"Sanctuary"
It's times like these when I wish I could
Just fade away, like feel I should,
And find some place where I could be
The person I feel is really me.
It's times like these when I want to stop
And be myself, not the cream-of-the-crop;
Just let it all go, and know you still
Care for me when you see what's real.

And then I try, want to die, long to cry,
Wonder why; how could I
Ever, ever be this way again!
Soar so high, up I fly, touch the sky
Wonder why; how could I
Ever, ever feel this way again!

(Amilo che l'angelo dolce toglie il mio dolore)

It's times like these when I fall to pray
That maybe this day might go away.
A million rejections upon my back,
Reminding me of all that I lack.
It's times like these when I need you most,
When I'm jumping around from coast-to-coast,
While I look for answers and forever roam,
Searching for some place to call my home.

And then I try, want to die, long to cry,
Wonder why; how could I
Ever, ever be this way again!
Soar so high, up I fly, touch the sky
Wonder why; how could I
Ever, ever feel this way again!

(Amilo che l'angelo dolce toglie il mio dolore)

Now it's all gone, gone far from here,
Gone with all the years and tears,
And memories long lost now appear
Deep in my heart, my angel dear.

And then I try, want to die, long to cry,
Wonder why; how could I
Ever, ever be this way again!
Soar so high, up I fly, touch the sky
Wonder why; how could I
Ever, ever feel this way again!

(Amilo che l'angelo dolce toglie il mio dolore)

"Verse"
Speak softly into the phantom breeze,
And taste the essence of sweet release.
Nothing in elegance, and bitter-sweet desire;
Fuel my need and quench my fire.
Forsake the ghosts in my tender head,
And lead me on towards your warm bed.
Rain on me and make me complete;
Enough of the bitter, but is there the sweet?
And happiness, golden, is so far away,
In the hidden hills of yesterday.

Drowning in my Dreams,
In the forgotten world of grace;
Help me past this slumbered fight
And the blood between us.
Drowning in my Sleep,
I want to know the touch of God;
Let me feel your arms on me,
My starlight.

Enter into eternal rest, upon a barren sea;
Dark waters tremble as my soul sails free.
Gallons of emptiness poured upon my ghost,
With mixed feels for one I loved the most.
Beloved of beast, and beauty of the highest,
I fall from hope, neither strongest nor wisest,
But deeply conflicted by my feelings for you,
An aching passion to do all that I can do.
While my somber hills under scarlet skies
Fade away wtih the passing of time.

Drowning in my Dreams,
In the forgotten world of grace;
Help me past this slumbered fight
And the blood between us.
Drowning in my Sleep,
I want to know the touch of God;
Let me feel your arms on me,
My starlight.

"Love Actually"
If I had a million years,
Born from a million miles,
It could not reveal
How I love your smile.
Oh, for a thousand tears,
If you only knew,
I would gladly shed
In my love for you.

My life is wrought with pain,
A token of my fate;
I hoped for your refrain,
But still calmly wait.
I wish that I could burn
All this love away;
I long for her return,
With words I'll never say.

I love her more than gold,
More than all the wealth;
I'd love her, young or old;
More than my very self.
And if I could take
Just one piece of time,
I would slowly break
Just to make you mine.

From a million worlds,
Through a million lives,
You're still the only girl
Who makes me alive.
And it pains my heart
That it can never be;
We're still so far apart,
But you're still happy.

I want what I can't have,
What was never mine,
But still we cry and laugh
Like everything is fine.
I know that I will cry,
But somehow that's okay,
Because I know why
You say the things you say.

If I had a million years,
Born from a million miles,
It could not reveal
How I love your smile.
Oh, for a thousand tears,
If you only knew,
I would gladly shed
In my love for you.

"What I Am"
Romantics at heart, yet realists in mind;
Wanting what we could never find.
Purist by nature, yet purveyors of sin;
Beauty much deeper than simple skin.
Forbidden pleasures and forsaken truth,
And loving lies that have little use,
Yet still I long for that impossible trip;
I want to feel your kiss upon my lips.

I am the angel of your dreams;
I am the words you long to scream;
I am the whispers of your past;
I am the love that couldn't last.

Hopeful in living yet hopeless in love,
Biding my time till I meet God above.
A saint in deeds yet a criminal in thought,
Unable to give the same love that I sought.
Condemned origins of a noble desire,
Yet I fear my love will burn as a fire,
And I'll lose myself once more in the flame,
Dying again, whispering your name.

I am the devil of your heart;
I am the dream that did depart;
I am the echo of your fears;
I am the essence of your tears.

Joyful yearnings and modest beginnings;
Salvation despite your consistent sinning.
Death in life, and eternity with you;
Love me, dear, and pull me through.
If I could bridge the distance, draw you near,
I would be the knight you thought appeared;
Sweep you off your feet and ride away,
Into the sunset of the fading day.

I am the strength within your fist;
I am the magic within your kiss;
I am the wings that set you free;
I am the love that could never be.

How this

Woke up this morning a little too early,
a little too tired, a little too surly.
Guess I got up on the wrong side of the bed
when I shoulda stayed in it instead.
But I gotta go to work 'cause I love it
Oh how I wanna tell the boss to shove it
No matter how I want to crash
Need abundance of funds when it comes to cash.
So I wash my face with a little bit of water
to wake me up
('Does it work?' 'Yeah, sorta..')
Inspect the reflection, check my eyes -
they're bloodshot, that's no surprise.
So I wake up every day the same way,
no matter what time I hit the hay
Fall asleep at like seven o'clock
and I wake up tired wearing dirty socks, thinking.

