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its kinda short and 1st song i've ever wrote

The Darkness

I woke up without the light i turned around and found no sight this is what i always thought for the greatest thing i never fought for

This is the darkness so bright it blinds us the only thing that we can't see it took us down and kepp us down now theirs nothing left in me

All thats left is an empty shell my souls decended into hell lost the light that light my way for ur sins i begin to pay

This is the darkness so bright it blinds us the only thing that we can't see it took us down and kept us down now theirs nothing left in me

I loved everything u did an attraction that i always hid now i no i should have held u my heart and soul ache to hold u

This is the darkness so bright it blinds us the only thing that we can't see it took us down and kept us down now theirs nothing left in me

This is the darkness so bright it blinds us the only thing that we can't see it took us down and kept us down now theirs nothing left in me

i shall fight for the light return to me and help my plight

FEMINUS

consurgo e mage horte
debeo prodare me morte
mea vita debet desinare
non possum oppugnare

femini immundi sunt
gerent aterrimas vitas
ignis inferni insunt
flent lacrimas dolorosas

non volo esse feminus
nam semper est occasus
in luce volo ingredi
itaque debeo mori

'Broken Reality'

Broken reality, there's no means of escape
Broken reality, looking to leave this mindscape
But the more that I leave the harder it seems I come back
Now I'm livin out these lies that I call my trap
And I call it that, cuz i didn't do this intentionally
What I now call my trap I used to call my fantasy
Sometimes I wonder, what it'd feel like to be respected
But until then, I'll dream about bein accepted
I wonder, what it'd feel like to be respected...

All wrong, no right
No one, no sun
No light
Despite this fight
All right, outside
No matter what you do you can't escape what's inside

Damn, somebody get me outta this place
Lonliness, helplessness, depression and disgrace
At this pace, I'm on the verge of self-destruction
With nothin to go on, but my self instruction
So what then does that leave me?
I try to communicate with the world but none of you out there could perceive me
So instead of words I began to express through action
Soon anger and rage became my mere satisfaction
Hate fueling my being, I'm feeling lonely to the least
Till I escape into my fantasy where I live in peace
Here I can be anyone I want to
Here I can do anything I choose to
Here in this place, I feel good, there's no restriction
This shit is so good, that it's become my addiction

All wrong, no right
No one, no sun
No light
Despite this fight
All right, outside
No matter what you do you can't escape what's inside

"Love Letter"
The fragments of my lost memories,
Couples with the restless dreams and false realities,
Creates an illion I can't toss away.
It plagues me now; my misery every day.
In the abysmal future and even darker past,
I wonder how long this suffering will last,
And then I found something that made it all better;
The unspoken words of your lost love letter.

"I miss you." "I love you." "I want to be by your side."
Words never spoken warm me up from the inside.
And now that you're gone, there's nothing left to say,
But the unspoken words carry me on day by day.
The soft reflection of the times we shared,
And the hidden love we both feared yet dared,
All of it makes me ponder it all,
Ponder the fall, and ponder your call.

The things we both knew, and the things we never said,
All of them are buried in the grounds of the dead.
The pale moonlight is their only delight,
And we now gasp in fright at that terrible sight.
Yet, we both have hope, 'cause light is light.
Even the paleness can reveal secret insight.
But we don't need eyes, nor ears, or feelings of lust.
We only need the ability to trust.

And I sit, now, alone in my chair,
Gazing at words written when I wasn't there.
And now you're not here; you're so far away.
Too far away for me to every find you and say
"Thank you" for all the good times;
For all the spat fights, the good and unkind.
Your lost love letter has now been found,
And I hope my own's not buried in that dead ground.
Maybe if you find it, we can start over new;
Because we dared to dream, I can carry on with you.

Fatality.

"Worth the Wait"
The expectations mounting higher and higher;
The memories of you calling me a liar;
The situation of our love, so desperately dire;
All burn inside me like an intense fire.
Is it worth the wait? Worth the hate?
Worth all the mistakes we both seem to make?
Is it worth all that I bleed? All that I need
Is the chance to feed the slave inside me.

What is life? What is strife?
All abstract thought; at least that's what I've been taught.
All the pain is not for naught! I'd won't loose you; I'd rather rot.
The fear draws near, and I long for you to be here,
To spend all my years wiping away your tears.
The darkness won't touch you; you don't know how much you
Mean to me. It seems to me you're my only reality;
My deepest fantasy; and I long to hold you, finally,
And prove how I hoped you could be much more to me.

