Wow. Lyrical over-load goin' on here.

Here's an older song of mine. Enjoy.

"Breath"
A scarlet haze tints this world, distorting this reality.
The banners of hate are unfurled, creating a horrid fantasy.
Violence and plague ravish the land, leaving many dead in their wake.
I see people fall like towers of sand; then I dwell on my own mistakes.
An inward battle for forgotten hope; a struggle for hidden love.
Until I triumph, I can't cope; a rainfall drenches me from above;
Cloudy skies and beautiful dreams, all mingled together as one;
Nothing is real or as it seems, and never will be until this is over and done.
I feel like someone else is in my mind, robbing me of my will;
Nonsense; I know that I'll find the answers, but until
That day comes, I must continue to fight my glorious battle for lost souls;
Then one day I'll see the light, and fill my heart's gaping hole.
We all have strength and yet we're all weak, fragile and alone;
But that doesn't mean we have to seek out answers on our own.
People need people, support, love, and care; we need help and help we give.
I promised someone that I'd be there, to help her continue to live.
We're a stubborn race, one that will survive, and carry on the tale.
I'm special and I'm truly alive, and I know all will turn out well.
So, as the world suffers and cries, I do my part to carry on;
I'll fight this fight until I die, and long after I'm gone.
To live on as a memory is something I aspire to do;
Everything I hoped to be will continue to live on in you.
My will, my feelings, what I am inside makes me whole and unique.
The scarlet tint cannot blind and hide the answers that I seek;
The cold, wet days and lonely nights are faded dreams to me now;
I'll protect those I love with all my might; I'll succeed, but I don't know how.
The breeding of this melancholy heart will one day reap great bliss;
To be with you, to never be apart- no greater joy than this.
I pray for peace and inward joy; I pray for you, also, this day.
I wonder if the words of this foolish boy will help you find your way,
But I can do nothing more than try, and I know you will survive.
You have to, because only when I'm with you, do I feel truly alive.
You're the very air I breathe, and I'll be with you even in death;
I'll continue to live and believe; I can since you give me my every breath.

Just breathe.

Fatality.

This song is for Scott-Howell whom I love with all my heart and soul.

"Till I Met You"

I remember a time in my life,
When nothing went right,
When all that I knew was sorrow,
But all of that changed,
On the fateful day,
That you came to me from above,
Shining away the darkness with your love,
And I never knew,
What I could be,
Till I met you,

So many times I would attempt to fly,
Never able to reach the sky,
Always I faltered on all my dreams,
All at once my life began to rip at the seams,
And just when it seemed that all hope was gone,
You took my hand and told me hang on,
And you flew me to Heaven,
And I never knew,
How wonderful life could be,
Till I met you,

Now its true our love is deep but maybe,
Its to early to say you're the one for me,
But if you're not the one,
Then I don't know what I will do,
Because all my love is only for you,

And so I fly,
Soaring with you through out the sky,
Endlessly floating on cloud nine,
Its like I was never alive,
Till the day you came in my life,
And I never knew,
What love felt like,
Till I met you.

I never knew safety,
I never knew happiness,
I never knew love,
Till I met you.

All this lovey-dovey has got me feeling rather good. We'll, here we go:

"Closer to Me"
I want to be with you;
I want to hear your voice;
I want this love to be true,
But it is all your choice.
I want your love back;
I want your touch, your kiss;
I want you; you're what I lack;
I can't afford to hit and miss.

I want you closer to me!
I want you to know me more!
I want you to hold me tight;
Please never leave my sight.
I've never felt this way before;
You warm me to my heart's core.

You say you're going away;
Then let me go with you.
There's still so much I want to say,
So much more that we can do.
I'll follow you till the ends of the earth;
I don't care if I don't know the way.
You're the one I've loved since my birth;
I'll find you somehow, and everything will be okay.

I want you closer to me!
I want you to know me more!
I want you to hold me tight;
Please never leave my sight.
I've never felt this way before;
You warm me to my heart's core.

Though my heart may grow wear,
My strength may give way, my mind fill with inquirires,
I don't care. I love you; that's all that counts.
I'll find you. That's how much my love amounts (to).
I'm being torn up inside! I need you close to me;
To drive my away my demons; I'm locked up inside; you're the key.
I need to see your smile, feel your warm embrace.
I need to hear you, to touchyour gentle face.

I want you closer to me!
I want you to know me more!
I want you to hold me tight;
Please never leave my sight.
I've never felt this way before;
You warm me to my heart's core.