I love (I love work)
Work (I love work)
I love (Geez, I love work)
Work

Put my shoes on, strap them up,
Put on my shorts, scratch my nut,
Put on my shirt, get something to eat
and then I'm out the door and I'm into the street.
Driving my car, still putting my clothes on,
When I realise I left the stove on.
I'm gonna be late if I have to go home,
But I got no choice so I'll bust a U-bone
at the buisiest intersection,
probably starting to wish that I'd slept in -
'cause now a cop is pulling me over,
and I'm quite sure that I'm not quite sober.
But he's happy just giving me a ticket
when he pisses off I'm gonna flick it
out the window and go to work wired
Hope I don't get fired for being so tired.
A quarter to is when i'm supposed to start,
but I'm looking at my watch and it's quarter past.
Boss's telling me to get off my ass,
but it's against my religion to be working fast.
So I said another company has made some offers,
if you want me to stay, 'I need a new office!'
He's fuming and foaming at the mouth
when he reminded of the stove at my house.
Never went back to turn it off
because I got sidetracked, interacting with the cop,
I'm telling my boss how a fire might burn my house and my stuff and the money that I've earned.
Thought it was a lie, wouldn't let me go home,
so I quit my job to save everything I own.
Bust him in the eye and called him a jerk
When it got me to thinking - I love work.

I love (I love work)
Work (I love work)
I love (Geez, I love work)
Work

Speeding home, I got pulled over again,
by the same cop saying, 'Well if it isn't my old friend!'
Looked him in the eye, told him the truth -
so he came to my house to check the proof.
And there's the roof, fully ablaze;
I guess I'm just having one of those days.
I lost my job, my house burned down,
and I got two tickets from the same clown.
All my memories are up in smoke,
All my enemies are fucking stoked,
'Cause now I've got nothing left
and I can't even collect a counter check,
because for that, you need ID,
and the Centrelink staff don't recognise me.
Still have a hangover, my head hurts,
but none of this would have happened if I didn't go to work.

Now I wake up in the afternoon,
Hardly ever even leave my room,
unless I need to shit or piss
or eat something, 'cause I don't wanna miss
Jerry Springer, Ricki Lake;
I don't wanna clean the mess that I make.
I'm allowed and proud to be a slob -
it's all part of the parcel of my new job.
I can wake up with serious bed hair,
I don't brush it, it just sits there.
the main concern is I get enough sleep
and I hand my form in every couple of weeks,
cos the government pays for me to stay home
and I much prefer to be on my own.
I got tired of being a clerk
but now - I love work.

I love (I love work)
Work (I love work)
I love (Geez, I love work)
Work

The Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny

Old Godzilla was hopping around
Tokyo City like a big playground
when suddenly Batman burst from the shade
and hit Godzilla with a Batgrenade
Godzilla got pissed and began to attack
but didn't expect to be blocked by Shaq
who proceeded to open up a can of Shaq Fu
when Aaron Carter came out of the blue

and he started beating up Shaquille O'Neal
then they both got flattened by the Batmobile
but before it could make it back to the Batcave
Abraham Lincoln popped out of his grave
and took an AK47 out from under his hat
and blew Batman away with a rat-a-tat-tat
but he ran out of bullets and he ran away
because Optimus Prime came to save the day

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny

Godzilla took a bite out of Optimus Prime
like Scruff McGruff took a bite out of crime
and then Shaq came back covered in a tire track
but Jackie Chan jumped out and landed on his back
and Batman was injured, and trying to get steady
when Abraham Lincoln came back with a machete
but suddenly something caught his leg and he tripped
Indiana Jones took him out with his whip

then he saw Godzilla sneaking up from behind
and he reached for his gun which he just couldn't find
'cause Batman stole it and he shot and he missed
and Jackie Chan deflected it with his fist
then he jumped in the air and did a summersault
while Abraham Lincoln tried to pole vault
onto Optimus Prime, but they collided in the air
then they both got hit by a Care Bear Stare, oooh

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown...

angels sang out in immaculate chorus
down from the heavens descended Chuck Norris
who deliver a kick which could shatter bones
into the crotch of Indiana Jones
who fell over on the ground, writhing in pain
as Batman changed back into Bruce Wayne
but Chuck saw through his clever disguise
and he crushed Batman's head in between his thighs

then Gandalf the Grey and Gandalf the White and
"Monty Python and the Holy Grail"'s Black Knight and
Benito Mussolini and The Blue Meanie and
Cowboy Curtis and Jambi the Genie
Robocop, the Terminator, Captain Kirk, and Darth Vader
Lo Pan, Superman, every single Power Ranger
Bill S. Preston and Theodore Logan,
Spock, The Rock, Doc Ock, and Hulk Hogan
all came out of no where lightning fast
and they kicked Chuck Norris in his cowboy ass
it was the bloodiest battle the world ever saw
with civilians looking on total awe

and the fight raged on for a century
many lives were claimed, but eventually
the champion stood, the rest saw their better:
Mr. Rogers in a bloodstained sweater

this is the Ultimate Showdown of Ultimate Destiny
good guys, bad guys, and explosions as far as the eye can see
and only one will survive, I wonder who it will be
this is the Ultimate Showdown...
this is the Ultimate Showdown...
this is the Ultimate Showdown...
of Ultimate Destiny

P.s: These are not my Lyrics, these are taken from Ultimate Destiny


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Have A NIce Day

The Wake-Up Call - by me

Things in Heaven.. were complete,
but some.. are never satisfied.
Do you really want to know.. do you really want to know,
where the people who are sorry will go?

