)
Catch me in my fall. (Bring in life and deed)
Would you throw it away? (Years we've walked the mile)
What was it that drove you away? (Tears amidst my smile)
Every word you said
I can't get outta my head,
And now it feels like I'm
Faling, falling.
I wanted you for dead,
Now I love you instead,
Still it feels like I'm
Falling, falling.
"All You Need"
Baby, just a dream that we let ourselves believe.
Maybe it was for the best that you had to leave.
I don't like living out all these lies,
Watching you hurt and watching you cry;
Maybe that's why I wanted to be better for you;
Baby, I'm at a loss 'cause I don't know what to do.
I'm what you dream of when you go to sleep;
I'm what you scream of in the hidden deep;
I'm what you breathe of with all you keep;
I'm what you need of as you fall and weep.
Taken from my sanctuary of blessed relief;
Break in and rob me of all but my grief.
Never knew that this was really you,
Cruel intentions covered in a scarlet hue;
Maybe that's what people call self-deception;
Baby, I'm too far lost to hope for redemption.
I'm what you dream of when you go to sleep;
I'm what you scream of in the hidden deep;
I'm what you breathe of with all you keep;
I'm what you need of as you fall and weep.
Manic, barracading myself against the door,
Panic, blocking out all those hypocritical whores.
So this is your true face without the make-up;
Only saw what I wanted, but that was more than enough.
Maybe that's why I'm the one who has to suffer;
Baby, all I wanted to say was that "I love her."
I'm what you dream of when you go to sleep;
I'm what you scream of in the hidden deep;
I'm what you breathe of with all you keep;
I'm what you need of as you fall and weep.
Baby, just a dream that we let ourselves believe.
Maybe it was for the best that you had to leave.
I don't like living out all these lies,
Watching you hurt and watching you cry;
Maybe that's why I wanted to be better for you;
Baby, I'm at a loss 'cause I don't know what to do.
I'm what you dream of when you go to sleep;
I'm what you scream of in the hidden deep;
I'm what you breathe of with all you keep;
I'm what you need of as you fall and weep.
Taken from my sanctuary of blessed relief;
Break in and rob me of all but my grief.
Never knew that this was really you,
Cruel intentions covered in a scarlet hue;
Maybe that's what people call self-deception;
Baby, I'm too far lost to hope for redemption.
I'm what you dream of when you go to sleep;
I'm what you scream of in the hidden deep;
I'm what you breathe of with all you keep;
I'm what you need of as you fall and weep.
Manic, barracading myself against the door,
Panic, blocking out all those hypocritical whores.
So this is your true face without the make-up;
Only saw what I wanted, but that was more than enough.
Maybe that's why I'm the one who has to suffer;
Baby, all I wanted to say was that "I love her."
I'm what you dream of when you go to sleep;
I'm what you scream of in the hidden deep;
I'm what you breathe of with all you keep;
I'm what you need of as you fall and weep.
"Discarded Dynamic"
I'm not afraid of tomorrow.
I still dream of you when I'm alone.
Scream for me and ease my sorrow,
And reach your hand into the unknown.
(You never dreamed, you never knew,
I could never scream at you.
I want to breathe, I want to feel,
I want to leave this world surreal.)
Bring me past my inner carnage;
I'm so damn scared of what I'd do.
Cross the void over the far bridge,
And burn inside with love for you.
(You never could, you never dreamed,
I knew that I should if you could scream.
Eat my way past the pain, make it go away;
You drive me insane with all you don't say.)
Fear me or love me for who I am;
I never pretended to be a better man.
It's so complicated, so hypocritical,
And I'm so paranoid, too analytical.
(I'm not gonna run away, gonna stand strong!
Say what you want to say, and prove me wrong!
Don't you fuckin' run away; say it wasn't true!
I'll stay with you today, and I swear I love you!)
What could I do, such pain from your lies!
I want to tear my flesh off from the inside!
Touch my face and feel it crawl,
And know the one who died for all!
(I want to be, why can't you see,
There's too much fear in me!
Guard your heart and never love;
Either fall asleep or rise above!)
I can't take it! I can't goddamn take it!
I want to hold you, but I'm so forsaken!
I'll pull through your humiliation,
And I'll give you my own salvation!
(I'm so scared! I want to see tomorrow!
The memories shared I feel in the morrow!
Open up to me! I'll heal your inner anguish!
Believe in me! I won't let you languish!)
Be with me! Breathe with me!
Fuckin' open up your heart to me!
Why aren't you breathing? Stay with me!
Damn it! Why are you leaving? Breathe!
Kill me! I'll take your place! Return to me!
You promised me; how you yearned for me!
My mind is so on fire! You're still bleeding!
Why? You told me that you would need me!
Die again! Will it ever end? I'll take you there
I'll make it end! Kiss me and take my air!
Scream for me! Let me hear you speak!
I'm too afraid; I'm too goddamn weak!
Why did you leave me? Give me an answer!
I'm tired of running! I'm still feeding this cancer!
Eat me! Beat me! Everything to defeat me!
This fuckin' nightmare is still repeating!
Breathe! Damn it, breathe! Breathe!
Tell me one last time why you had to leave!
... and then in silence, I find my peace,
And only you could give me that release.
Love and lost; accept the loss, the cost,
And remember a love too damn star-crossed..
(My Juliet, I'll find you on the other side,
And I bet I'll feel you on the inside!
I'd face hell just to see your forgotten face,
Forever dwell upon that remembered embrace...)
You're my grand dream and greatest endeavor...
Love me, hate me, but I'll be there forever...
I'm not afraid of tomorrow.
I still dream of you when I'm alone.
Scream for me and ease my sorrow,
And reach your hand into the unknown.
(You never dreamed, you never knew,
I could never scream at you.
I want to breathe, I want to feel,
I want to leave this world surreal.)
Bring me past my inner carnage;
I'm so damn scared of what I'd do.
Cross the void over the far bridge,
And burn inside with love for you.
(You never could, you never dreamed,
I knew that I should if you could scream.
Eat my way past the pain, make it go away;
You drive me insane with all you don't say.)
Fear me or love me for who I am;
I never pretended to be a better man.
It's so complicated, so hypocritical,
And I'm so paranoid, too analytical.
