Oh, I see...duly noted again.
Don't you Hate people's bullshit?
All this, "Striving to individualize" and then at the same time, "Longing to belong to something". Or trying like it's really necessary to "Fit in" somewhere? It's as-tro-nomically over rated and consequently ridiculous. SO fuckin' utterly ridiculous....
Look, you're from where you are from, you are groomed to the title your parents (or you) chose you to be...your friends are your friends, family? That is your family. Own-that-shit. Own your shit-u-ation. We all have to...we all choose.
I can't stand the little subliminal, little, "covert" messages in the bullshit some people pull.
I can't stand it when people are too busy bothering you to decide what they really want, or who they really are. Let alone, just come out and voice themselves honestly, and not "how they feel" based on what's happening in whatever current situation.
Timid about just...being your damn-self. All the frontin', all the little "crowd pleasing" gestures and shit. I Hate That about You...because you don't have worthwhile, staying substance. You are in essence....a parody of who you should be intellectually, emotionally, and physically...you are the shell of someone who should fill the void you create by merely existing.
You know what I wish? I wish it didn't take people in-to their 30's and 40's and shit, to figure out that people judge you based on your First Impression. I wish the truth, and love was taught....innocence cherished, instead of ignorance, hatred, and sensitivity violations... I wish, lying was less generally tolerable by 10%, virtue and morality encouraged to manifest and grow. Instead of "It's just how people work". But that it is, isn't it?
Anyway, from there, you either prove their first impression of you right, or wrong.
In other words, You can keep lying about yourself to everybody until your true self shows up and can be dealt with on a realistic level, OR from the start of anything you encounter, you can say: "Fuck this fake shit, this is the real, actual, me..This is what I'm about. This is why I'm here, this is what I want....Now are we going to get along about me?; will I learn anything worthwhile from being around you?; is there a give and take at all?; or not?
Because otherwise, I'm trying to screen out as much of the bullshit in my life as possible, to make this life easier on me. I gotta keep it moving otherwise, so that I find more people that love me--just because I'm me. I have no time to waste about this part of my true self. No sir//ma'am, there is not one hard feeling about this decision I have made for myself.....But I have made this choice for personal preference, and I am absolutely not sorry about how you may feel as a result. lol
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Basically, to the Fake ass people out there, I see You. Doesn't matter if we're face to face, or on the phone. Doesn't matter if I'm driving, and never see your face.Doesn't matter if you're drunk, high.....does-not-matter if we're on the internet, miles away from each other and only "meet" on a forum. None of that shit matters.
I can see ev-ery-time you Fuck-Up, and not give-me-the "Real You".
lol
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