Can't you see how bad we are..
Don't you want to learn at all?
Deny your 'self', and you can live for-ever,
on the Morning Star.. the Morning Star.. the Morning Star..
Where we're from.. where we're from.

You can't imagine, how deep Father's Love goes,
In your heart.. you're so far away from Home.
Do you really want to know, do you really want to know,
through how much suffering, the Angels had to go, to get you here?
(once, your life was spared, but now it's up to you.)

Prove yourself and show you're sorry,
Take good care of Earthly life,
In-tuition is the first condition of the Morning Star..
the Morning Star.. the Morning Star..
Where.. we're from..

::::::::::::SPANISH::::::::::::::::

Reik: Cada Manana

cada mañana cuando despierto viene el recuerdo de tu ultimo beso
cada mañana cuando amanesco busco el perfume que dejo tu cuerpo
cada que tengo un sentimiento creo que tambien tú lo estas sintiendo
cada momento que vivo a tu lado es tan hermoso no quiero olvidarlo

cada mañana cada te quiero esta en mi mente y en mis sentimiento
cada caricia y cada beso no se me olvida ni por un momento
cada mañana . . .

cada mañana que salgo a la calle estas presente en cada detalle
cada mañana cuando camino siento tu cuerpo cerca del mio
cada que tengo un sentimiento creo que tambien tú lo estas sintiendo
cada momento que vivo a tu lado es tan hermoso no quiero olvidarlo

cada mañana cada te quiero esta en mi mente y en mis sentimiento
cada caricia y cada beso no se me olvida ni por un momento . . .

cada mañana cada te quiero esta en mi mente y en mis sentimiento
cada caricia y cada beso no se me olvida ni por un momento . . .

"Control"
I see everything falling apart;
I trip and fall before the start.
Everyone goes and does their own thing,
While I'm the one who ends up suffering.
I have no place to call my own,
No place to go when I long to go home.

I just want to be in control,
To make my life whole,
To know where I am,
Know where I stand,
But life's taking its toll.
I want to be in control,
Yeah, like I used to be,
To live my life free,
Like I did so long ago.

I feel powerless as it crumbles;
I try to run on, but ever I stumble.
I feel hands pulling my back,
And I have to face another attack.
My dad's run off, my mom's a mess,
And my brother's a crook, I'll confess.

I just want to be in control,
To make my life whole,
To know where I am,
Know where I stand,
But life's taking its toll.
I want to be in control,
Yeah, like I used to be,
To live my life free,
Like I did so long ago.

And, in the faintest spot of hope,
I see someone who helped me cope;
She gives me reason to exist
And gives me reason to resist.
So, I won't stand back and left life unfold;
I'll try again, and try to seize control.

I just want to be in control,
To make my life whole,
To know where I am,
Know where I stand,
But life's taking its toll.
I want to be in control,
Yeah, like I used to be,
To live my life free,
Like I did so long ago.

"Song of the Lion Heart"
There he stands,
Tall, dark, and handsome.
Gun at side, sword in hand,
Here to claim a hero's ransom.
Forward to the dark,
A lion with an inner rage,
And with a stronger heart,
He frees the beast from its cage.

Now he runs,
Onward for her sake.
He fights on, never done,
Leaving corpses in his wake.
Slowly he comes to rest,
Leaning upon his sword;
He feels the sting within his chest,
But doesn't give in to its discord.

Here he falls,
Crashing upon the stone floor,
Blood in his desperate call
And her name he does implore.
They come upon their prey,
Drawing blood from every vein,
But he will not die today,
And he will shoulder the pain.

See him rise,
Now on his foot once more,
Head high in the sky,
As levels his foes to the floor.
Marching on to the end,
Towards that light in the abyss,
Towards his one and only friend
Who gave him all he ever missed.

Now he's here,
Face to face with mortality.
But he shows no fear,
Strengthened by a strange morality.
His foe fights back with strength,
But he lacks motivation to dread.
Hero comes again, goes to any length,
And now his foe is cold and dead.

And then he's gone,
Leaving only a princess behind,
Who knows not what wrong
He has yet to rectify and hope to find.
He leaves nothing but a vow,
Three words that shall ever burn;
She believes she's see him again somehow,
With words that echo, "I will return..."

I have a bunch of poems on deviant art, but here is a short one for here if no one minds

I am a model of maddness
I do not like trends
I follow a path with many bends
I am on the runway of life
I do as I wish, not what they like
I go across the river everyone swims
I don't go upstream
I don't go downstream
I get to the other side
I find my way
I am who I am
I am not the cutouts on the street

"Cryptic Piece"
Restless nights,
Under moonlights,
As shadow and fog
Pull me along.
Weary tokens
Of souls so broken,
As tempered steel
I coldly feel.

Sweat and blood
Under heaven's flood,
Wash away
The burning days.
My final act,
Of all I lack,
To see it through;
To see in you.

Empty inside,
Like all denied,
With nothing to fear,
Nothing but tears.
Make-believe,
And sudden leave,
With hardened shells
Of my inner hell.