(I'm not gonna run away, gonna stand strong!
Say what you want to say, and prove me wrong!
Don't you fuckin' run away; say it wasn't true!
I'll stay with you today, and I swear I love you!)
What could I do, such pain from your lies!
I want to tear my flesh off from the inside!
Touch my face and feel it crawl,
And know the one who died for all!
(I want to be, why can't you see,
There's too much fear in me!
Guard your heart and never love;
Either fall asleep or rise above!)
I can't take it! I can't goddamn take it!
I want to hold you, but I'm so forsaken!
I'll pull through your humiliation,
And I'll give you my own salvation!
(I'm so scared! I want to see tomorrow!
The memories shared I feel in the morrow!
Open up to me! I'll heal your inner anguish!
Believe in me! I won't let you languish!)
Be with me! Breathe with me!
Fuckin' open up your heart to me!
Why aren't you breathing? Stay with me!
Damn it! Why are you leaving? Breathe!
Kill me! I'll take your place! Return to me!
You promised me; how you yearned for me!
My mind is so on fire! You're still bleeding!
Why? You told me that you would need me!
Die again! Will it ever end? I'll take you there
I'll make it end! Kiss me and take my air!
Scream for me! Let me hear you speak!
I'm too afraid; I'm too goddamn weak!
Why did you leave me? Give me an answer!
I'm tired of running! I'm still feeding this cancer!
Eat me! Beat me! Everything to defeat me!
This fuckin' nightmare is still repeating!
Breathe! Damn it, breathe! Breathe!
Tell me one last time why you had to leave!
... and then in silence, I find my peace,
And only you could give me that release.
Love and lost; accept the loss, the cost,
And remember a love too damn star-crossed..
(My Juliet, I'll find you on the other side,
And I bet I'll feel you on the inside!
I'd face hell just to see your forgotten face,
Forever dwell upon that remembered embrace...)
You're my grand dream and greatest endeavor...
Love me, hate me, but I'll be there forever...
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"Consequence" by Strapping Young Lad
Human Mind, Human Soul...
Human Weakness
I love you... I love you...
Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!
No... no one
No pride at all
I see devastation and I'm ready to BURN!
My skin is infected
Quiet now, Quiet now... Quiet Human
I love you... I love you...
Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!
No... no one
No pride at all
You Fail
I am Temptation... your Saviour
Now your Soul dies...
You won't survive
Nothing will ever survive...
Filling the void with nothingness
All rise... Satan steals you away
Hate Springs eternal
I see devastation and I'm ready to BURN!
My skin is infected
And I never...
Never...
There's no release
Human Mind, Human Soul...
Human Weakness
I love you... I love you...
Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!
No... no one
No pride at all
I see devastation and I'm ready to BURN!
My skin is infected
Quiet now, Quiet now... Quiet Human
I love you... I love you...
Fight! Fight! Fight! Fight!
No... no one
No pride at all
You Fail
I am Temptation... your Saviour
Now your Soul dies...
You won't survive
Nothing will ever survive...
Filling the void with nothingness
All rise... Satan steals you away
Hate Springs eternal
I see devastation and I'm ready to BURN!
My skin is infected
And I never...
Never...
There's no release
"Driven Away"
In deep abyss,
I face the inner plight.
One tepid kiss
And I'm lost in the light.
I feel your hate;
You run away again.
My big mistake,
Staying here in the end.
Goodbye Cassie,
Goodbye Kaci,
Maybe I'll see you before I die.
Goodbye Father,
Goodbye Trish,
Maybe I'll find strength to get by.
Goodbye Matthew,
Goodbye Josh,
You guys gave me eyes to see.
Goodbye Alan,
Goodbye... Rachel...
Still I feel your arms around me...
Brought up like this,
Believing I mattered;
That one sweet kiss,
I was far from flattered.
Everyone's gone;
Now I face the dark flood.
Did I go wrong?
I feel her in my blood.
Goodbye Mother,
Goodbye Brother,
My anchor in the sea of sadness.
Goodbye Teacher,
Goodbye Sarah,
Who pulled me from my descened to madness.
Goodbye Kevin,
Goodbye Hannah,
Your kindness that set me free.
Goodbye Jenni,
Goodbye... Rachel...
Still I feel your arms around me...
I want to breathe,
I want to prove them wrong!
I'll never leave,
'Cause I know I belong!
You ran away,
Leaving me to my fate!
I'll have my say;
Dear Rachel, just you wait!
Azrael, Shinigami,
Samael, Hades,
Thanatos, Yan Luo,
Mot, Morrigan,
Ankou, Anubis...
What are you waiting for?
We've danced this dance before.
You tried to claim my soul,
But still I find myself whole.
You robbed me of all I held dear,
And now I'm the only one you fear.
So, fear me, and run away,
And leave me to cry another day.
Like everyone else, leave me be,
Because my angel is watching over me.
In deep abyss,
I face the inner plight.
One tepid kiss
And I'm lost in the light.
I feel your hate;
You run away again.
My big mistake,
Staying here in the end.
Goodbye Cassie,
Goodbye Kaci,
Maybe I'll see you before I die.
Goodbye Father,
Goodbye Trish,
Maybe I'll find strength to get by.
Goodbye Matthew,
Goodbye Josh,
You guys gave me eyes to see.
Goodbye Alan,
Goodbye... Rachel...
Still I feel your arms around me...
Brought up like this,
Believing I mattered;
That one sweet kiss,
I was far from flattered.
Everyone's gone;
Now I face the dark flood.
Did I go wrong?
I feel her in my blood.
Goodbye Mother,
Goodbye Brother,
My anchor in the sea of sadness.
Goodbye Teacher,
Goodbye Sarah,
Who pulled me from my descened to madness.
Goodbye Kevin,
Goodbye Hannah,
Your kindness that set me free.
Goodbye Jenni,
Goodbye... Rachel...
Still I feel your arms around me...
I want to breathe,
I want to prove them wrong!
I'll never leave,
'Cause I know I belong!
You ran away,
Leaving me to my fate!
I'll have my say;
Dear Rachel, just you wait!
Azrael, Shinigami,
Samael, Hades,
Thanatos, Yan Luo,
Mot, Morrigan,
Ankou, Anubis...