Worth the wait. Still, not too late.
Maybe it was fate, or maybe a mistake.
Whatever the reason, we're both guilty of the same treason,
And we can't turn our backs to each other.
I can't go on loving another.
I'd forsake them all; my father and mother.
You're more to me than my own brother.
Can't you see how much you're killing me?
Stealing me away and feeling this way?

Don't go! You have to know I won't let this be so.
Be it paradise or death row; heaven above or hell below;
I'll face them all, all manner of devils,
Tear them off the wall; shatter all the levels,
Just to be with you. Just to look at you.
Just to feel your smile and dream all the while
That you could care for me as I care for you.
I'll always be there for you.

You're worth the wait. I took the bait;
I set the date; now I can only wonder at the state
Of things that now transpire. I still feel that fire.
Do you still call me a liar? Could we ever get higher?
I no longer want to bleed or hurt, but when I hear your alert,
Your plea for me, I'll come running eternally.
I'll always be there; I'll never hesitate.
I'll do it all because you're worth the wait.

Fatality.

"The Rose of Sharyn"

Numb and broken
Here I stand alone
Wondering, what were
The last words I said to you
Hopeing, praying
That I'll find a way to turn back time
Can I turn back time

What would I give
To behold the smile
In the face of love
You never left me
The Rose of Sharyn
Will always speak your name

Numb and broken
Here I stand alone
Wondering, what were
The last words I said to you

It won't be long
We'll meet again

What would I give (What would I give)
To behold the smile
In the face of love
You never left me (You never left me)
The Rose of Sharyn
Will always speak your name

It won't be long
We'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long
We'll meet again
My love for you is ever-lasting

I mourn for those
Who never knew you
I mourn for those
Who never knew you

I mourn

For Those

Who never knew you

It won't be long
We'll meet again
Your memory is never passing
It won't be long
We'll meet again
My love for you is ever-lasting

It won't be long
We'll meet again

This is some nice stuff, guys. You all have great potential and talent.

"Someone Better"
Every time I think I'm past it,
The unkind truth comes and cast its
Vote, shutting me off and turning me down
From my dreams; so often they're burning all 'round.
I hear the voices crying, screaming my name,
But they sound like they're dying; seething with pain.
I try to speak, I try to walk; feel so hate-prone;
But I feel so weak, I cannot talk; I'm all alone.

I wanted to be someone better than I was today.
I wanted to take back all I said or find a way to say
I'm sorry for the hate and the mistakes.
I guess I was second-rate, but I hope I can paint
A better picture for tomorrow; erase the sorrow,
And start anew; no scar or wound will strike my marrow.
My blood will still free-flow, but I'll survive the ordeal;
I have a chance to show the world how I truly feel.

I won't take this pain. I won't take this shame.
I won't dwell on this arcane feeling of burning flames
Consuming my soul and erasing my mind.
Burned as black as charcoal and stabbed by the lies that unwind,
I struggle to breathe and I struggle to stay me;
I watch myself seethe and it has frightened me, lately.
No regret, no need to fret, and I just bet
That I still won't let my unfulfilled debt
Waste away like other forgotten vows.
I dare to dream, but I still don't completely know how.

Born from nothing and to nothing I will return.
I just wanted to be something, but all I feel is the burn
And the scorn and the rejection from all I've known.
I know I was warned, but the affection I had was my own,
And I won't let that go, no matter what.
I'll continue to be me, so I can take the cuts.
Something does matter to me, and I'll keep it treasured up close,
Held inside with every heart beat; the things I care for the most. Forget the world and all that it holds and presents. If there's one thing I behold, it's that I know I will never give in and relent.

I wanted to be someone better that I was today.
I fear I will always be this poor debtor who can never repay
All the kindness he has received. All the horrid sins
Doesn't compare to the hope conceived by the dreams of friends.
So I will still be me, but I'll always dream to be someone better.
The peace within me is only fuel to break the chains that fetter
Me to the ground, where I can't share the sound
Of love stemming all around, from light never found.
I never wanted this, not until that day I met her.
So, I end this with my dream of being someone better.

Fatality.