Show me now,
Show me how,
How to make it right,
How to survive the night.
Show me here
All that I fear,
And watch it disappear
Sooner than it appeared.

Angel of dark,
Demon of heart,
Creature of decay,
Listen to me pray.
Nothing will remain,
Nothing but my pain,
But that's okay;
I'll survive another day.

Catacombs of My Mind
Lyrics by CsÃ3ka Bálint

IÂaam staring at my reflection inside the mirror,
In aÂapale, dimly lit room, IÂahold aÂascissor,
The sickness is somewhere there, deep inside,
Beyond the reach of the neurocyte, IÂatry in vain,
Everytime IÂacut my pest-sickness, it’s back again.

Reason is leaving me desolate and hollow,
No reasons to explain the behavior and the sadness,
Growing and moving slowly,
eating up inside things, swelling,
AÂahorrible, axiomic truth, IÂamade this, so..
in grave dread and terror, so IÂacan’t even swallow.

bridge

It eats up my peace, the sickness is called fear.
Fear of the failure, and pondering on my errors,
IÂacan‘t step forward, IÂaam always beat, undone,
Here and now, IÂaend, a cardinal failure.

bridge

IÂacannot bear this anymore, too ashamed to face it,
Not courage but choice is what makes me move on.
Hell is newfound in this cycle, I’m my own enemy,
Addiction found only in greatest of dreams, break it
And try it, always futile, IÂafight the mirror in vain.

Reason is leaving me bleeding and injured,
Never fight yourself, redirected some madness,
It burdens me beyond legends,
Devoured my shape with my sanity, throwaway,
Look at me, know the kindred, gaze upon me..
IÂaam now aÂawreckage conjured and consumed.

solo

IÂaknow you all very well, you are all akin to me!!
Similar pawns of self-forged hatred and misery,

Unanswered, but IÂaam still amongst the living,
Follow me, look at your insides and please, see!!

But when hope is lost, seeing what‘s close, dear,
Know the mistakes, leave thinking behind, go,
Force forward, you are still beating with blood,
Do not hide, never hide inside the...

Catacombs of my mind, I wander around blind.


Tired of Them
Lyrics by CsÃ3ka Bálint

With each restraint you want to put on me,
The more angered IÂaget, please just go away!
IÂahad my shares of creation and displacement,
I’m burning slowly out, so IÂawill join this fray!

Drive onto the darkness, lamps are all blinded,
Doesn’t care about safety, it bothers me not,
The frenzy is on! IÂasoon release and be at ease!
Adrenaline crashes through the clouds, only
God knows, who hears the groaning sounds.

It wont satisfy, no it is just not enough,
Whatever we do, it won’t fill us up,
No, IÂagot enough, and I had enough.

bridge

Not caring anymore, crave a few hours of relief,
You are away from me, otherwise IÂawould slay,
IÂahad my kegs of nectar washed down my throat,
IÂaam bringing it out, IÂapartake –is the least to say!

Drive onto the darkness, lamps are all blinded,
Doesn’t care about safety, it bothers me not,
The frenzy is on! IÂasoon release and be at ease!
Adrenaline crashes through the clouds, only
God knows, who hears the groaning sounds.

IÂacannot even salivate, no IÂaam burned out,
No matter how I try, IÂacan’t feel good,
No, please IÂaheard enough, IÂaam sick of you!

solo

Sick of you, IÂaam just sickened by you
Sick, sick, sickened by everything from you.
Fuck you, IÂaam fed up with you,
IÂaam not gonna put it up anymore with you,
Fuck you, IÂaam fed up with you,
Right now IÂadon’t have to give aÂafuck about you.
Yet IÂacan’t get, get you out of my accursed head.
IÂatry to forget, but then again, IÂahave to lay dead.

Drive onto the darkness, lamps are all blinded,
Doesn’t care about safety, it bothers me not,
The frenzy is on! IÂasoon release and be at ease!
Adrenaline crashes through the clouds, only
God knows, who hears the groaning sounds.

IÂaam So tired of them...
Just so fucking tired of them.. X4

My Brooding Bride (is music)
Lyrics by CsÃ3ka Bálint

Always gray inside, as IÂacan never spill suchÂarhyme,
Is it aÂacure for this spell or just another gaping well?
It could hold my heart, but it can swallow my soul,
Which one of you ‘ll taint my mind & pen aswell?
-
Spiraling out of control inside, something is thrown before you and me, as IÂacannot believe what IÂasee...
Insisting that you‘ll take it from me, sickness comes as our salvation, we‘re dying when we start to play.

Dance with me my bride!

My brooding bride is the music we spawned as one,
My tearful laughing was the final solution for some,
Unlike anything you endure, it won’t procrastinate,
Deathbells and a black rose, IÂaam engaged with hate!

It seems as IÂaam failing, oh, it does feel so familiar,
How come this suprises me in such alien way?
Even if my words means shit to you, IÂasay farewell,
Why won’t you try this small bit of a curse aswell?
-
Spiraling out of control inside, something is thrown before you and me, as IÂacannot believe what IÂasee...
Insisting that you‘ll take it from me, sickness comes as our salvation, we‘re dying when we start to play.

Dance with me my bride!

My brooding bride is the music we spawned as one,
My tearful laughing was the final solution for some,
Unlike anything you endure, it won’t procrastinate,
Deathbells and a black rose, IÂaam engaged with hate!