What are you waiting for?
We've danced this dance before.
You tried to claim my soul,
But still I find myself whole.
You robbed me of all I held dear,
And now I'm the only one you fear.
So, fear me, and run away,
And leave me to cry another day.
Like everyone else, leave me be,
Because my angel is watching over me.
Got three comin' up...
"Double D Demoness"
What kinda world are we in now?
There she goes, shakin' her butt,
In that short-short mini-skirt,
Lickin' her lips in front of us.
In a too-tight tank top,
Ruby red lips with enchanting gloss,
And waves of scarlet hair
Flowin' with each hair toss.
No way is she from our world;
She's a demon sent to cause us to sin.
We all want her, to touch her,
Unaware of the burn she cause in the end.
Now she's up on top of the tables,
Gyratin' her hips, making the guys pant,
Relishing every moment in sadistic bliss,
Enjoying the sins they'll never recant.
I find myself too close for my own good,
Staring when I should be looking away.
But every thrust and bounce draws me back,
And I feel myself losing myself again today.
She sees my face, sees my struggle,
So she kicks it up another notch,
Doing a little striptease right there,
Rubbin' her breasts and grabbin' her crotch.
Everyone else is too damn drunk;
They scream and rave for her to take it off,
Want her so bad without a thought of reason.
About this time, I wake up, and I've had enough.
I see the lust in their eyes, and I know,
I'm the same as them, and I never wanted to be.
That demoness can do all she can,
But the sucubbus will not corrupt me.
I see her face change, growing disappointed.
She never faced rejection like this before.
I turn to leave and head for the exit,
Hearing footsteps following me to the door.
As I turn to leave, the devil grabs my arm.
"Stay a bit longer," she says, so sultry and smooth.
"I'm not through yet. I know you want me.
I'll give it to you." I'm faced again. To win or lose...
Just run away. Just flee from her trance.
I break away, darting out the door to my car;
I can hear her screaming after me still to stay,
But the things I remember push me still, keep me afar.
She was the new ideal. Sexy long legs,
Voracious eyes, succulant lips,
Smooth butt, perfect round breasts
That swayed along with her hips....
And that's not what I'm looking for.
I don't want a Double D Demoness;
I want someone to wake up to
Who will suffer with me more or less.
Beauty of the soul, so hard to find now.
Where could I find her? What is her direction?
Where is she hiding from me now?
When I find her, I want to ask her just one question:
Why were you so different from her?
She was everything they clamored for.
I know exactly what she'll say;
She'll smile and state, "I wanted to give you more."
"Double D Demoness"
What kinda world are we in now?
There she goes, shakin' her butt,
In that short-short mini-skirt,
Lickin' her lips in front of us.
In a too-tight tank top,
Ruby red lips with enchanting gloss,
And waves of scarlet hair
Flowin' with each hair toss.
No way is she from our world;
She's a demon sent to cause us to sin.
We all want her, to touch her,
Unaware of the burn she cause in the end.
Now she's up on top of the tables,
Gyratin' her hips, making the guys pant,
Relishing every moment in sadistic bliss,
Enjoying the sins they'll never recant.
I find myself too close for my own good,
Staring when I should be looking away.
But every thrust and bounce draws me back,
And I feel myself losing myself again today.
She sees my face, sees my struggle,
So she kicks it up another notch,
Doing a little striptease right there,
Rubbin' her breasts and grabbin' her crotch.
Everyone else is too damn drunk;
They scream and rave for her to take it off,
Want her so bad without a thought of reason.
About this time, I wake up, and I've had enough.
I see the lust in their eyes, and I know,
I'm the same as them, and I never wanted to be.
That demoness can do all she can,
But the sucubbus will not corrupt me.
I see her face change, growing disappointed.
She never faced rejection like this before.
I turn to leave and head for the exit,
Hearing footsteps following me to the door.
As I turn to leave, the devil grabs my arm.
"Stay a bit longer," she says, so sultry and smooth.
"I'm not through yet. I know you want me.
I'll give it to you." I'm faced again. To win or lose...
Just run away. Just flee from her trance.
I break away, darting out the door to my car;
I can hear her screaming after me still to stay,
But the things I remember push me still, keep me afar.
She was the new ideal. Sexy long legs,
Voracious eyes, succulant lips,
Smooth butt, perfect round breasts
That swayed along with her hips....
And that's not what I'm looking for.
I don't want a Double D Demoness;
I want someone to wake up to
Who will suffer with me more or less.
Beauty of the soul, so hard to find now.
Where could I find her? What is her direction?
Where is she hiding from me now?
When I find her, I want to ask her just one question:
Why were you so different from her?
She was everything they clamored for.
I know exactly what she'll say;
She'll smile and state, "I wanted to give you more."
"Wait For Me"
We both agreed it would be best to wait.
I loved her too much to make a mistake.
It was so hard to stay so far apart,
And I felt the void deep in my heart.
I suffered so that she could understand
That this was how I proved myself a man;
But she grew weak, and she gave in,
And submitted to a dark and deadly sin.
And I said, "I will wait for you, pray for you,
Give my everything for you."
She said, "I will break for you, stay with you,
But cannot stand to be with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
And I said, "I will cry for you, die for you,
Take everything inside for you."
She said, "I will try for you, fly for you,
But I can never lie with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
The images are still burned in my mind;
A betrayal I still seem so hard to find.
And she told me she didn't mean to do the task;
That her bed was mine, I need only ask.
And I stumbled out, in a stupor of despair,
While she cried after me that she still cared.
So this was the extent of what she called love;
I learned only that she didn't love me quite enough...
And I said, "I will wait for you, pray for you,
Give my everything for you."
She said, "I will break for you, stay with you,
But cannot stand to be with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
And I said, "I will cry for you, die for you,
Take everything inside for you."
She said, "I will try for you, fly for you,
But I can never lie with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
We both agreed it would be best to wait.
I loved her too much to make a mistake.
It was so hard to stay so far apart,
And I felt the void deep in my heart.
I suffered so that she could understand
That this was how I proved myself a man;
But she grew weak, and she gave in,
And submitted to a dark and deadly sin.
And I said, "I will wait for you, pray for you,
Give my everything for you."