No matter the distance,
I know in this existence,
I'll find you and never let you go.
So I'm searching forever, just so you'll know
How I wished I could have said "good-bye."
No; not good-bye. Those words were a lie.
I meant to say "I love you,
I need you, I bleed you; I'll help you through."

I want you closer to me!
I want you to know me more!
I want you to hold me tight;
Please never leave my sight.
I've never felt this way before;
You warm me to my heart's core.

I wanted to say all that I felt,
How you filled me up and made my heart melt,
But I was too afraid. But not any more.
I lost you once from the decisions I've made, but I can't ignore
The truth any longer. Wait for me! I'm coming!
I can hear the beat of my own heart, strumming
Along to your song, singing to me all along.
You've grown so beautiful, so lovingly strong.

I want you closer to me!
I want you to know me more!
I want you to hold me tight;
Please never leave my sight.
I've never felt this way before;
You warm me to my heart's core.

You will ALWAYS be close to me.

Fatality.

Can I be close to you?! Pretty please? While you might be feeling all "good" with this stuff, I'm gettin' awfully lonesome... *, *.... um... is it against the forum rules to flirt online?

...
Um... no... at least, not to my knowledge (*gulp*)
Fatality.

*giggle* You ARE a nice boy, aintcha? You're so sweet...

*gulp* Um... maybe you should PM me or something... this is getting awkward... and I'd like to keep this thread focused...
Fatality.

LOL! You're so adorable! Are you blushing right now or what?! Okay, no sweat... guess you're right, though. Sorry, Andrea. Thread's yours again.

Fucking Hostile

ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR!

Almost everyday
I see the same face
On broken picture tube
It fits the attitude

If you could see yourself
You put you on a shelf
Your verbal masturbate
Promise to nausiate

Today I'll play the part of non-parent
Not make a hundred rules for you to know about yourself
Not lie and make you believe what's evil
Is making love, and making friends, and meeting God your own way
The right way

To see, to bleed
Cannot be taught
In turn, you're making us
Fucking hostile

We stand alone

The truth in right and wrong
The boundaries of the law
You seem to miss the point
Arresting for a joint

You seem to wonder why
Hundreds of people die
You're writing tickets, man
My mom got jumped, they ran

Now I'll play a public servant
To serve and protect by the Law and the State
I'd bust the punks that rape, steal, and murder
And leave you be, if you crossed me, I'd shake your hand like a man
Not a god

To see, to bleed
Cannot be taught
In turn, you're making us
Fucking hostile

We stand alone

Come meet your maker boy
Some things you can't enjoy
Because of heaven/hell
A fucking wives tale

They put it in your head
Then put you in your bed
He's watching say your prayers
'Cause God is everywhere

Now I'll play a man learning priesthood
To take the ultimate test in life
I'd question things because I am human
And call no one my father who's no closer than a stranger
I won't listen

To see, to bleed
Cannot be taught
In turn, you're making us

Fucking
Fucking
Fucking
Fucking Hostile

"RESENTMENT"
( this is about some classmate. She kept bulling me for about like 6 years )

------------------------------------------------
Everytime I say something
It has to be shoved back into my mouth

Can't do anything
With you bossing me around

Just have to deal with you
Until you go away and give up

There were two roads I could go by
You closed one so I have to go the other way

It never ends I'm afraid

I don't want to hear you say anything
Why should I

My self-esteem getting kind of weary
My motivation getting kind of bored
My mind getting kind of fed up
Myself getting kind of frusturated

You're never right when you say you're always right
-----------------------------------------------
I might just play this song and put it up online...

"NONSENSE"
( about today's celebrities )
-----------------------------------------------
I'm so sick of hearing old news
Some other second someone else gets sued

Christina and Britney tried to act hot
The repetitivity is not

All these boy bands try to act tough
Seems tiring

These rappers try to rip off songs that aren't theirs
I think I've said enough

King of Pop now has no nose
He's insane as he shows

This world is absurd
-----------------------------------------------

CAN'T GO ON THIS WAY

Sitting here,
Waiting for you to call,
Eventhough I know inside,
I'll be waiting forever,

And I fall,
And I can't go on this way,
I have to stand up and say,
That I need to walk away,
My heart is gonna break,
My soul is gonna ache,
But I can't go on this way,

Seaching for the one,
Never an easy task,
Still I look to God and ask,
That he'll call,

And I fall,
And I can't go on this way,
I have to stand up and say,
That I need to walk away,
My heart is gonna break,
My soul is gonna ache,
But I can't go on this way,

I hate to say,
That I can't go on this way,
Because I feel with some time,
And much needed dedication,
You could be perfection,

And I fall,
And I can't go on this way,
I have to stand up and say,
That I need to walk away,
My heart is gonna break,
My soul is gonna ache,
But I can't go on this way,

I hate to say,
I can't go on this way.

