Stupid Harry Potter.

Stupid Bellatrix.

Stupid Ron Weasley.





...... especially Ron Weasley.

Someone added me to their msn using the e-mail "fukshyriu"(note his very intelligent writting). Then he send me a message saying: "NIGGA FUCK YOU YOU GOD-DAMNED MOTHERFUCKING SHIT ASS BEANER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"
Now, I just wanted to declare that he's touched me... Never in my life had I ever had so much pain. He's right! I'm just a beaner. Oh! The WOE! Thank you illiterate person, you've changed my ways forever. Ps.:He uses the screen name derka.

You have one guess.

I think that RyanRaiden is in love with you or something man. That is just messed up.

Anyways..

I just got back from spending the weekend with my G/F and it was fun as hell. We had alot of plans but because it rained so much we didnt really get to do much at all. Although, I met alot of new people and it was nice to get out this town. So im not complaining.

So what did i miss?

redman goes from "redman" to "deadman"


his new name is sweet00th with two 0's, so you don't forget that he's not only creative, but dyslexic.



nothing else, after that.



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I haven't been able to sleep recently, and it's really upsetting me.

Damn man.

To much on your mind or what? I was having trouble sleeping for a little while there then i was going to sleep early again and now as you can see its all messed up again from this weekend.

So whats the matter? Maybe i can help.

On a sidenote: I just tried to log on to Photobucket and its not working....It must be down yet again.

That's just it; I have no idea. I normally sleep late when I don't have to work, and when I do work I start my shifts around 8-10 AM, so I would need sleep to function, but I just can't get it. There are a few things going on right now, but none of them are particularly bad/dire...

I'll give a list:

- I go back to school in 2 weeks, and while I am excited for that, it isn't anything I've lost sleep over before.

- I miss my girlfriend. A ton. But, that is to be expected when she lives 150 miles away, and we go to the same school (so I'll see her when I go back), and furthermore, in nearly 2 years of being with her, one would think I've grown accustomed to the distance. I also want to surprise her for our anniversary (the 28th) but I worry that she'll be expecting it and it'll backfire... kind of a damned if I do, damned if I don't thing.

- I have the house to myself until Thursday (I think) because my brothers are with my dad, and my mom just left for North Carolina with her boyfriend (who I despise) and I've never liked being alone in my house over long periods. My dad is also taking my brothers to the Baseball Hall of Fame on Friday, and while I have to work that day and can't go, he didn't offer to take me.

- Work's been stressful. My manager has always told me that since I know how to do her job, which is to manage the front end (I work for a supermarket) and run customer service that I'd be wasted doing things like cash register, training new hires, or watching over the self-checkout, but the latter three things are exactly what I've been doing as of late. I go way back with my manager (she hired me originally 4 years ago, when we were both at a different location) and though I've been on and off working for them (due to school) I think that I deserve better. In addition, my hours keep getting cut, so I have very little money to work with to bring back to school with me. She allowed me to cover her lunch break on Saturday, so things may be looking up for my final 2 weeks.

- There's been a growing rift between my mom and I, but it's been for the same reasons why we've always squared off in the past. Nothing new here.

- When I do manage to sleep, I keep having weird dreams about things that make entirely no sense. I've had dreams/nightmares about games, a break-up, death (both myself and others, on separate occasions), heroism, disappearing, what things would be like without me... by now you should get the picture.

- My grandfather's been in and out of the hospital like Lindsay Lohan's been on and off the peace pipe. It isn't pretty and he keeps getting worse. It's only a matter of time before he goes, honestly. He's a veteran from the Korean War, and when I was little I used to love hearing his stories.

- I'd have to say that MKO is at least some part of it as well. I'm not going to say that I'm losing sleep over this site, but certain recent events have caused me to dwell on it more and more as of late. Those in the know will be able to figure out what I'm referring to. I stress that I am not considering leaving the site right now (to the delight or dismay of everyone, depending on who you are) but I may need to take breaks here and there. I promise I won't go without warning.

Something just isn't right with me right now. It could be one of these more than the others, or something I can't even think of.

I'm going to try to catch some sleep, I have work in 3 hours. I did get a good night's sleep last night though (9 hours), but the night before that I managed just 2.

Honestly man,That is alot of things to have on your mind while trying to sleep. This is what i try to do. I listen to music when im going to sleep. I tell myself "No food,No computer,No games,No nothing. Im just going to go lay in my bed and (not get up for any reason) think of nothing and eventually i fall asleep."

Another thing i used to do (When i had a T.V) was find something so boring on and just watch it till i passed out. This way you are not thinking of anything except how lame this movie is lol.

I mean i may not really have the answer for you. It may just be something that you will have to fix on your own. I dunno. But i will say that atleast trying these things i mentioned,Couldnt hurt right?

He's really deprived of a life... and it's not like I often made fun of him... Imagine if I actually did!

Ryan is hilarious. He always talks about how mature and awesome he is, yet he fails life in so many ways, it's sad.

He calls himself what?! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA! Poor lifeless kid... HAHAHAHAHAHA!

Wow. Talk about having too much free time on your hands.


-SMR-

Awwww... it turned against the poor kid... He wanted... I have no idea, I can't beleive he'd expect it to do anything... but it's turning against him... he looks even dumber everytime.

Ha. RyanRaiden is after Shyriu again. I love this shit.

It wouldn't be as funny if he actually knew how to insult.

Since my Xy-Boo is having some technical Difficulties (Ghey!), I shall post this for Him ^_^



WTF? Do we have Phantom Members or something that only appear at a certain hour? >.

Why is there 100+ people online right now?

I believe we're experiencing some sort of technical difficulties. Look at the timestamps... they're reading like 4 hours too fast. I'm trying to contact DArqueBishop to see what the problem is.

Erik better makes it very far in Survivor China. :P

Jealous?

Gr... School is in now.

What the hell's wrong with that boy?

Test.