She said, "I will break for you, stay with you,
But cannot stand to be with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
And I said, "I will cry for you, die for you,
Take everything inside for you."
She said, "I will try for you, fly for you,
But I can never lie with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
The images are still burned in my mind;
A betrayal I still seem so hard to find.
And she told me she didn't mean to do the task;
That her bed was mine, I need only ask.
And I stumbled out, in a stupor of despair,
While she cried after me that she still cared.
So this was the extent of what she called love;
I learned only that she didn't love me quite enough...
And I said, "I will wait for you, pray for you,
Give my everything for you."
She said, "I will break for you, stay with you,
But cannot stand to be with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
And I said, "I will cry for you, die for you,
Take everything inside for you."
She said, "I will try for you, fly for you,
But I can never lie with you."
It's just another excuse for letting loose;
Love gone in favor of what you choose.
"Ranger of My Heart"
In childish delight, I took up the fight,
And fought for one so pure of white light.
Face the dark and persevere, stay sincere,
And know just how much I hold you dear.
You gave me power, my pink flower,
With memories to waste away the hours.
I wish I was your white knight, make it right,
And save you from evil with my love's might.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
Like a dragon, I arrived, somehow survived;
Oh, how you strived to keep my soul alive.
You set off my alarms; I tried to keep you from harm,
So I fought off all evil to live to hold you in my arms.
When I was weak or strong, right or wrong,
You loved me and made me feel like I belonged.
You were my cat's cry, my wings that helped me fly,
And in the end, you were the love that passed me by.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
I won't make another mistake, had all I can take;
Let the universe come at me; I refuse to break.
They come at what I defend, everything within,
But I refuse to lose you from my life again.
Kiss me, Kat. Hold me, Kim. Follow my jaded whims.
Cassie, care for me. Kendrix, don't let the light grow dim.
Jen, save my soul. Dana, step up and take control.
Let Vida have her time, while Sydney makes me whole.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
Through all space or time, you were mine,
No matter your face or name, you were still so kind.
I could never be the man you wanted of me,
Still too green to be like you, so pure and free.
Maybe you still care, maybe you wish I was there,
Still smiling at me through the masks that we wear.
I just know what I miss; you're my dearest wish.
You were the temper to my tiger, sweetest Trish.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
In childish delight, I took up the fight,
And fought for one so pure of white light.
Face the dark and persevere, stay sincere,
And know just how much I hold you dear.
You gave me power, my pink flower,
With memories to waste away the hours.
I wish I was your white knight, make it right,
And save you from evil with my love's might.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
Like a dragon, I arrived, somehow survived;
Oh, how you strived to keep my soul alive.
You set off my alarms; I tried to keep you from harm,
So I fought off all evil to live to hold you in my arms.
When I was weak or strong, right or wrong,
You loved me and made me feel like I belonged.
You were my cat's cry, my wings that helped me fly,
And in the end, you were the love that passed me by.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
I won't make another mistake, had all I can take;
Let the universe come at me; I refuse to break.
They come at what I defend, everything within,
But I refuse to lose you from my life again.
Kiss me, Kat. Hold me, Kim. Follow my jaded whims.
Cassie, care for me. Kendrix, don't let the light grow dim.
Jen, save my soul. Dana, step up and take control.
Let Vida have her time, while Sydney makes me whole.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
Through all space or time, you were mine,
No matter your face or name, you were still so kind.
I could never be the man you wanted of me,
Still too green to be like you, so pure and free.
Maybe you still care, maybe you wish I was there,
Still smiling at me through the masks that we wear.
I just know what I miss; you're my dearest wish.
You were the temper to my tiger, sweetest Trish.
If I could, then I would,
Do what I should, and do it all for good.
Pull you from the brink, won't let you sink;
You're just so pretty in pink.
I would bleed, take the lead,
Be all you need; ride off on my white steed.
We're so apart that it hurts and smarts,
So let's restart, ranger of my heart.
"Book of Lost Memories"
I woke up today,
But I wasn't where I remembered.
It's snowing outside,
And it feels like mid-December.
I'm underdressed,
Roaming barren streets of fog and ice.
Not a soul stirs
And my thin T-shirt will not suffice.
I call aloud;
Only my echo travels the streets.
I try to be calm,
But inside my frightened heart beats.
Where are you,
Who are you?
Why do you seeks such forgotten rest?
Breathe for me,
Kill for me;
The fear of blood creates fear for the flesh.
Rotten houses,
And dead cars line my endless trail.
Faint traces of blood
Lead me down a path to my hell.
The children laugh,
The leather flap of wings from behind.
The nurses twitch,
While I begin to lose my weak mind.
The darkness comes,
Alarm bells ringing in my head.
Pyramids of hate
Drag the corpses of those long dead.
Where are you,
Who are you?
Why do you seeks such forgotten rest?
Breathe for me,
Kill for me;
The fear of blood creates fear for the flesh.
Just one daughter,
But she has two mothers, two fathers.
Her weak, pale child,
She could birth god but didn't bother.
I know my place,
And this world of pain and discontent
Severs my soul
As I stagger but never relent.
Speak thy name,
Or endure the silence you'd kill.
Face your fears,
Or take a walk with me through Silent Hill...
Where are you,
Who are you?
Why do you seeks such forgotten rest?
Breathe for me,
Kill for me;
The fear of blood creates fear for the flesh.
I woke up today,
But I wasn't where I remembered.
It's snowing outside,
And it feels like mid-December.
I'm underdressed,
Roaming barren streets of fog and ice.
Not a soul stirs
And my thin T-shirt will not suffice.
I call aloud;
Only my echo travels the streets.
I try to be calm,
But inside my frightened heart beats.
Where are you,
Who are you?
Why do you seeks such forgotten rest?
Breathe for me,
Kill for me;
The fear of blood creates fear for the flesh.
Rotten houses,
And dead cars line my endless trail.
Faint traces of blood
Lead me down a path to my hell.
The children laugh,
The leather flap of wings from behind.
The nurses twitch,
While I begin to lose my weak mind.
The darkness comes,
Alarm bells ringing in my head.
Pyramids of hate
Drag the corpses of those long dead.
Where are you,
Who are you?
Why do you seeks such forgotten rest?