"Tears"
Just scream. Just belt it out.
It seems you felt me shout.
Can't you see the angst built up inside?
Can you feel the pain I vainly try to hide?
Rain beats down on me like a flood from heaven;
Tears of God mixed with tears of half-dead men;
Where's my angel of mercy, my guardian savior?
I just feel so alone, with nothing but my own violent behavior.
I look in the mirror, and a dark face glares back at me.
She calls to me, but I can't hear her; I try to rest, but she snaps at me.
No peace, no rest, but I try my best;
I can't fail, I can't give in lest
I loose control again and hurt all those near.
The demons I keep within cause me to fear.

Can you see my tears? Can you hear my cry?
The inward fears make me long to die;
The tears flow down my cheek as I fall to my knees,
Pounding my fist to bloody bits as I struggle to see
Past the blurred water clouding my vision.
I have a choice, but I don't want to make the decision;
To live in sorrow, alone, is no life to live,
But it's the only life I know, and all I have to give
Is death and pain, and I can't bear to hurt anyone else.
Everyone fades away, leaving me with nothing but myself.

Thunder flashes, lightning clashes, and the wind bashes
Against my cold, numb face. When I'm nothing but dust and ashes
What will they say of me? Will they speak of my lovingly?
Or will they even speak at all? Say he never answered the call.
Just like his girlfriend, loved, then forgotten;
Move on until your own end; death happens too often.
No need to cry for him. He doesn't mean anything to me.
Where did we begin? Never; it was all just a false reality.

Tears again, and my cries of despair,
Casting my burden off and screaming into the air.
My voice so sore, but I scream all the more
Knowing in my core that whatever I implore
Will go unnoticed and ignored by all.
The echoes resound, resounding off the floors and walls,
Telling me the same lies: I'm nothing and nobody.
I can't seem to realize that my soul is rotting,
And I'm falling apart, bit by bit, into the void.
And then I feel her heart, by candle-lit rooms devoid
Of human emotion. Nothing but cold walls to greet me.
Yet my heart beats to the motion of the light, pulsating so rapidly.

Where did she go? Why didn't she say good-bye?
I miss her 'hello' and the warmth she gave me inside.
I miss her smile and I miss her embrace;
I miss her voice and I miss her face.
I miss her so much, and so I scream to her.
I ask for her loving touch, but I can only dream of her.
I cry aloud to the dark skies, hoping God hears my call,
And wishing against hope our lives meant something before I fall
Victim to the same agony as before.
I'll meet her again, but I have more years in store.
I have more dreams to dream and the world I live in
Forces me to struggle on, to stay alert and driven.
So I imagine her fingers interlacing in mine.
I imagine her eyes peering and facing within mine.
I imagine myself holding her close, believe I that I'll protect her this time,
Believing that the one I love the most I could possible save; this second chance of mine
Is nothing but my eternal dream, but I still believe
That this forever infernal dream will one day leave.

But the tears still flow; I close my eyes tight;
I howl my sorrow to the moon-glow and the eternal night.
"It's as hot as hell" I remember hearing him say.
She turned and replied "For me, it's always this way."
The eternal staircase of fire; always feeling the burn;
My voice carries me higher and higher, and I still yearn
For the inner peace I have never felt before.
The tears only make it harder to ignore
The memories that plague my mind and rob me of time
To set things right and find the exonneration from my crimes.
Until then, I beat my fists and scream my song,
Knowing that the empty bliss I once had was here all along.
I miss her, and nothing changes that, regrettably. But, her face will one day again appear;
And so I wait for the peace to fill me; but all the while, I will shed my tears.

Fatality.

"Strange Addiction"
Like a lurid dream of hidden desire,
I walked blindly into the dark and fire,
Feeling no pain, no heat or fear,
Even as the dark flames burn and sear.
Another mistake; one step forward, two steps back;
Make or break; the opportunity to let out and attack.
Seize the chance or face the music;
Feel the rush; don't ever lose it.

This strange addiction fills my soul.
This condtradiction heals me whole.
The eternal confliction peels away the skin.
This strange addiction is where it always ends.

Down the back of my spine goes a cold shiver;
Cut down, burned out, called a hypocrite Indian-giver;
Well, it doesn't amount to much, but at least I got it;
You still shrug and follow your hunch that the fruit is rotten.
Paradise is a hell for you, and happiness a crime.
You buy what the devil sells to you, 'cause you don't have to the time
To sit and wait for your reward.
You have so much hate and much more in store.