Painkiller

Faster than a bullet
Terrifying scream
Enraged and full of anger
He's half man and half machine

Rides the Metal Monster
Breathing smoke and fire
Closing in with vengeance soaring high

He is the Painkiller
This is the Painkiller

Planets devastated
Mankind's on its knees
A saviour comes from out the skies
In answer to their pleas

Through boiling clouds of thunder
Blasting bolts of steel
Evils going under deadly wheels

He is the Painkiller
This is the Painkiller

Faster than a lazer bullet
Louder than an atom bomb
Chromium plated boiling metal
Brighter than a thousand suns

Flying high on rapture
Stronger free and brave
Nevermore encaptured
They've been brought back from the grave

With mankind ressurrected
Forever to survive
Returns from Armageddon to the skies

He is the Painkiller
This is the Painkiller
Wings of steel Painkiller
Deadly wheels Painkiller

He is the Painkiller
This is the Painkiller

He is the Painkiller
This is the Painkiller

Pain
Pain
Killer
Killer

Pain
Pain
Killer
Killer

Can't stop the Painkiller

Pain

Title - Midnight Cry

Its the best in me
So true to life
Wish that you were here by my side
Im tired of misery
Its always the same to me
Put your best face on
Its time to go home

Forget the simples rules
You always took me for a fool
I know that one day I'll fly
Im blind to what you see
Always got the best of me
Turn around the car
I dont want to go anymore

At the midnight cry
We'll be heading home
We'll be heading home
At the midnight cry
We'll watch the angels fly

I know whats best for me
But I find myself lonely
When you left for good my heart died
Trade smile from you
Its all I ever wanted from you
Its the only thing in my life
That I know is true

At the midnight cry
We'll be heading home
We'll be heading home
At the midnight cry
We'll watch the angels fly
When we go back home
At the midnight cry
We'll be going soon
We'll be going soon

Title - Somewhere Inside

Isolation in desolation
I betrayed myself again
Pottery and silver trees
Suffice to say im sorry

Hypocrites and quiet wits
I betrayed myself again
World is gone and ive had no fun
All this and nothing

Let me think away my time
Let me think away my time
Ugh, no___
Wait
I see some more
Wait
I see some more

Tell me you love me, end of story
I betrayed myself again
Fall for true, false to you
I cant win without a clue

End of reasons, mix the seasons
I betrayed myself again
Sky is boring, tired of mourning
And still im not worthy

Let me think away my time
Let me think away my time
Ugh, no____
Wait
I see some more
Wait
I see some more

Say you're naked, lucky lady
I betrayed myself again
River is wild, only child
Only I make me proud

Start to wear me, need to tear me
I betrayed myself again
Catch my fire, burning tired
Hands of ash I still admire

Let me think away my time
Let me think away my time
Ugh no___
There is no more
There is no more

This cant be it
This cant be it
Im still on fire

Slica

Title - Special Place

Step into the fraility
Of life and its equalities
And watch the night swallow away the days

Side with what you feel
Since nothing living is real
And pray the stars will change your ways

So far so good
So far so good

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

Upside down and in the water
Hang me around until I falter
And save yourself from the waves

Come around and calm down
Can I do something to change your frown
And wash the tears off your face

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away


So far so good
So far so good
So far so good
So far so good

Thoughts of you invade my mind
Bringing back a better time

A time when ignorance was bliss
Of promises sealed with a tender kiss
And while I'm reminiscing, I begin to miss
The days when I was happy
When ignorance was bliss

To my former one and only
I've no more tears to cry
I live forever lonely
Until the day I die

A perfect picture shattered
Just like my broken heart
And all those empty promises
That you had torn apart

Dead are my emotions
Gone are love and trust
All that remains is a broken heart
Alone collecting dust

To my former one and only
I've no more tears to shed
I'll live forever lonely
Until the day I'm dead

A Touch Of EVIL

You mesmerise slowly
Till I can't believe my eyes
Ecstasy controls me
What you give just serves me right

Without warning you're here
Like magic you appear
I taste the fear
I'm so afraid
But I still feed the flame

In the night
Come to me
You know I want your Touch of Evil
In the night
Please set me free
I can't resist a Touch of Evil

Aroused with desire
You put me in a trance
A vision of fire
I never had a chance

A dark angel of sin
Preying deep from within
Come take me in
I'm so afraid
But I still feed the flame

In the night
Come to me
You know I want your Touch of Evil
In the night
Please set me free
I can't resist a Touch of Evil

Arousing me now with a sense of desire
Possessing my soul till my body's on fire

A dark angel of sin
Preying deep from within
Come take me in
You're possessing me

In the night
Come to me
You know I want your Touch of Evil
In the night
Please set me free
I can't resist a Touch of Evil

In the night
Come to me
You know I want your Touch of Evil
In the night
Please set me free
I can't resist a Touch of Evil

A Touch of Evil
A Touch of Evil
A Touch of Evil

I'm going through some tough times right now, and there's some people I need to apologize to. Whether I'm forgotten already has yet to be decided.