Breathe for me,
Kill for me;
The fear of blood creates fear for the flesh.
Just one daughter,
But she has two mothers, two fathers.
Her weak, pale child,
She could birth god but didn't bother.
I know my place,
And this world of pain and discontent
Severs my soul
As I stagger but never relent.
Speak thy name,
Or endure the silence you'd kill.
Face your fears,
Or take a walk with me through Silent Hill...
Where are you,
Who are you?
Why do you seeks such forgotten rest?
Breathe for me,
Kill for me;
The fear of blood creates fear for the flesh.
"Your Legacy"
In the quiet stillness
I hear your voice in my ears.
My only desire
Was to chase away your fears.
I stand in the warm rain,
Washing away lonely past;
Smile for me, dear one,
And help this feeling to last.
And I cry out,
Leaving behind this shell,
And living for today,
Past my inner hell.
I stand out,
And show you who I am,
And prove my worth so
That you could understand.
All that I've left behind
For a chance to start anew
I thought was for naught
Because I could not forget you.
You were my darkest light,
My greatest surrender,
And still I dream of you;
You're all that I remember.
And I cry out,
Leaving behind this shell,
And living for today,
Past my inner hell.
I stand out,
And show you who I am,
And prove my worth so
That you could understand.
My wounds will never heal;
Scars I'll carry all my life.
I thought I was so strong,
But my weakness lied in strife.
And then you came to me,
Gently washing my pain away,
Giving me a reason
To live my life for today.
And I cry out,
Leaving behind this shell,
And living for today,
Past my inner hell.
I stand out,
And show you who I am,
And prove my worth so
That you could understand.
In the quiet stillness
I hear your voice in my ears.
My only desire
Was to chase away your fears.
I stand in the warm rain,
Washing away lonely past;
Smile for me, dear one,
And help this feeling to last.
And I cry out,
Leaving behind this shell,
And living for today,
Past my inner hell.
I stand out,
And show you who I am,
And prove my worth so
That you could understand.
All that I've left behind
For a chance to start anew
I thought was for naught
Because I could not forget you.
You were my darkest light,
My greatest surrender,
And still I dream of you;
You're all that I remember.
And I cry out,
Leaving behind this shell,
And living for today,
Past my inner hell.
I stand out,
And show you who I am,
And prove my worth so
That you could understand.
My wounds will never heal;
Scars I'll carry all my life.
I thought I was so strong,
But my weakness lied in strife.
And then you came to me,
Gently washing my pain away,
Giving me a reason
To live my life for today.
And I cry out,
Leaving behind this shell,
And living for today,
Past my inner hell.
I stand out,
And show you who I am,
And prove my worth so
That you could understand.
"Selenight"
Now, the whispering wind vanishes;
Slowly fold your hands to pray.
I think that's why my heart hurts;
What am I supposesd to say?
Deep in the night
A blue sky
I was taught everything by
Staring at you...
To meet you again, I'll walk on
Towards your open arms, imploring;
I now know that I had to be born
So that we could have this sad story.
Now, you touch everything;
It's such a loving feeling, yet you weep;
Everyday is a sad day for you;
Unconsciously you fall into a regrettable sleep.
What do you see?
Who's there?
We were both once children;
Embrace that memory to my care.
For my sake, let's meet again;
Now, can you understand and see,
Nothing is impossible
When you gently smile inside of me.
Please say 'forever';
I want to believe in those words;
That was my first wish
Only with you; I want to be heard.
It's just fine with me
I'm not scared when I see me
Reflected in your eyes,
A person I have yet to be...
See you soon....
Now, the whispering wind vanishes;
Slowly fold your hands to pray.
I think that's why my heart hurts;
What am I supposesd to say?
Deep in the night
A blue sky
I was taught everything by
Staring at you...
To meet you again, I'll walk on
Towards your open arms, imploring;
I now know that I had to be born
So that we could have this sad story.
Now, you touch everything;
It's such a loving feeling, yet you weep;
Everyday is a sad day for you;
Unconsciously you fall into a regrettable sleep.
What do you see?
Who's there?
We were both once children;
Embrace that memory to my care.
For my sake, let's meet again;
Now, can you understand and see,
Nothing is impossible
When you gently smile inside of me.
Please say 'forever';
I want to believe in those words;
That was my first wish
Only with you; I want to be heard.
It's just fine with me
I'm not scared when I see me
Reflected in your eyes,
A person I have yet to be...
See you soon....
"Recession of a Dream"
I'm so tired of wishing for something better,
Like living each day isn't hard enough.
I try to stand up to the swarm of reality
But I buckle and show I'm not so tough.
I hate everyone and everything hates me,
And I fall endlessly in a pool of misery.
I tried to love past the pain, mistakenly
Believing there was hope inside me.
And I bleed out
From every pour.
And I cry out,
And scream for more.
I would die
So that you could live.
My own life is
All I can give...
I want to run away from this world,
And to find something to ease the pain.
All the rage reflected in the eyes of a girl
Who knew for me nothing but disdain.
I want to wash away all this false security,
And to hold something real in my arms.
Promises beguiling a false sense of maturity,
While I bleed a flow to take away her harm.
And I bleed out
From every pour.
And I cry out,
And scream for more.
I would die
So that you could live.
My own life is
All I can give...
Channeled up in a box of emotion,
Caution thrown to the wind in due haste.
I feel in me the strangest notion,
And long for what I remembered was sweet to taste.
She came, she left, a ghost of my past,
Fueling feelings in me, of love and rage;
And I cry myself to sleep at long last,
With endless dreams of her to last the age.
And I bleed out
From every pour.
And I cry out,
And scream for more.
I would die
So that you could live.
My own life is
All I can give...
I'm so tired of wishing for something better,
Like living each day isn't hard enough.
I try to stand up to the swarm of reality
But I buckle and show I'm not so tough.
I hate everyone and everything hates me,
And I fall endlessly in a pool of misery.
I tried to love past the pain, mistakenly
Believing there was hope inside me.
And I bleed out
From every pour.
And I cry out,
And scream for more.
I would die
So that you could live.
My own life is
All I can give...
I want to run away from this world,
And to find something to ease the pain.
All the rage reflected in the eyes of a girl
Who knew for me nothing but disdain.