This strange addiction fills my soul.
This condtradiction heals me whole.
The eternal confliction peels away the skin.
This strange addiction is where it always ends.

Maybe nothing is as it seems; this reality is just a lie.
Maybe this is just a dream, dreamt up from the inside.
Maybe this world is but a shadow, fading under the sun.
Maybe I'll disappear, after I wake up, and it's done.
But, even if it's all a lie, and I can't live anymore,
You can't tell me that I'll die with feelings so long ignored.
You can't fake love and you can't fake hope.
My God who dwells above won't take me to the end of my rope.

This strange addiction fills my soul.
This condtradiction heals me whole.
The eternal confliction peels away the skin.
This strange addiction is where it always ends.

Fatality.

'Breakaway'

I grew up in a small town,
I had no friends around,
To make life any easier,
The girl that nobody cared about,
The one they'd always count out,
Spread her wings and flew,
Things changed so quickly,
Everyone began to love me,
And I feel like I grew,
But I never knew,

They only loved what I could do,
Their love was never true,
They held me up on their shoulders,
But secretly could never have been colder,
They made me feel like a princess,
Like I was better than the rest,
But now I have to say goodbye,
And breakaway from all the lies,

Striving for the greater good,
Trying to do all I could,
I still never won,
My best friends taken from here,
I felt like I no longer belonged here,
Just angels in the sky,
Still trying to hang on,
To keep on singing my song,
And I pray,
That I'll find a way,

So people will love me for me,
The beauty and the insecurities,
To be put on a pedastal,
And to know they'll give me there all,
Made to feel like a princess,
And be told that I'm not like all the rest,
Just once being considered special,
And breakaway from all the pain,

All the times I've screamed out,
Praying for someone to find me,
And rescue me from my sleep,
I've come to find that only I,
Can wake myself,
I have to,
Take a risk,
Take a chance,
Make a change,
Be myself and love me for me,
And not care what others may think,

I have to learn to love me for me,
All the beauty and insecurities,
Spread my wings and fly,
And not stop until I reach the sky,
Feel like I'm a princess,
And not settle for anything less,
Look in the mirror and see,
That all along I was trying to breakaway from me.

I think it would be cool to put some of these songs into a contest, get feedback on your submission as well as seeing how it rates amongst others in this site.

"One Winged Angel"
The confusion of a lost soul, torment and alone;
The blood of a lost hope, scattered on its own;
The death of a dying wish, laid to rest in me;
The birth of forgotten bliss, still dormant inside me.
Killer by nature and killer by trade;
Murder of life and assassin to be made.
What am I? What dwells inside me?
Will I die? What hell lied to me?

I'm a one-winged angel, tossed from heaven to earth.
I'm a one-winged angel, awaiting my second re-birth.
I'm a one-winged angel, wishing I could fly again.
I'm a one-winged angel, with nothing in the end.

The symbolism of my life is meaningless pain;
The accumulation of my strife is stealing this bane
And banishing it all away to the darkest pit.
I'm vanishing away from everything; death is where I fit.
Who are you? Who am I? What do I do? Why do I try?
It can't be true. Why can't I die? If only you knew what I felt on the inside.

I'm a one-winged angel, tossed from heaven to earth.
I'm a one-winged angel, awaiting my second re-birth.
I'm a one-winged angel, wishing I could fly again.
I'm a one-winged angel, with nothing in the end.

I wanted to feel your love, but I was too cold to care.
I wanted to fly like the eagles above, but I was far from there.
I wanted to know if I truly existed, but I was too see-through.
I wanted to know that if I resisted, I would see a vision of you.
I wanted to be alive one last time, to be more than this memory.
I wanted to burst from inside this prime, but it always gets the best of me.

I'm a one-winged angel, tossed from heaven to earth.
I'm a one-winged angel, awaiting my second re-birth.
I'm a one-winged angel, wishing I could fly again.
I'm a one-winged angel, with nothing in the end.

Fatality.