"Truth"
The bonds so strong broken;
The words erased before they were spoken.
The masks of lies killing me like cancer;
I have no explaination, no logical answer.
Still, I'm living this horrible lie.
It's almost too easy, but it gets me by.
To give in and accept the blame,
Accept the shame; can't erase the pain.
My greatest fear, to be just a name;
Three years forgotten, like it was all the same.
Don't blame you; I'd do the same, too;
I know it means nothing that I came through.

Can't survive. Can't feel alive.
So cold and alone. Hard as stone on my own.
There's nothing now, in this silent room of mine.
Not even the truth can surface from the inside.

Rejected from this world and rejected from life.
Still no excuse. I won't turn to anger or strife.
Betrayed by my friends, my lover, my brother;
Stabbed in the back and destroyed, like I was another.
I've hidden behind masks since before I was born,
But only by sheer personality; the masks that I've worn
Never hid me, like I hoped they'd do.
I wanted to be invisible, but you saw me through.
You wouldn't believe the truth now, even if I told you,
So I wonder where I stand, as my love eludes you.
That was never a lie. I would gladly die
To make you realize how much I've cried.

Can't survive. Can't feel alive.
So cold and alone. Hard as stone on my own.
There's nothing now, in this silent room of mine.
Not even the truth can surface from the inside.

Past forgotten comes roaring back.
Painful wounds reopened and attacked.
I try to measure up, but there's so much I lack.
What I thought didn't matter is blinded by facts.
Dreams I've shared and those dreams have died.
How the love so rare has vanished, though I tried
To keep myself strong. But I gave in and lied;
I knew it was wrong, but I'm dying on the inside.
I gave in and I answered the call and took the fall;
That still won't clean the blood off my wall.
Judge, jury, and executioner; I'm dead where I stand.
How well did you know me? Am I really that man?

Can't survive. Can't feel alive.
So cold and alone. Hard as stone on my own.
There's nothing now, in this silent room of mine.
Not even the truth can surface from the inside.

I choke up; just want to throw up.
I'm surprised you didn't blow up
And finish this charade I made.
The past isn't dead. I thought it had been laid
To rest, but it gets the best,
And I fail the test like all the rest.
"I love you" weren't just words with sick satisfaction.
I still believe words mean nothing without action.
Still, I wished you'd call, wish you'd right.
All I do now is just roam the halls in the dead of night.
I hurt you, I know, and God knows I never wanted to.
After all this time, I'm so remorseful that I could never meet you.

Can't survive. Can't feel alive.
So cold and alone. Hard as stone on my own.
There's nothing now, in this silent room of mine.
Not even the truth can surface from the inside.

Fatality.

"Invisible"
Since the day of my birth, I was told something was wrong;
Whenever I was with someone, we could never get along.
I was violent or I was boring,
But I spent so much time ignoring
Their taunts and claims that I grew tired and sick.
I never had friends; in dodgeball I was the last pick.
I was told I was odd, that I was weird.
The butt of everyone's jokes, yet secretly feared.

I became invisible,
A phantom of society.
I can't be sensible
When everyone lied to me.
Those who cared,
Those who saw my face;
All were ensnared
And all fell so far from grace.

I can't remember what pushed me over the edge, perhaps the attack;
I remember being hit and bleeding, then standing up and hitting back.
After that, it was worse than before.
Now I was left alone as well as ignored.
Lonely, I made the best of each day,
Helping those I could; never expecting to be repaid.
But I could only take so much. I took most.
I stopped taking it when I became a forgotten ghost.

I became invisible,
A phantom of society.
I can't be sensible
When everyone lied to me.
Those who cared,
Those who saw my face;
All were ensnared
And all fell so far from grace.

Lies spread about me, rumors circulated.
I was secretly loved yet openly hated.
A freak character from the mind of H.G. Well's,
Or perhaps from Ralph Ellison, or the devil from hell?
This "Invisible Man" can't take much more hate.
I could handle your faults, but you can't handle my mistakes.
I've been robbed of my life, my identity; my name's been taken.
My heart is crushed, my spirit bleeding, my soul forsaken!