I want to wash away all this false security,
And to hold something real in my arms.
Promises beguiling a false sense of maturity,
While I bleed a flow to take away her harm.
And I bleed out
From every pour.
And I cry out,
And scream for more.
I would die
So that you could live.
My own life is
All I can give...
Channeled up in a box of emotion,
Caution thrown to the wind in due haste.
I feel in me the strangest notion,
And long for what I remembered was sweet to taste.
She came, she left, a ghost of my past,
Fueling feelings in me, of love and rage;
And I cry myself to sleep at long last,
With endless dreams of her to last the age.
And I bleed out
From every pour.
And I cry out,
And scream for more.
I would die
So that you could live.
My own life is
All I can give...
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Don't Cry
So tell me, the man that I adore,
Why do you keep in chains,
Have you never experienced a love like mine, before,
That you feel you have to keep me "safe",
Yet here I am falling to my knees,
Begging you please,
To let me go,
Just let me be who I am meant to be,
With all the pain that we've gone through,
I feel like there's no more me,
And there's no more you,
How can I bring a daughter into this world,
When you still don't accept that a girl,
Can do the things that a man can do,
And, even do them better,
It just doesn't seem fair,
So you might as well just forget her,
Her bright blue eyes and golden hair,
The daughter that you'll never have,
And isn't it sad,
That you won't even miss me,
There's no more me,
And there's no more you,
It must be so intriguing for you to break my heart,
Because you do it everyday,
Every time you say my name,
It breaks a little more,
So I guess I'll just drink my pain away today,
Just like I drank it away the day before,
More, more, more!
I said there's no more me,
There's no more you,
So who the fuck am I to care about your ill feelings,
When I am here standing in the wings,
Just waiting for a balloon to float me to that fairytale land,
Where I can be me,
And you'll be a man,
Just look at us now,
After all we've been through,
There's nothing left of me,
And there's nothing left of you,
So don't cry,
Don't cry,
Just fly,
Just fly away like a butterfly now,
Don't cry,
Don't cry,
Just fly.
So tell me, the man that I adore,
Why do you keep in chains,
Have you never experienced a love like mine, before,
That you feel you have to keep me "safe",
Yet here I am falling to my knees,
Begging you please,
To let me go,
Just let me be who I am meant to be,
With all the pain that we've gone through,
I feel like there's no more me,
And there's no more you,
How can I bring a daughter into this world,
When you still don't accept that a girl,
Can do the things that a man can do,
And, even do them better,
It just doesn't seem fair,
So you might as well just forget her,
Her bright blue eyes and golden hair,
The daughter that you'll never have,
And isn't it sad,
That you won't even miss me,
There's no more me,
And there's no more you,
It must be so intriguing for you to break my heart,
Because you do it everyday,
Every time you say my name,
It breaks a little more,
So I guess I'll just drink my pain away today,
Just like I drank it away the day before,
More, more, more!
I said there's no more me,
There's no more you,
So who the fuck am I to care about your ill feelings,
When I am here standing in the wings,
Just waiting for a balloon to float me to that fairytale land,
Where I can be me,
And you'll be a man,
Just look at us now,
After all we've been through,
There's nothing left of me,
And there's nothing left of you,
So don't cry,
Don't cry,
Just fly,
Just fly away like a butterfly now,
Don't cry,
Don't cry,
Just fly.
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Unfaithful Pt. 1 - Written by Pink_Ranger
I can see him sitting there with the TV on,
He seems alright, but I know he’s barely hanging on,
I put my heels on one foot at a time,
He knows that soon I’ll be gone,
“Out with the girls” is my excuse,
But we both know that it’s a lie,
Truth that we refuse,
To speak, when we say goodbye,
I’ve got my guilt, he’s got his pride,
God I don’t mean to hurt him so,
I can’t believe that I’ve sunk so low,
When I say “I love you” I swear I’m not lying,
Every day I see the pain on his face,
How I’ve fallen so far from grace,
Yet in his eyes I’m still his everything,
I can see him dying right in front of my eyes,
And it’s all because of my lies,
Every time I walk out the door,
I can see him die a little more inside,
I don’t wanna take away his life,
But I don’t wanna be his wife,
And it’s tearing me apart,
To see him with a broken heart,
I wish I had the strength to face my guilt,
To tell him what’s right,
The speak the truth that our love was built with,
But when I come home every night,
I see him there waiting up for me,
To make sure that I’m alright,
And it makes my heart bleed,
That he would still care so much,
For such a heartless succubus,
God I don’t mean to hurt him so,
I can’t believe that I’ve sunk so low,
When I say “I love you” I swear I’m not lying,
Every day I see the pain on his face,
How I’ve fallen so far from grace,
Yet in his eyes I’m still his everything,
I can see him dying right in front of my eyes,
And it’s all because of my lies,
Every time I walk out the door,
I can see him die a little more inside,
I don’t wanna take away his life,
But I don’t wanna be his wife,
And it’s tearing me apart,
To see him with a broken heart,
I’m killing him I can see it,
The first man that I’ve ever loved,
I don’t understand it,
How can I hurt the man I’ve dreamed of,
The one who’s been by my side,
Oh God please tell me why,
Am I unfaithful to the man,
That I thought I was going to be with for the rest of my life,
I can see him dying right in front of my eyes,
And it’s all because of my lies,
Every time I walk out the door,
I can see him die a little more inside,
I don’t wanna take away his life,
But I don’t wanna be his wife,
And it’s tearing me apart,
To see him with a broken heart.
==========================================================
Unfaithful Pt. 2 - Written by Garlador
I've tried so hard to be a good man,
Someone who claims he could understand;
I spent all my life dreaming of that time
When I could slip the ring onto her hand.
But things don't always go as planned,
And now I sit here, wasting away the years,
Thinking of her and drinking my beers,
And begging for that memory to return,
As only sleep washes away the tears.
Oh, how I wish I could hold her near.
She always said I didn't get it;
Every now and then she'd throw a fit,
And expect me to read her mind.
But I was too busy for her,
Too far away for her to find,
Even though I was standing next to her.
Maybe I wasn't strong enough,
Or maybe I tried to be too tough,
And I drove her away, day by day,
Until eventually she faded away,
Leaving only the scent of her perfume
To remind me of the happier times,
Before I lived in this desolate room,
Before I shared with her my hidden crimes.