'Breakaway Pt.II'

My life seemed so secure,
My vision was no longer a blur,
I could see the path set infront of me,
And emblazoned in my mind,
Was a life that I could finally call mine,
And I stood alone,
But a tremor shakes the ground,
And I feel like I will fall down,
And I'll be on my own,
Unsteady and cold,

All because you came to me and made things shake,
I feel like I'm going to break,
Once again so soon I have failed,
And now I'm flailing,
Falling for a man that I can never have,
In love with a lie,
Nothing I can do but cry,
There's nothing I can say,
All I can do is breakaway,

I always wondered if love was out there for me,
Someone to put my heart at ease,
And now that I found him its can never be,
Sitting in this lonely room,
Darkness and heartbreak loom,
And there's nothing I can do,
Everytime you reach out,
I wanna grab your hand,
So that you can save me,
But I have to stop dreaming,
of something that can never be,

I have to move far from here,
I apologize now for any tears,
Too much for me to handle now,
And I'll never forget just how,
Falling for you made me feel,
Finally feeling real,
But now all I can do is cry,
And I'm sorry but I have to say goodbye,
One last kiss, and then breakaway,

I'll never forget you,
You'll always be in my heart,
You can do so much better than I,
So its time for you to fly,
Take a risk,
Take a chance,
Make a change,
And say goodbye to today,
And breakaway,

You can be happy without me,
Look inside and you'll see,
That I'm not 'the one',
Tomorrow you'll see, because I'll be gone,
Foolish for falling for a man that I can never have,
In love with a lie,
Nothing I can do but cry,
There's nothing I can say,
All I can do is breakaway.

Coldplay
No more keeping my feet on the ground

Sometimes I wake up and I'm falling asleep
I think that maybe the curtains are closing on me
But I wake up; yes I wake up smiling

Sometimes I feel the chance is surprising
Surprisingly good to be moving around
So I wake up; yes I wake up smiling

So what? I feel fine
I'm ok; I've seen the lighter side of life
I'm alright, I feel good
So I'll go and I'll try to start moving

Sometimes I wake up and I'm falling asleep
But I've gotta get going
So much that I'm wanting to do
But I wake up smiling

And this could be my last chance
Of saving my human sense
And this could be my last chance
No more keeping my feet on the ground

Sometimes I feel the chance is surprising
Surprisingly good to be moving around
And I move; I wake up smiling

So what? I feel fine
I feel okay; I've seen the lighter side of life
I'm alright, I feel good
So I'll go, well it's time to start moving on

And this could be my last chance
Of saving my human sense
And this could be my last chance
So no more keeping my feet on the ground

I'm not gonna keep on; I'm not gonna keep on moving
And I'm not gonna keep on; I'm not gonna keep on moving

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I love Coldplay.

SEDUCTIVE SMILE

You were so cool, so good to me.
I was so much the fool, wishing you would, maybe,
Say my name and play my game.
I thought it a shame to stiffle my flame.
Yet, I was playing with no rules,
A puppet of you; nothing but your tool.
You made me weak and you made me think
That it was I who would sink; that I was the fink.
That I was nothing without you.
I had no purpose without you.
You used me and abused me and left me for dead.
How it confused me; I'm losing; but it's all in my head.

You tempted me with that Seductive Smile.
You made me believe your words, but all the while
You were stabbing me in the back,
Never relenting; always on the attack.
You left me bleeding on the floor,
And you expected me to come crawling for more.
Well, after being treated so ill and poor,
I realize I just can't take this anymore!

I remember your eyes, so blood-shot and dull.
Drunk as always, the drugs taking their toll.
Your voice cursing me and calling me names;
"Worthless! You bitch!" and other things profane.
I remember when I couldn't stand you; you smelled too bad;
Tanked up on alcohol, soaking it up like a rag.
Then you hit me, beat me, tried to break me.
Still, I always wondered whether you really did hate me.
I was so naive. The lies I conceived wouldn't let me breathe.
I was so relieved when I the hate I seethed made you bleed.

You tempted me with that Seductive Smile.
You made me believe your words, but all the while
You were stabbing me in the back,
Never relenting; always on the attack.
You left me bleeding on the floor,
And you expected me to come crawling for more.
Well, after being treated so ill and poor,
I realize I just can't take this anymore!

I left you unconscious in the hall,
The blood still flowing off the wall.
I couldn't take it anymore, and you were too damn blind.
I can live without you. There's a man out there I'll find.
And we'll love each other and care for each other;
He'll treat me with care, and I'll treat him as my brother.
You're gone from my life, no more than a memory,
And even that will fade away one day, eventually.
I left you a letter and roses in your lap,
Explain to you the things that made me snap.
I've found something more important; I can love again.
No more fooling with you; my new life now begins.