Solo

So you say, woe is me, in depths we are left to lay,
So you can never see, their bodies ... are left for me.
Their bodies will dance with me,
Their eyes see only decadence in me,
Their bodies will dance with me,
They will hound me, I’ll have to say,

My brooding bride is the music we spawned as one,
My tearful laughing was the final solution for some,
Unlike anything you endure, it won’t procrastinate,
Deathbells and a black rose, IÂaam engaged with hate!

Solo

Swarming my peace, headtrip no more please!
Enslaving my night, I am not a pretty sight!
Choking and chilling, I guess I will never know,
You are my cristalline ghost, yes you-my whore.

Dance with me my bride!

Immolation (of dying idols)
Lyrics by CsÃ3ka Bálint

Burn it up! IÂacannot stand the sight of this filth,
Throwing up! I wouldn’t bear the weights of guilt,
Turn the tide! I’ve had my share of an apocalypse,
Don’t lie!
-
Brewing inside! IÂacan taste my pain on it‘s red lips!
Broken down! Like the bridges above the abyss,
Forsaken ground! The sunrise has yet to see this!
And die!

Forsaken and betrayed by the very works of me,
Forgotten and cremated by the very band IÂasee,
Praying and preaching, a hypocrytes endeavour,
Dying and birthing, realization in a blinding fever.

Screaming, when every man comes immolated,
Bleeding, when my life is damaged with hatred,

Bridge

Flaming, when by fate I am designated,
Draining, when the pure are desecrated,

Burn it up! I’ll no longer tag along with this game,
Throwing up! Then I could never look at this flame,
Turn the tide! IÂawalk upright like aÂabroken minded,
Don‘t die!
-
Brewing inside! IÂacan take all my past and grind it,
Broken down! Like the bridges above the abyss,
Forsaken ground! The sunrise has yet to see this!
But you lie!

Forsaken and betrayed by the very works of me,
Forgotten and cremated by the very band IÂasee,
Praying and preaching, a hypocrytes endeavour,
Dying and birthing, realization in a blinding fever,

Solo

Throw the papers in the fire, throw them there to set aÂapyre,
Run for help and trip on the shore, you‘ll feel it like aÂauseless chore,
Break the cycle and turn around, you run amok and feel unbound,
Search for jewels in those crests, searching for tho-se treasure chests,
Inside you will find an engraved key, unleashing all that phantasy,
Feed them what you held inside, let them die inside this wrath you hide!

When the blood calls, then the idols fall and flail!
Behind the veil, theese fabrications begin to fail!

Bridge

Phased, when all my sadness has saturated,
Framed, your ashes have left me exhilerated,

Forsaken and betrayed by the very works of me,
Forgotten and cremated by the very band IÂasee,
Praying and preaching, a hypocrytes endeavour,
Dying and birthing, realization in a blinding fever.

Circumvents
Lyrics by CsÃ3ka Bálint

Welcome to the world of never ending questions,
Welcome to the place where my stomach churns,
This ill-begotten plane of the soulless media surge,
Where we‘re told what to live & lie-time to emerge!

This day, I woke up, so torn between several sides, I’m drowned in it, I‘m told to pick between the lies.
This way, IÂarub my sleepy eyes, so bright, startlight,
This day, this day, the circumvents won’t be right!
-
Stray lamb, self-sacrificial dumb animal, (so young)
You think you rule your wretched life, oh-so lethal!
Spoon fed, by this figurehead and fake individual,
You think you assure yourself something spiritual.

Inside this world of never ending questioning!
The concepts and ideas are opposing even now!
The man just want’s freedom, but think, how?
Inside ignored, outside oggled, too far from here.

Bridge

I’m still asking, why you’re following those lies?
Carefully constructed products of greedy minds,
I’m cornered by the paradoxes of life, if we realize,
I’m to follow, spice of existence, we’re to catalyse!
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Stay yourself-abandon all of you, ill-illusional (hah)
You think, this herd is something special, you fall,
Soon you’re lead into this grave souless emptiness,
Let the others think, you rest in apathical dizzyness.

Inside this world of never ending questioning!
The concepts and ideas are opposing even now!
The man just want’s freedom, but think, how?
Inside ignored, outside oggled, too far from here.

Solo

Inside this world of never ending questioning!
The concepts and ideas are opposing even now!
The man just want’s freedom, but think, how?
Inside ignored, outside oggled, too far from here.
Freedom of mind, perhaps they‘ll be so kind, not making ourselves even more difficult to find. X2

How come they now rule our mind?
How come they don’t seem to mind?
Enervated and exhausted we give up trying,
And as byproducts of media-hate we are lying
To ourselves why, why, why.
Now we can only cry, cry, cry.
AÂaprogeny of sacred flesh and the divine soul,
Erased to become and serve as aÂamindless ghoul.

Obituaries
Lyrics by CsÃ3ka Bálint

Obituaries! Obituaries! Obituaries!

Down!
On my knees, drooling on my malforming face,
Theese dread things that IÂaembrace, oh how can I
Lay down and die while IÂacan only write theese?

Thrilled!
By my disgrace, inside my own mirrorring place,
Theese pretty humane fire-flares, oh why can‘t I
Pray up and cry while I’m waked by your disease?

The downward scrolling papers, yes the papers,
And with my name if it matters, doesn’t matter,
have left the obituary of my soul, a deep wound,
what is long made before the tomb! Entombed!