I became invisible,
A phantom of society.
I can't be sensible
When everyone lied to me.
Those who cared,
Those who saw my face;
All were ensnared
And all fell so far from grace.

I'm sure they're proud of themselves now,
Gloating over me and tell each other how
They always knew I was a nothing little punk.
The gamble their wages, speculating on how far I've sunk.
I rose from nothing, I'll die with nothing. Inbetween is what matters.
I need to repair this bed-sheet phantom, stitch up the tears and tatters.
What is a name? I can't let it be torn from me or accept defeat.
A "rose by any other name would smell as sweet."
Only in stories. My optimism holds true,
But things can never be the same without you.

I became invisible,
A phantom of society.
I can't be sensible
When everyone lied to me.
Those who cared,
Those who saw my face;
All were ensnared
And all fell so far from grace.

Fatality.

You. don't. know. how. much. I. need you
While. you're. near. me. I. don't. feel blue
And when. we. kiss. I. know. you need. me too
I can't. believe. I found. a love
That's. so pure. and true

But it all was buuullshit
It was a goddamn joke
And when I think of you
I hope you fuckin choke

I. hope. you're. glad. with what. you've done. to me
I lay. in bed. all. day long. feeling. melan-choly
You left. me here. all. alone. tears running con-stantly

Oh somebody kill me please
Somebody kill me pleaaase!
I'm on my knees, pretty pretty please
Kiiill meee!
I want to diiie!
Put a bullet in my heeaaad!

-from the Wedding Singer... I love this song

I'm writing this song as a release. I found out my girlfriend was cheating on me two days ago and I instantly blew her off. She was one of the few people that I got really close to. Now, as far as I'm convinced, she's dead to me.

-Cold Hearted-

As you walk up to me
I see right through you
As you talk to me
I walk away
As you reach for me
I run off somewhere
As you cry for me
I feel NO PAIN!!!!

'Cause I'm Cold Hearted
NO feelings at all
Cold Hearted
Making you fall
Cold Hearted
An emotionless Wall
I'm Cold Hearted
No feelings at all

No regrets just sacrfices
No questions in mind
No emotions, or pain
I've left them behind
No apalogies needed
The talking is through,
No second chances or look backs
I'M FINISHED WITH YOU!!!!!! (Screams)

'Cause I'm Cold Hearted
No feelings at all
Cold Hearted
Watching You fall
Cold Hearted
Your one chance is through
Cold Hearted
I'm walking away from you!

I'm Cold Hearted
No feelings at all
Cold Hearted
Making you fall
Cold Hearted
Emotionless Wall
I'm Cold Hearted
No feelings at all.

Exodus:

I drag myself out of a murderous slumber
Last night's dinner made me hurl and chunder
But, there is no time to recover
I still have to serve for my Master
Stepping on hot coals from 9 to 5
Just so the Man's bank account can thrive
I get sh!t even though I always break my back
He gets the goods even if he does jack

This is it
Enough of this sh!t
It's time to let go
I want control

I am an individual
I won't serve your evil
I, am me!
You can't choose my destiny
I just want to run
Cause this is no fun
Oh, God help us
Because there is no Exodus

Every moment in my life is full of fear
We have lost control not from spirits and beer
But because of a few rich men want our souls
It feels like they are Godzilla and I am just a mole
I wish William Wallace would lead us to freedom
But I can't trust anyone as they could be "them"
What am I scared of?
It's time for me to stand up......

This is it
Enough of this sh!t
It's time to let go
I want control

I am an individual
I won't serve your evil
I, am me!
You can't choose my destiny
I just want to run
Cause this is no fun
Oh, God help us
Because there is no Exodus

Devil: So, you think you can revolt
You're my slave by default!
Man: I have rights!!!
I have seen the light!!!
Devil: There's nowhere to run
And Moses is obessed with his gun
Man: We have hopes and dreams
And we will acheive them by any means!!
Devil: NOW YOU LISTEN TO ME!!!
YOU CAN NEVER BE FREE!!!
So, the next time you cause strife
I will personally end your life!!
Go back to your cubicle
All this proves is that you're feeble

He is right
There is no light
Only pain
And nothing to blame
But me..........

This is it
I'm going to quit
Say goodbye
The end is nigh

I am an individual
I won't serve your evil
I, am me!!
You can't choose my destiny
I just want to run
Cause this is no fun
Oh, God help us
Cause there is no Exodus
Exodus...........................