I can't understand, because I'm not her;
For her, I would have roamed the earth,
And each little "I love you" echoes on,
Taking my heart and squeezing it dry,
The harsh reminder of all I did wrong.
I reach for her in the clouds and long to die,
But something in me makes me press on;
Maybe her words, or that scent that's long gone.
I just wonder, who was unfaithful and in the wrong?
She always said I didn't get it;
Every now and then she'd throw a fit,
And expect me to read her mind.
But I was too busy for her,
Too far away for her to find,
Even though I was standing next to her.
Maybe I wasn't strong enough,
Or maybe I tried to be too tough,
And I drove her away, day by day,
Until eventually she faded away,
Leaving only the scent of her perfume
To remind me of the happier times,
Before I lived in this desolate room,
Before I shared with her my hidden crimes.
You're my angel! You're my queen!
You're everything I hoped to be!
You're my blood, my very air!
I would die just to know you cared!
You're my princess, you're my hope!
How do you expect me to ever cope?
You're the life I lived at all costs,
And you're the greatest thing I ever lost...
Maybe I wasn't strong enough,
Or maybe I tried to be too tough,
And I drove her away, day by day,
Until eventually she faded away,
Leaving only the scent of her perfume
To remind me of the happier times,
Before I lived in this desolate room,
Before I shared with her my hidden crimes.
I can see him sitting there with the TV on,
He seems alright, but I know he’s barely hanging on,
I put my heels on one foot at a time,
He knows that soon I’ll be gone,
“Out with the girls” is my excuse,
But we both know that it’s a lie,
Truth that we refuse,
To speak, when we say goodbye,
I’ve got my guilt, he’s got his pride,
God I don’t mean to hurt him so,
I can’t believe that I’ve sunk so low,
When I say “I love you” I swear I’m not lying,
Every day I see the pain on his face,
How I’ve fallen so far from grace,
Yet in his eyes I’m still his everything,
I can see him dying right in front of my eyes,
And it’s all because of my lies,
Every time I walk out the door,
I can see him die a little more inside,
I don’t wanna take away his life,
But I don’t wanna be his wife,
And it’s tearing me apart,
To see him with a broken heart,
I wish I had the strength to face my guilt,
To tell him what’s right,
The speak the truth that our love was built with,
But when I come home every night,
I see him there waiting up for me,
To make sure that I’m alright,
And it makes my heart bleed,
That he would still care so much,
For such a heartless succubus,
God I don’t mean to hurt him so,
I can’t believe that I’ve sunk so low,
When I say “I love you” I swear I’m not lying,
Every day I see the pain on his face,
How I’ve fallen so far from grace,
Yet in his eyes I’m still his everything,
I can see him dying right in front of my eyes,
And it’s all because of my lies,
Every time I walk out the door,
I can see him die a little more inside,
I don’t wanna take away his life,
But I don’t wanna be his wife,
And it’s tearing me apart,
To see him with a broken heart,
I’m killing him I can see it,
The first man that I’ve ever loved,
I don’t understand it,
How can I hurt the man I’ve dreamed of,
The one who’s been by my side,
Oh God please tell me why,
Am I unfaithful to the man,
That I thought I was going to be with for the rest of my life,
I can see him dying right in front of my eyes,
And it’s all because of my lies,
Every time I walk out the door,
I can see him die a little more inside,
I don’t wanna take away his life,
But I don’t wanna be his wife,
And it’s tearing me apart,
To see him with a broken heart.
==========================================================
Unfaithful Pt. 2 - Written by Garlador
I've tried so hard to be a good man,
Someone who claims he could understand;
I spent all my life dreaming of that time
When I could slip the ring onto her hand.
But things don't always go as planned,
And now I sit here, wasting away the years,
Thinking of her and drinking my beers,
And begging for that memory to return,
As only sleep washes away the tears.
Oh, how I wish I could hold her near.
She always said I didn't get it;
Every now and then she'd throw a fit,
And expect me to read her mind.
But I was too busy for her,
Too far away for her to find,
Even though I was standing next to her.
Maybe I wasn't strong enough,
Or maybe I tried to be too tough,
And I drove her away, day by day,
Until eventually she faded away,
Leaving only the scent of her perfume
To remind me of the happier times,
Before I lived in this desolate room,
Before I shared with her my hidden crimes.
I can't understand, because I'm not her;
For her, I would have roamed the earth,
And each little "I love you" echoes on,
Taking my heart and squeezing it dry,
The harsh reminder of all I did wrong.
I reach for her in the clouds and long to die,
But something in me makes me press on;
Maybe her words, or that scent that's long gone.
I just wonder, who was unfaithful and in the wrong?
She always said I didn't get it;
Every now and then she'd throw a fit,
And expect me to read her mind.
But I was too busy for her,
Too far away for her to find,
Even though I was standing next to her.
Maybe I wasn't strong enough,
Or maybe I tried to be too tough,
And I drove her away, day by day,
Until eventually she faded away,
Leaving only the scent of her perfume
To remind me of the happier times,
Before I lived in this desolate room,
Before I shared with her my hidden crimes.
You're my angel! You're my queen!
You're everything I hoped to be!
You're my blood, my very air!
I would die just to know you cared!
You're my princess, you're my hope!
How do you expect me to ever cope?
You're the life I lived at all costs,
And you're the greatest thing I ever lost...
Maybe I wasn't strong enough,
Or maybe I tried to be too tough,
And I drove her away, day by day,
Until eventually she faded away,
Leaving only the scent of her perfume
To remind me of the happier times,
Before I lived in this desolate room,
Before I shared with her my hidden crimes.
"Ballad of the Maiden"
You used to come to me, with tells of suffering,
Visions of all the misery the future would bring;
I never really knew much about those kinda things.
You used to ask me for advice on how to live,
But I was never sure of the answers I'd give,
Or whether that last mistake you could ever forgive.
I never knew what to think of you;
You were so kind, noble, and true,
And I stuck to you like hardened glue.
But how much did I really, truly know?
If you had loved me, would you have said so?
Yet still I wonder why you decided to go.