Bridge

Everytime I am looking at my broken hand,
Remembering for what they’re due to stand,
The words have never-ever failed for me,
Something I can dig up & just throw away!
This something I cannot debate!

Bridge

Obituaries! Obituaries!

Held!
Hands in my hands, because of all my downed fate,
They’re about to predestine me as I wake,
They are ones that I call friends, it descends.

Break!
Inside my heart, my memories were shaken apart,
My dreams what I only give from heart, oh how I
Crave something so petty in return!

Solo

The downward scrolling papers, yes the papers,
And with my name if it matters, doesn’t matter,
have left the obituary of my soul, a deep wound,
what is long made before the tomb! Entombed!

Bridge

Everytime I am looking at my broken hand,
Remembering for what they’re due to stand,
The words have never-ever failed for me,
Something I can dig up & just throw away!
This something I cannot debate!

Now it grasps, & taking me away!
To a place they’re need me to be!
Where my memories can run amock,
So then it is my head that I can mock!

Obituaries! I will remember you all!
For you who has started this little war,
Now I can only follow your shrieking call!

Shà ́ryu
Just a quickie...

Never cared for others, nor did for herself,
Never shared itself, thinking in her excerpts,
too late, she thought, she lost it,
others tried to care, it is so sordid,
now in a bath past beyond days,
until the end of the dream she decays.

"Goddess"
I want to feel her love and
Yet still I know I'm going
Nowhere, going nowhere.
Everything I know is fading,
Still I feel like I am going
Nowhere, going nowhere.

And I hate the way
All these feelings fall apart,
And I hate the way,
These memories still remain;
And I hate the way,
The only hope I have is still
The hope I have in knowing why you're here,
The Goddess of my Heart.

I want to know I'm something,
Instead I feel like I am nothing;
Nowhere, going nowhere.
Might forget and lost amibition,
Dream of me, yet still I'm going
Nowhere, going nowhere.

And I hate the way
All these feelings fall apart,
And I hate the way
I'm left here on my own;
And I hate the way
The only thing I have now
Is the hope of knowing why you're still here,
The Goddess of my Heart.

Today and nothing and
Everything and something,
Nowhere, going nowhere.
God forgive me, I'm still fighting,
Doing everything you know that leads me
Nowhere, going nowhere.

But I love the way
You heal my broken heart,
And I love the way,
With you I'll never be alone;
And I love the way,
Everything is perfect
Just as long as you are with me in the end,
The Goddess of my Heart.

this is a longer one, a bit poltical mind you, I wrote it one year after 9/11, so bear with the angst and anger of it

Will you remember?
Will the two that fell
Have fallen in vain
Years ago death’s scythe struck
Down went the common folk and the heroes as such
We all fought for our lives and others
For strangers, children
Fathers, mothers
Sisters and brothers
Heaven’s gates cried out “We are full!”
Angels cried, devils too
This was too much for Hell
Purgatory too
But now time has pass and no wound has healed
Tell me do you remember our little deal?
When I was born two decades or more ago
I was promised human rights you know
Now that things have seemed to change
Though everything is exactly the same
You threaten us with prison
You take away our voice
And we the people, won’t have a choice
You banish those that are different
Even those that are the same
All in one sick and foolish game
I am a writer, I need to write
My emotions to the paper must light
If you limit what I can say, I say nothing at all
This is the cause of all writers fall
Now the shadow that still lurks with the twin’s fall
Is darker because of your wicked call
I was born here with one promise to be kept
My voice, my heart would have a fair rep
But now you threaten to take it away
You throw images of darkness into the light of a new day
We did not forget, though the message you did
We remember, don’t worry, but what is your hurry
Why do you wish to bring back the tears?
Bring back the worries?
Bring back the fears?
The silver birds flew and attacked
But that was then, though that time was black
Now we must move on, keep speaking
Keep writing
Keep living
Keep playing
If you do not stop your maddening ways
You and your friends will all have to pay
The highest power will look down and say
“Today is no longer your day”
You create lies
You cheat you steal
You attack the helpless with too much zeal
Now go away and let us be
For our silent remembrance of how things should be
We remember the better times
We remember, will you?

"Rain"
I've come to far to turn back now;
I want to save you, but don't know how.
You ran away from me, let it unfold,
Shivering in the rain, so cold.
I've known too much to feel regret,
Because if given the chance, I'd let
You do it all over again,
Because I'm still your friend.

Rain, rain, go away,
Come again another day.
Cry the tears I want to say,
And hold my fears at bay.

I've known you for far too long;
Even you know you're not that strong.
But why did you not tell me then,
And let me see it to the end.
I wanted to believe that all my pain
Could be washed away in the rain,
But I stand here, soaked and sore,
And cry for you, still ever more.

Rain, rain, go away,
Come again another day.
Pay the price I had to pay,
The truth that you had to obey.

I've always wanted to be close to you;
To feel your love like I used to do,
But I only could get as close as you let me,
And you kept me at arm's length eternally.
I want to know who you are, where you are,
Your every secret, dream, fears and scars,
And I'll love everything about, all that I saw,
Every freckle, wart, pimple, and flaw.

Rain, rain, wash away
The pain I used to feel today.
Dear God, hear the prayers I pray,
And keep her safe another day.