Note: Thank you so much Titanwarrior, Temp, and Garlador for making my coming here so enjoyable. Saxtard, I'll see you online.

From 1998's Diabolus In Musica

Slayer
Stain Of Mind

Imagine Humanity's decline
Step inside my stain of mind
Infesting superiority
Infectious immorality, oh yeah

Come worship the place, no truths are told
Praise the land where sins are sold
No passion, no love, your faith evades
Never see yourself again that way

Death becomes your bride
Lifelessness invades your eyes

In fire baptised
All pain sifts through my soul
You'll never feel greater misery
Master of my enemy
Let the purest stain of mind
Wash the virtue from your eyes

As one the collective unifies
Emanate a faithless shine
Forever creation has conceived
Birth of destruction spreads its wings, oh yeah

Chaotic rebirth, a new domain
Re-live the sight, the sound of pain
Erotic, the taste of agony
Adorn the scars of inhumanity

This is what you see
Deep inside of me
Agony is life
Lechery is life
Godlessness is life
Purgatory magnified

In fire baptised
All pain sifts through my soul
You'll never feel greater misery
Master of my enemy
Let the purest stain of mind
Wash the virtue from your eyes

Enticing malevolence allures
Bastardise the clean and pure
Salvation forever crucified
I choose the other side, oh yeah

Entire, complete serenity
Injected intraveneously
Transgression, euphoric bliss divine
Initiate a timeless stain of mind

Blood will sterilize

In fire baptised
All pain sifts through my soul
You'll never feel greater misery
Master of my enemy
Let the purest stain of mind
Wash the virtue from your eyes

"Can't Lose You Now"

Feeling so alone,
Eventhough,
You're standing right next to me,
I'm still, on my own,
Holding you close,
Has never,
Felt so wrong,
But still I, hold on,
I can't forget,
The life that we had,
The love that we shared,
A love that can never compare,

Through the darkness your light shined on me,
And your love, set me free,
You got me through it all,
And I can't, lose you, now,

Sometimes when I'm alone,
I think of all the men I've known,
And you were the one I chose,
But now you've grown so cold,
There are days when I try to move on,
When I say you're not the one,
But in my heart I know,
I need you so,

Repeat Chorus

Do anything to move past you,
Get a grip on my life,
Someway to survive,
All of the pain and strife,

Repeat Chorus (2x)

"Hypnotized"
The light fades under nightshades, but my soul remains.
My hope remains, but things don't stay the same,
And the pain and shame are forgotten. No names,
No games, no reason to stay sane; but under the cold rain
I see a light engaged in a fight;
A marvelous sight in the coolness of this wet night.

And I'm hypnotized as I stare into her eyes.
I'm mesmerized as I grapple to realize
Her love for me.
It was all lies, or I was told and figured I'd surmise
How I idealized everything, but she could never hide
Her love for me.

Choking up, I'm taking up the feelings of breaking up;
Raking up my broken body; faking enough and staking enough;
But there's too much as stake. Can't you see that?
I can't make the same mistake; I can't be that!
I can't be what you want me to be!
I can't deny who I am; that's hypocrisy.
So just hear me, fear me; just be near me
Since you're dear to me; I'm just so weary.

And I'm hypnotized as I stare into her eyes.
I'm mesmerized as I grapple to realize
Her love for me.
It was all lies, or I was told and figured I'd surmise
How I idealized everything, but she could never hide
Her love for me.

Like a flower trampled on the ground,
Like an hour lost in the void of silent sound,
Like a fear given life and taking form,
I see things appear, like a calm before the store.
I'm invisible. Indivisible. Forever young.
Can't you be sensible? Things just can't be done!
Yet, you plead with me, and I just can't say no in the end.
You want proof, really? Well, here I am, with you again.

And I'm hypnotized as I stare into her eyes.
I'm mesmerized as I grapple to realize
Her love for me.
It was all lies, or I was told and figured I'd surmise
How I idealized everything, but she could never hide
Her love for me.

Fatality.

Good stuff, as always, Andrea. Nice to hear from you again. Fatality.