Your words are poison to my soul,
Your heart darker than the blackest coal,
Your spirit incomplete, far from whole;
Maybe that's what I loved so much,
Acting as your guide, savior, and crutch,
And wishing, longing, for your simple touch.
People wonder what could have been,
How a love like that could end or begin;
I just know she made me feel things deep within;
Things I haven't felt since times long gone,
Back to a time when I felt like I could belong
And my ears heard a much sweeter song.
Whatever is to happen, I'll be content,
But I won't give up so easy; I won't relent,
Because she was different; she was God-sent.
No matter the time, no matter the place,
No matter your name, no matter your face,
I will live a hundred lives to feel her embrace.
I reach out, preach of joy for the lost;
And I cry, I die to complete the cost.
I fall down, crawl through the rock and dirt;
And your kiss, what I miss, that healed all the hurt.
And I see, in me the spirit to finally survive.
And you, only you, could make me feel alive.
You used to come to me, with tells of suffering,
Visions of all the misery the future would bring;
I never really knew much about those kinda things.
You used to ask me for advice on how to live,
But I was never sure of the answers I'd give,
Or whether that last mistake you could ever forgive.
I never knew what to think of you;
You were so kind, noble, and true,
And I stuck to you like hardened glue.
But how much did I really, truly know?
If you had loved me, would you have said so?
Yet still I wonder why you decided to go.
Your words are poison to my soul,
Your heart darker than the blackest coal,
Your spirit incomplete, far from whole;
Maybe that's what I loved so much,
Acting as your guide, savior, and crutch,
And wishing, longing, for your simple touch.
People wonder what could have been,
How a love like that could end or begin;
I just know she made me feel things deep within;
Things I haven't felt since times long gone,
Back to a time when I felt like I could belong
And my ears heard a much sweeter song.
Whatever is to happen, I'll be content,
But I won't give up so easy; I won't relent,
Because she was different; she was God-sent.
No matter the time, no matter the place,
No matter your name, no matter your face,
I will live a hundred lives to feel her embrace.
I reach out, preach of joy for the lost;
And I cry, I die to complete the cost.
I fall down, crawl through the rock and dirt;
And your kiss, what I miss, that healed all the hurt.
And I see, in me the spirit to finally survive.
And you, only you, could make me feel alive.
About Me
Hahahaha...?
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X
This world needs something a bit else
Maybe some happiness, perhaps
But somehow hate's needed to make peace.
Don't even ask.
Getting bored, getting fed up, getting angry, getting impatient again
I have a plan
It's never going to work.
I hope this changes
It's never going to proceed.
I have a thought
It's nothing but a pipe dream.
EVERYDAY BOREDOM
Nothing, nothing, nothing
There's zero for being occupied.
No one will talk to me, so speak with some pictures
And some indecipherable lines written off with no emotion
To death, to death, to death
What can I do to keep my mind alive?
It will surely rot in this condition
So help me God, if you won't let me talk to you....
This world needs something a bit else
Maybe some happiness, perhaps
But somehow hate's needed to make peace.
Don't even ask.
Getting bored, getting fed up, getting angry, getting impatient again
I have a plan
It's never going to work.
I hope this changes
It's never going to proceed.
I have a thought
It's nothing but a pipe dream.
EVERYDAY BOREDOM
Nothing, nothing, nothing
There's zero for being occupied.
No one will talk to me, so speak with some pictures
And some indecipherable lines written off with no emotion
To death, to death, to death
What can I do to keep my mind alive?
It will surely rot in this condition
So help me God, if you won't let me talk to you....
"Risk"
Facing you makes me face my past;
Forsaken love with the fate I've been cast.
All the times I've stumbled and tripped,
And all the times you caught me when I slipped
Makes me wonder if you could be the one
To save me and finish what I'd first begun.
Touch me and let me know;
Help me to move past my pain.
You knew how I loved you so
And yet you treated me still the same.
So, darling, please tell me straight,
Do we have the strength to survive?
Because I don't want to make another mistake,
And live my life half-alive.
There were too many times I fell,
Trapped in my own abysmal hell.
You'd think that eventually I'd learn;
If I get any closer to you, I'll burn.
But, I'll face the fire and brave the flames,
Because in my heart is carved your name.
Touch me and let me know;
Help me to move past my pain.
You knew how I loved you so
And yet you treated me still the same.
So, darling, please tell me straight,
Do we have the strength to survive?
Because I don't want to make another mistake,
And live my life half-alive.
Day for tomorrow, and life for today,
Hold me close; I beg you to stay.
Nothing is the same when you've gone away;
Every night, your name is the first that I pray.
And promise that things will turn out okay;
Despite the odds, I swear I'll find a way.
Touch me and let me know;
Help me to move past my pain.
You knew how I loved you so
And yet you treated me still the same.
So, darling, please tell me straight,
Do we have the strength to survive?
Because I don't want to make another mistake,
And live my life half-alive.
Facing you makes me face my past;
Forsaken love with the fate I've been cast.
All the times I've stumbled and tripped,
And all the times you caught me when I slipped
Makes me wonder if you could be the one
To save me and finish what I'd first begun.
Touch me and let me know;
Help me to move past my pain.
You knew how I loved you so
And yet you treated me still the same.
So, darling, please tell me straight,
Do we have the strength to survive?
Because I don't want to make another mistake,
And live my life half-alive.
There were too many times I fell,
Trapped in my own abysmal hell.
You'd think that eventually I'd learn;
If I get any closer to you, I'll burn.
But, I'll face the fire and brave the flames,
Because in my heart is carved your name.
Touch me and let me know;
Help me to move past my pain.
You knew how I loved you so
And yet you treated me still the same.
So, darling, please tell me straight,
Do we have the strength to survive?
Because I don't want to make another mistake,
And live my life half-alive.
Day for tomorrow, and life for today,
Hold me close; I beg you to stay.
Nothing is the same when you've gone away;
Every night, your name is the first that I pray.
And promise that things will turn out okay;
Despite the odds, I swear I'll find a way.
Touch me and let me know;
Help me to move past my pain.
You knew how I loved you so
And yet you treated me still the same.
So, darling, please tell me straight,
Do we have the strength to survive?
Because I don't want to make another mistake,
And live my life half-alive.
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