My Favorite Sing
Rob ZOmbie And Ozzy Osbourne

Iron Head

WHAT IS THE PURPOSE?
DEMONOID PHENOMENON
REGULATE THE FLUX AND REFLUX
SO BRING IT ON
LOOSE UPON THE WORLD
DESTRUCT A JUGGERNAUT

SUDDENLY THE RATS ARE HIGH
BLEED THE MASSES AND WATCH THEM CRY
SLUMBER LIKE HOUDINI'S DOG
DIE ALONE OUT IN THE FOG

IRON HEAD
IRON HEAD
IRON HEAD- CRUCIFY YOU
IRON HEAD- REGENERATE
IRON HEAD- EXTERMINATE
IRON HEAD- LIBERATE AND CRUCIFY YOU

WHAT IS MY NAME?
DEMONOID PHENOMENON
LAUGH IN YOUR FACE AND
BREAK BECAUSE YOU DON'T BELONG
VENT UPON THE BRINK
APPEAR ANOTHER DEMI-GOD

SUDDENLY FOREVER KNOWS
WHAT IT TAKES AND WHERE IT GOES
PAINT IT BLACK INSIDE YOUR HEAD
I DEFY WHAT YOU HAVE SAID

IRON HEAD
IRON HEAD
IRON HEAD- CRUCIFY YOU
IRON HEAD- REGENERATE
IRON HEAD- EXTERMINATE
IRON HEAD- LIBERATE AND CRUCIFY YOU

(SOLO)

SUDDENLY THE RATS ARE HIGH
BLEED THE MASSES AND WATCH THEM CRY
SLUMBER LIKE HOUDINI'S DOG
DIE ALONE OUT IN THE FOG

IRON HEAD
IRON HEAD
IRON HEAD- CRUCIFY YOU
IRON HEAD- REGENERATE
IRON HEAD- EXTERMINATE
IRON HEAD- LIBERATE AND CRUCIFY YOU

Sorry For Caps
Lyrics Courtisy of Ozzyhead.com and Rob Zombie along With Ozzy Osbourne

Where You Belong

After all this time I still can't believe I let you go,
How foolish I was, what did I know,
I was a fast paced girl,
In a fast paced world,
I thought you moved too slow,
Now here I am missing you,
Wishing you,
Would come back to me,
And make me smile,
Show me the things that you used to,
Do all you could to make me happy,
Even if it was just for a little while,

I wish I could tell you,
How much I miss you,
And it kills me to think,
About who you're kissing now,
Who you're loving now,
I just don't see how,
I'm supposed to live on,
When you're not where you belong,

I never realized that I would give my life for you,
When I made love to you,
It felt like nothing,
It lacked that extra something,
But now you're the only person I want to make love to,
You're my everything,
If only I would have seen,
How much you loved me,
How well you treated me,
How you wanted to marry me,

I wish I could tell you,
How much I miss you,
And it kills me to think,
About who you're kissing now,
Who you're loving now,
I just don't see how,
I'm supposed to live on,
When you're not where you belong.

"Rapture Heart"
Every time I see you,
I wish that I was him,
That person whom you trust
And fully confide in.
Every time I hear you,
I wish that you were mine;
When you whisper my name,
Everything becomes fine.

Living and loving,
Loving and lying,
Longing and crying,
And internally dying.

Can't you hear me...

Calling! I'm calling!
Grasp my hand
And keep from falling!
(I think that I'm in love with you)
Longing! This longing!
I try so hard
To keep from belonging!
(I don't want to be in love with you)

Every time I feel you,
I die a bit inside,
Knowing that I'm not him,
The one you let inside.
Everytime I hold you,
I feel so weak and poor,
Yet even in my pain,
I long to hold you more.

Living and loving,
Loving and lying,
Longing and crying,
And internally dying.

Can't you hear me...

Calling! I'm calling!
I want to stand
And keep from crawling!
(I know that I'm in love with you)
Longing! This longing!
Yet still your love
Is ever prolonging!
(I don't want to be in love with you)

Crying yet trying,
Trying to be true,
True, though you knew;
True just for you.
Screaming and dreaming,
Dreaming of you,
Dreaming you knew.
Dream with me, like you use to...

Please just hear me...

Calling! I'm calling!
I tried so hard,
But still I'm falling!
(I want to be in love with you)
Yearning! Still yearning!
The love you gave
Forever burning!
(Please let me be in love with you)

Crying! I'm crying!
Let me hold you tight,
As I lay dying...
(Let me live my life in love with you)
Calling! I'm calling!
Close my eyes,
And now I'm falling!
(But in the end, do you love me too?)

"Somebody Else"
I saw you cry,
Long ago it seems,
While you tried to die,
And did so in my dreams.
I wanted only you,
A girl beyond my reach;
I didn't know what to do;
I just practice what I preach.

Would you love me
If I were somebody else?
Could you love me
Were I somebody else?
Somebody stronger?
Somebody charming?
Somebody better?

Your words to me,
Still echo in my heart;
And I know eventually,
You'll consume my heart.
I tried so hard,
Not to think of you;
But I knew from the start,
You were too good to be true.

Would I love you
If you were somebody else?
Could I love you
Were you somebody else?
Somebody prettier?
Somebody kinder?
Somebody better?

But I'm not content
In this life of mine;
I could never relent
Unless you said you were fine.
I just want to know
If there's a place for me
In your heart, so whole,
Or will I fade away eventually?

I would love you
If you were somebody else.
Could you love me
Where I somebody else?
I'll never be perfect,
But I'll try to be better.
And you're ever kinder,
From letter to letter.

I wish, I wish,
I was somebody else.