"Broken"

And then once again,
My heart is broken,

Sometimes when I'm lonely,
I'll sit back and dream of Prince Charming,
And wonder if he'll find me,
So I can be happy,
So many times my heart has been shattered,
My soul been tattered,
I just can't understand,
Why I can't find a man,

And at night I sit and cry,
I blame myself for all my strife,
If I knew,
What I could do,
To find the man of my dreams,
My heart would never be,
Broken again,

I wanna feel the warmth of his arms,
Holding me all night long,
I wanna succumb to his charms,
And smile when I hear 'our' song,
I wanna feel the warm breeze,
Feel the sand underneath me,
And feel his love,
The love I've always dreamed of,

Repeat Chorus

So many times I've made the wrong choice,
I never listened to my own voice,
I just wore my heart on my sleeve,
And then he crushed my dreams,
And left me behind,
To try and survive,

Repeat Chorus

And just when my heart is mending again,
I find my heart breaking again,
Thats always the way the story ends.

SUICIDE CLOCK

Tick-tock goes the clock,
Counting down while I feel the shock.
Pulse quickens, arms stiffen,
And my stomach slowly sickens.
10, 9, 8... too much hate;
7, 6, 5... I'm barely alive;
4,3, 2... what can I do?
1, 0, boom!... is this my doom?
Can you save me? Can you love me?
I didn't thing so; at least not lovingly...

The suicide clock ticks on and on,
Counting down the seconds before I'm gone.
Even now, I can hear it ringing, sounding its alarm.
Still, as the pain fills me, stining, I pray to be saved from harm.
Where's my hero? Where's my savior?
Can you see me tears or even my tragic behavior?
The time's up, and I've had enough,
But I still want to hang through and see you.

In and out, blackness and light;
The struggle to live or die is such a fight.
I don't see anything, but I feel someone hold me,
His voice scolding me, and how he always told me
To wait just a little bit longer, that I'd grow stronger.
It didn't matter if I was wrong or if I was right. I wasn't a goner.
I was too weak to answer, too afraid to speak.
The silence spread like cancer, but I felt him touch my cheek.
Tears falling on my face, even as he yelled at me.
He cried in my disgrace, lamenting how he failed to see.

The suicide clock still counting down,
The sob of frail voices heard all around.
The hope that I'd cope only appeared on TV soaps;
While I thought I was dope, I was at the end of my rope.
I can't relate, and I couldn't wait,
So I decided my own fate, one without such hate.
Yet, I couldn't help but feel sad
As he held me in his arms, sounding so mad
Yet his voice choking, wishing he was joking,
And his tears leaving us both wet and soaking.
I didn't remember much after that;
When I woke up, the hospital was where I was at,
And he wasn't there; no flowers for me.
Maybe he did care, but he still wanted to ignore me.

I never saw him again. He's gone from my life.
Maybe he saw his own end, and decided to fuel his strife.
Or maybe he's happy without someone else,
Strong and rich, with wealth and health.
Maybe his suicide clock is ticking down,
Or maybe I just hit "snooze" on mine to muffle the sound.
Regardless, I'm still here, though I was never meant to be.
Another shot to change my tears into something for all to see.
Another chance to be what I could never have been;
A chance to discover the strength within.
We all have our suicide clocks counting down our time,
But the time I have left is golden; I'll make the best of mine.

And you told me you didn't have imagination. Bull. You're brilliant. Fatality.

"Forever Inside Me"

When I look inside,
I see a child,
Longing for existence in a world,
Where no one will accept a little girl,
So I keep her hidden,
And accept the tears that fall unbidden,
She's so lonely,
Tired of being on her own,
Waiting patiently,
To longer be all alone,

Nothing ever seems to go right for her,
She can't ever seem to win,
She can't ever be set free,
So she waits, forever inside me,

Struggling a find a place,
To be accepted,
Trying to live,
And be unaffected,
By the pain and woe,
That she's come to know,
Attempting to move beyond the sorrow,
Confronting the cold tomorrow,
Always believing she's worth more,
But never feeling like she was,

Nothing ever seemed to go right for her,
She couldn't ever seem to win,
She couldn't ever be set free,
So she waited, forever inside me,

And when I'd lost all faith,
I looked to the sky and asked 'why?'
The brightest light I've evern seen,
Came down and shined upon me,
And there you were,

Then something right finally happened for me,
I had finally won,
I had finally been set free,
You gave her a chance, and shes no longer,
Forever inside me.