"Enough!"
I'm so sick of hearing it's so bad;
Everything here makes me so sad.
All the idiots screaming, driving me mad,
While in life I suffer through an abusive Dad.
Everything I know drives me in fits,
And I don't know how to move past it;
I'm so tired, driven out of my wits,
With nothing but the taste of liquor on my lips.

I just wanted to love you,
I just wanted to hold you,
I just wanted to know you,
I just wanted to make love to you.
I just wanted to see you,
I just wanted to heal you,
I just wanted to kiss you,
I just wanted more than enough of you.

Wake up and see that life sucks;
Just scraping away to make the bucks,
And pay the rent, with any luck;
Still, I feel so worn, tired, and stuck.
I just wanted to know that you cared,
To show your support with how I fared,
But that was more than I could have dared,
And when I needed you, you weren't there.

I just wanted to love you,
I just wanted to hold you,
I just wanted to know you,
I just wanted to make love to you.
I just wanted to see you,
I just wanted to heal you,
I just wanted to kiss you,
I just wanted more than enough of you.

I just can't take it anymore!
I want to run forever out my door!
I don't ever want to come home again!
I thought you were someone to trust; my friend!
I just wanted to be your everything,
But all you gave back was suffering!
Fuck it! I'm so tired of these unshed tears...
My angel, my darling... I wish you were here.

I just wanted to love you,
I just wanted to hold you,
I just wanted to know you,
I just wanted to make love to you.
I just wanted to see you,
I just wanted to heal you,
I just wanted to kiss you,
I just wanted more than enough of you.

"Rampant Desolation"
I hear the sound of your heart,
I feel the ride begin to start;
I want this life for us to die,
An enternity on the inside.
What for nothing, thanks begotten,
Thanatos, and now all is forgotten.
The death delt in my hand,
And knowledge few would understand,
Now drives me to my bitter end,
Facing the darkness, alone again.

There's a place so dark that I can't peel away
The veil of black from my memories of yesterady.
It tears at me, eats my heart whole,
While washing me in its blood of coal.

I want to know it was worth it;
There was meaning to my forfeit.
No one wants to be just a memory,
Something dug up just occassionally.
Maybe my peace wasn't meant to be,
But I'll be damned if I didn't see
The light of hope shining in your eyes,
So wake up now, and try to realize.
Take my hand, and belittle the devil,
As we rise above to another level.

Don't delay; seize today, and bring it all back;
You're the one now; you're all that I lack.
See it now, and feel its touch on your skin,
And kill the darkness buried deep within.

"Promises"
All my tears, all my fears,
Accumulated through all the years,
Says to me, makes me see,
I'm not the person that I should be.
So much rage in my cage;
Just living life page by page.
I want to say live for today,
But all this pain won't go away.

I'm not afraid of tomorrw,
Just the suffering it brings.
I'll do away with my sorrow,
And give to you my everything.

I took the bait; so much hate,
And still I learn from my mistakes.
Take the dare, see how I fare,
And maybe I'll meet you there.
What to do? I know we're through,
But still I long to be with you.
Take my hand, please understand,
That I'm still not that perfect man.

I'm not afraid of tomorrw,
Just the suffering it brings.
I'll do away with my sorrow,
And give to you my everything.

And we'll make it out,
I swear to you.
We'll survive the night,
Just me and you.
I'll take the pain,
That's meant for you,
And see the moring,
Here with you.

I'm not afraid of tomorrw,
Just the suffering it brings.
I'll do away with my sorrow,
And give to you my everything.

"At the End of the Journey"
I stand on the top of a mountain,
Watching the sun set over the sea.
An orange glow of wanderlust
Fuels a driving need inside me.
I feel the cool breeze on my neck,
My hair fluttering in the wind;
I see a world of awe and wonder
Stretched over a sea that never ends.

Take my hand as I wander free.
All the love you gave to me,
Take me down a path of fantasy,
Makes me a man I want to be.
Let me be the knight I sought to be,
And make our fantasy reality.

A thousand miles over a hundred years,
Marching over a thousand battlefields,
Facing a million foes with only a few friends,
And we could never surrender and never yield.
You stood by my side, till the very end,
Like a princess in the books I always read,
I climbed my tower, slayed my dragon,
But in the end, you saved me instead.

Take my hand as I wander free.
All the love you gave to me,
Take me down a path of fantasy,
Makes me a man I want to be.
Let me be the knight I sought to be,
And make our fantasy reality.

Through our hottest fire and coldest winter,
The oil, dirt, and sweat of all we endured,
We made a pact that could never be forgotten,
To remember all that we endured.
Might and magic, warriors and heroes,
All gathered to test their mettle against metal.
And, when the sun had set, and the blood cooled,
There was nothing left; every grudge settled.

Take my hand as I wander free.
All the love you gave to me,
Take me down a path of fantasy,
Makes me a man I want to be.
Let me be the knight I sought to be,
And make our fantasy reality.

And now it's just the two of us,
A free knight and a lovely girl,
With memories of battles, foes, and friends
Keeping us company as we traverse the world.
And, years from now, when I'm old and gray,
And our children play by the warm, burning fire,
I will tell them the tale of our exploits and quests,
And give them reason to yearn for something higher.

Take my hand as I wander free.
All the love you gave to me,
Take me down a path of fantasy,
Makes me a man I want to be.
Let me be the knight I sought to be,
And make our fantasy reality.